A Tortured Soul

A Tortured Soul!

Anthony’s Story

Written By John Pexton & Adam

           

 Chapter 1: Shannon the Bitch

        We all go through things that test us but what happens when you are constantly being tortured despite how good of a person you are? My name is Antonio Francesco Johnston but everyone either calls me Anthony or Tony. I was an only child from wealthy family who lives in Connecticut. If you want to know what I look like I am 6 feet tall and I weigh 180 with a nice tone muscular body. I look exactly like my father with Dark golden blond hair, deep ocean blue eyes and a golden tan. People tend to say that I have a childlike innocence about me and that I am very hopeful & optimistic. 

I have been through so much in the past few years and it is more than anyone should have to endure. My story really started on my 18th birthday where my best friend Joey dared me to kiss him. 

"Anthony, what are you going to do for your birthday this year? Shannon and I are on a break and she is driving me up the wall. I need to get my mind off of her." Joey said 

"I don't know, my parents are doing something this year but I am not sure. What happened between you and Shannon this time?" I asked 

"Well you know how jealous she is and she caught me talking to Julie who is super-hot! Julie and I are lab partners and she needed help with the projects. I told Shannon to shut up and that she is being a bitch again and she stormed off saying, "fine then be with that tramp!" Joey mentioned; "If she wasn't so hot I would have dumped her a long time ago. So now I am bringing Julie to your party." 

"Joey, are you going to tell Shannon that you are with Julie? You know I don't like Shannon after she tried throwing herself at me then claimed that I tried forcing her but I tolerate her because you are my best friend." I claimed 

"I don't know if Shannon and I will get back together because she is so annoying, but she is hot as hell!" Joey exclaimed' 

       Joey also known, as Joseph Eduardo Dmitri de Rey Romanovich is a ladies man. He is a tall dashing young man that was also born into wealth. He has black hair with ice blue eyes that seems to burn into your soul. He is 6'2 at 200lbs with a dark tan that goes good with his tone muscular body! He is sly and clever which matches his dashing good looks. He was the captain of the football team and starting quarterback since he was a freshman.

       A week rolls around and it is my 18th birthday. My parents are setting up the pool house for my party and my mom has made her famous cake. Now guests have started to arrive and the party was going without any problems. We were all having a great time. Joey is dancing with Julie while I am talking to my cousin Katie and my parents are in the back enjoying the party from afar. Suddenly Joey's ex, Shannon comes into the party and she is furious. 

       "WHY THE HELL DIDN'T YOU INVITE ME TO YOUR PARTY? YOU KNOW FAGGOT; YOU WILL NEVER BE ANYTHING THAN WHAT YOU ARE! A GOOD FOR NOTHING LITTLE BITCH! THE ONLY REASON PEOPLE LIKE YOU IS BECAUSE YOUR PARENTS ARE WEALTHY!" Shannon yelled which everyone stopped to see what the problem was. Suddenly they watched Shannon slap me across the face before grabbing the punch bowl and poured it over my head. Then she kicked me in my family Jewels. 

“What the fuck is this psycho’s problem with me? I ignore her and she does everything in her power to make me miserable! I be civil with her and she throws herself at me then say I wanted to be with her. I need to get away from this psycho and if she was a guy I would fucking knock her lights out for doing what she did just now.” I thought gritting my teeth 

"What the hell is your problem Bitch? I told Anthony not to invite you because I knew you would act like this. I am not with you so move on Slut! I am with Julie!" Joey snapped 

"You want to know what I think about your little tramp!" Shannon spat; "Have a nice swim you fake Barbie!" Shannon stated shoving Julie into the pool 

Shannon is 5'6 who just turned 17 years old. She is very slender and beautiful with her long wavy red hair and green eyes that complements her face. She would be likeable if she didn't constantly be stuck up and vindictive. She has to control everything and constantly buts heads with Joey because Joey won't let her have control. 

       Julie then grabbed Shannon pulling her into the pool, where they began to fight. When Shannon was pulled into the pool, she grabbed onto the closest thing, which happened to be me. When I went into the pool I knocked Katie in as well. While the girls were fighting I climbed out of the water, and then helped my cousin out as well. Now Joey was encouraging the fight to continue, but he kept steeling glances at Katie while she was dripping wet. I shot death glares at Joey, telling him to don't even think about it! Katie and I proceeded to change into something dry while my dad broke up the fight, and told Shannon to get off of his property. The next day Joey comes back to my house and we begin discussing what happened! 

"Dude! That was so hot last night!" Joey cried out; "I have never seen Shannon like that, and turned me on so much where it lead to a 3 some with Shannon and Julie. It was so amazing! Sorry that she ruined your party, but I never thought I would see the girls fighting soaking wet, and have it lead to a fucking 3 some!" Joey gloated 

"I am glad you enjoyed yourself. Why is it that when she gets angry I am the person she attacks? She is fucking messed up and I really wish she would just leave me alone! I don't really want anything to do with her but I will be civil to her for your sake. I can't stand that Conniving Evil Bitch and I will not be her punching bag anymore. Please talk to her and get her off my back." I asked 

"Don't worry. I will keep her off your back and I am sorry that she ruined your party but it was fucking awesome!" Joey boasted 

"I am amazed at how you can take your crazy girlfriend going psycho and turn it a good thing! By the way, I saw you checking out my cousin while she was soaking wet all because Shannon decided to go psycho; causing a huge scene which lead to the 4 of is into the pool." I declared “Only Joey could be with another girl check out someone else and encourage a fight all at the same time. He could also take a fight and turn it into a fucking 3some with the girls involved in the fight.” I thought as I shook my head at that image 

"Yeah she is hot bro! I guess good looks run in your family." Joey stated 

"Don't even think about it! Promise me you will leave her alone." I pleaded 

"Why?" Joey questioned 

"I know you Joey! Please for me leave her alone." I begged 

"Ok I will leave her alone, because she is your family and you asked me too." Joey assured. 

       As time went by Joey and Shannon decided to get back together again! Shannon is a year younger than me and decided to throw a graduation party celebrating the occasions on her birthday. When Shannon approached Joey while we were having lunch at my mom's restaurant Caravello's that is inside my dad's grand hotel named Caravello's Dream; she demanded to speak to Joey privately. 

"Joey my 18th birthday and my graduation party are on the same day and I want you to come help set up. I want this to be perfect and I don't want any drama!" Shannon stated 

"Sure thing Shannon, both Anthony and I will come and help set up the party." Joey informed 

"Fine he can come, but he is going to help set up!" Shannon spat; "Saturday I want you both there at noon! The Party is at 3pm! Don't be late!" Shannon fumed as she stormed out of the restaurant 

“Why do I allow myself to get caught up in Joey’s schemes? I really need to start saying no to him when he wants to involve me in his problems!” I sighed 

Saturday roles around and Joey is hanging out with me and I remind him about Shannon's Party.  

"Joey its 1130, do you think we should head over to Shannon's house? You promised we would help set up her party and it will be another thing she is going to use against me.” I reminded; 

“Dude! Why do you tell her you are going to do something and never do it, and why do you keep dragging me into your schemes?" I exasperated 

"Eh let her sweat. I only said that so she would leave me alone. She knows I am not going to show until later and she is going to blow things out of proportion. Then she is going to apologize and we are going to have make-up sex! That is how it always works." Joey said 

"Dude you are wacked! Do you only date her for the sex?" I accused"Yeah pretty much! I am getting bored of her constant whining I think I am going to end it soon. How is your dad doing? Is he still getting those headaches?" Joey asked changing the subject 

"He is still having the headaches and the doctors have prescribed Hydrocodone to help." I said  

3 O'clock rolls around when we make our way to Shannon's Party. I greet Shannon wishing her a happy birthday and congratulate her on graduating. 

"Happy Birthday!" I said 

"Thanks! How are you?" Shannon asked a bit annoyed 

"I am good! Thanks for inviting me. How are you?" I replied 

"I am good!" Shannon stated 

"I am going to mingle and leave you to talk to Joey." I walked off when my phone rang! "Hello!" I answered 

"Where are you?" my dad asked 

"I am at Shannon's Party! Is there something wrong Dad?" I wondered 

"I am not feeling well and we have a lot of interviews to go through. I was wondering if you could come home and do the interviews for me. I think I am going to lie down!" my dad mentioned 

"Yeah dad, I will be home in about 15 minutes." Anthony stated; 

"Excuse me Shannon. Joey! I have to go, my dad is not feeling well and he wants me to do the interviews. I will talk to you later. Nice Party Shannon!" I said as I ran home 

"Ok see you bro. Hope your dad feels better!" Joey said 

"Thanks! You too!" Shannon said sarcastically; "You ass hole!" She added under her breath 

"What is your problem? Anthony has not done anything to you and you treat him like garbage!" demanded Joey 

"MY PROBLEM IS YOU ARE ALWAYS WITH THAT FUCKING FAGGOT! WHY DO YOU HANG AROUND WITH THAT FUCKING LOSER?" Shannon shouted 

"He is not a loser, he is my friend and will you fucking shut up! I have known him since we were born. Our dads are best friends." Joey spat! 

"HE IS A FUCKING HOMO!" Exclaimed Shannon 

"Wow! I know he is gay but he is a good person, and he has more class than you! You are a skank and a slut while he is kind, caring, and sensitive and he's my brother! You have always been jealous of him. You even threw yourself at him then said he tried forcing you. You are nothing but a lying bitch!" Joey fumed 

"YOU HAVE TO CHOOSE! DO YOU CHOOSE ME OR THAT FUCKING QUEER?" Shannon informed

"Do you hate him because he is gay?" Joey asked 

"I HATE HIM BECAUSE HE TRIED KISSING YOU! YOU ALWAYS CHOOSE HIS SIDE AND BELIEVE HIM OVER ME! HE DID TRY TO FORCE ME!" Shannon cried; "SO CHOOSE ME OR THAT FUCKING FAGGOT!" 

"YOU KNOW WHAT, I CHOOSE MY BEST FRIEND OVER YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A LYING EVIL BITCH! IF YOU DON'T HAVE YOUR WAY, YOU HAVE TO MAKE EVERYONE MISERABLE! I HOPE YOU FIND WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING FOR, AND IT IS CLEARLY NOT ME! HAVE A FUCKING GOOD LIFE!" Joey snapped as he stormed out of the party 

As soon as Joey left the party, my friends followed him out which happened to be most of the guests. Those who stayed were Shannon's closest friends and the guys that wanted to fuck her! Shannon now realized she was wrong, and she felt threatened by my relationship with Joey. This caused it to finally be over. She knew in her heart I was no threat to her and that Joey was like a brother. She just didn't like the fact that Joey was something she couldn't control.   

  Chapter 2: Tony’s Strip Show! 

Well, things started out rough with Joey’s girlfriend hating me but they are about to get worse! Shannon may have ruined my birthday and kicked me in the crotch, but I would rather deal with her than what is about to happen! Come to think of it what she did to me was nothing compared to what I am going to go through! Now on the patio I’m interviewing people to be the grounds keeper when Paco comes up! Paco is a 23-year-old American whose Parents came to America on a green card while Paco’s mother was pregnant with him! Originally from Mexico they came to America for a chance at a better life! He’s 200 lbs of pure muscle at 5’10” tall. He is really good looking with his black hair, black eyes and strong face! I also noticed he is wearing brand new pair of Nike AF1’s on his feet. 

“Good afternoon I am Paco Julio de Caceres Nunez, and I am here to interview for the position of groundskeeper!” Paco introduced 

“Good Afternoon! My name is Antonio Francesco Johnston and I will be interviewing you today! According to your resume you are studying to be a botanist. Is that correct?” I asked 

“Yes! Plants are my passion! I am working my way through college and I am also at the top of my class!” informed Paco 

“Your resume also states that you have worked for Mr. Petrollini for 10 years as a gardener and that he has written you a letter of recommendation!” I stated 

“Yes Mr. Antonio! I have worked as a gardener for 10 years and Mr. Petrollini has helped my family out a lot! I am a Mexican American, so I’m fluent in both Spanish and English. I was born in Dallas and raised on the outskirts!” Paco explained 

“Tell me about yourself Paco!” I asked 

       “Well I love plants! I pride myself in taking care of plants while studying them! I am an amateur photographer, which I use those skills in taking pictures to monitor and document any changes! I want to be able to travel so I can study different plants around the world! I am working on my Doctorate and my thesis is on the life cycle of plants! The pictures I take, I will use in my presentation when I go up against the board of directors next month!” mentioned Paco“Well you are overqualified to be a groundskeeper but you are more experienced than the rest of the people I have interviewed today! This is my last interview, and I have made my decision! Can you start Monday?” I asked 

“Really Mr. Antonio! I got the Job!” Paco cried 

       “Yes starting Monday! You will get $20 dollars an hour and here is what you are required to do! Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays you are to water and tend to the gardens. These 3 gardens are off limits! They are my mother’s gardens and she doesn’t like anyone in them! Wednesdays you will be trimming the bushes and making sure that they are nice and crisp! Saturdays you are going to mowing the lawns and edge around the gardens! Do you have any questions?” I questioned 

“Mr. Antonio! Do you have a place for the workers to live? I have just moved here because I transferred up here to go to Connecticut State University!” Paco informed 

       “Yes, there is the groundskeepers’ cottage which is located at the front of the property! I will show where it is at the tour! This pool with the waterfall is off limits! It is my private pool and it leads to my private space on this yard! I had a clearing made behind this pool that has a small lake on it! Now I also built a cave that I access in order to get to the clearing! A stream flows over the cave and creates the waterfall that flows into the pool! The water all cycles through this and constantly is cleaning the water! The only time you can use it is if I give you permission! 

       This shed is where you will find all the tools needed to perform your job! You are expected to keep everything neat and in its place! Now this is the grounds keeper’s cottage. As you can see, it’s a 2 story house with a pool and a garden that sitting on 10 acres along the front of the property! You can live here rent free but you are in charge of your own electricity and utilities! Our old groundskeeper passed away 2 weeks ago and she ran this place for 10 years! We could have all of her stuff removed if you wish!” I mentioned as he gave the tour. 

“Thank you Mr. Antonio!  I will keep the furniture but I don’t need the clothes!” Paco Informed! 

“Very well! Go through and bag what you don’t need! Now let’s go back to the main house where we will get you sized up for your uniform and we still need to fill out the paperwork!” I stated 

Paco followed me back to the main house where we filled out all the paperwork! Then I began getting the measurements while the boy was wearing a white t-shirt, boxer briefs and white socks! Once Paco was sized up, I went and got a uniform and boots for him to try on!Monday evening rolls around and Paco was taking pictures of the gardens and unbeknown to me pictures of me as well. I was wearing Armani Jeans and brand new Nike AF1 Hi, white and black with no shirt on cleaning out my pool! Joey decided to greet the new Grounds keeper by scaring the poor boy while looking for me! 

“BOO!” Joey shouts scaring the boy making him fumble his phone and Camera! 

“Whoa! You scared me Mister!” Paco screamed 

“What are you doing?” Joey interrogated 

“Me! I am uh taking pictures of the plants! I am using them for my research!” mentioned Paco as he tried to catch his breath 

“Yeah, that’s not the only view in the area is it?” Joey persisted 

“I don’t know what you are talking about mister!” Paco stammered 

“Then why are you blushing madly like you were caught doing something you are not supposed to and what is this, a tent forming in your pants!” teased Joey 

“I uh plants excite me! I am the new Groundskeeper Hired by Mr. Antonio!” Paco growing uncomfortable by this interrogation! “Who are you Mr. and what business do you have here?” questioned Paco“I am Joey, Anthony’s best friend and why do you call him Mr. Antonio?” Joey wondered 

“He is my Employer so I call him Mr. Antonio!” Paco justified 

“Call him Anthony or Tony! Mr. Antonio sounds weird! Where is he anyways?” asked Joey 

“He is over by the pool cleaning out the leaves!” Paco directed 

Joey spots where Paco pointed and gets a brilliant idea to push me into the pool to greet me! Joey sneaks up on me while I am leaning over the pool and shoves me into the water! Joey then begins to roll around laughing while Paco took pictures of the entire scene! 

“AH WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?” I shouted… “HELP ME OUT OF THE POOL YOU JERK!” 

“You should have seen your face!” Joey said between laughs 

“HAHAHA VERY FUNNY!” I said sarcastically… “NOW HELP ME OUT OF THE POOL!” I demanded 

Joey reached out his hand to help pull me out of the pool when I decided a little pay back and pulled Joey into the pool! Before Joey could react I was out of the pool and half way across the yard!“YOU ARE DEAD!” Joey shouted 

“You have to catch me first!” I replied 

Paco watched the entire scene and was getting excited and he kept taking pictures of me while I was soaking wet! Joey finally caught up to me and told me I have a secret admirer! 

“Hey Anthony your new gardener is kind of weird!” Joey commented 

“Why? Because he is taking pictures of flowers and plants! He is doing a research project on the life cycle of plants!” I informed 

“He may be taking pictures of plants but that is not the only thing he is taking pictures of! When I walked in I think he was taking pictures of you and when I questioned him he said he was taking pictures of the plants!” Joey exclaimed 

“Maybe he is! I really don’t pay attention to him, he is here to work and that’s it! Who am I to question that he is taking pictures of plants? He told me he was going to be doing that during the interview! How was the party?” I asked changing the subject 

      “It was short! As soon as you left Shannon started up again bitching that you didn’t say: “Bye!” Then went on saying I spend way too much time with you and always stick up for you! She kept calling you a fucking faggot and that you are scum! Then she said that you did try forcing her which I know is not true! I know she was the one who came onto you! I had it with her! I had it with all her lies and manipulative ways! So I chose you over her and then left!” Joey explained 

“Wow really so what did you do over the weekend then?” I asked 

“Well I ran into your cousin after the party and I was going to treat her to coffee and maybe watch the sunset!” Joey stated 

“You didn’t do anything to her did you?” I questioned 

“Well… You see I knew you told me to stay away but I was horny and one thing lead to another!” Joey stated 

“JOEY YOU PROMISED!” I yelled 

      Now Katie is 5’6 with light medium brown hair and green eyes to match! She is slender and very beautiful! She is the type of person who will go out of her way to help a friend in need but she will also fight to protect her family and ones she cares about! Don’t do anything to piss her off or you will get it and when she says she is going to do something she will do it! 

“I am sorry bro I couldn’t help it!” Joey mentioned… “Who are you calling?” Joey asked 

“I am calling Katie! Hello Katie I have a question do you know my friend Joey?” I inquired 

“Yes why?” Katie wondered 

“Did he do anything to you?” I questioned 

“Anthony! That is distasteful and none of your fucking business!” Katie snapped 

“Well he told me that you guys did and I wanted to make sure he was not telling me a lie!” I reasoned 

“Fuck! I wouldn’t say that we did anything because your friend Joey pulled it out was about to insert and then put it away so we really didn’t do anything besides make out!” Katie explained 

“Oh ok thanks for clearing it up for me!” I stated 

“Tell Joey thanks for the sunset and tell him that I am mad at him!” Katie spat 

“Katie hates you, and she wants to thank you for the sunset that never happened!” I repeated… “Bye Katie, talk to you later! Dude 10 seconds; why did you? You know what I don’t even want to know!” I stated 

       “Well I was feeling horny after I broke it off with Shannon when I ran into your cousin! We talked and introduced each other then I had intentions of watching the sunset with her and then my horniness got too much so I started making out with her! After making out I undressed her and pulled down my pants and was about to insert it into her but then I pulled out because of you! Every time I tried all I could think about is you telling me not to! I told her I can’t do this and pulled my pants up and brought her home!” Joey Explained 

“I should kill you but I won’t!” I stated annoyed when my phone rang… “Hello!” 

“Anthony can you please come get me?” Katie said while crying 

“Yeah where are you and why are you crying?” I asked 

“I am at the mall right now and my Fiancé broke up with me because he heard what your best friend did to me!” Katie sobbed 

“How did he hear about that and I didn’t know you two were engaged!” I stated 

“It just happened yesterday!” mentioned Katie 

“Wait she has a fiancé?” questioned Joey 

“Shush!” I said as he continued to listen 

“Who is that?” Katie wondered 

“It’s Joey!” I exclaimed 

“Kick him for me, if he never sweet talked me I would still be with Marc!” Katie fumed 

“Anthony what are you doing let’s talk about this! I thought you were not going to kill me!” Joey backed away  

“Katie told me to kick you and I am going to kick you!” I stated as I went to kick Joey where it hurts the most but he moved and got kicked in the shin! 

“OUCH WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT FOR!” Joey yelled as he grabbed the phone from me 

“THAT WAS FOR BEING AN ASS! IF YOU WERE GOING TO DO IT YOU SHOULD HAVE GONE ALL THE WAY! NOW MY FIANCE BROKE UP WITH ME BECAUSE HE OVERHEARD WHAT WE DID AND SAID GO BE WITH THAT TWAT!” Katie fumed 

“YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME THAT YOU HAD A FIANCE!” Joey shot back 

      “Well now since you wanted to be with me you are going to take me on a real date and you are not getting a homerun for a very long time! I am going to make sure of that! If you hurt me in any way I will hurt you and If I don’t I will make Anthony hurt you! I don’t care if you are his best friend! You caused me end it with Marc even though he cared about porn more than me! Marc has a problem with watching too much porn!” Katie said as she hung up the phone leaving Joey speechless 

“Joey what did she say?” I asked 

“Wow she is fucking nuts!” Joey claimed… “I think I am in love with her but I don’t want to be tied down right now!” 

       My 19^th birthday comes around and Joey asks Katie out before bringing me to a strip bar telling all the strippers that it is my birthday and gives them all $500 to play with me. Joey recorded the entire night and laughed at me for I was so frightened that I couldn’t get away from the strippers. We now skip ahead 2 years to find that Joey and Katie decide to take me out to celebrate their anniversary and my birthday. 

“Hey Tony get dressed we are going out to dinner tonight to celebrate your birthday and our 2 year anniversary.” Katie said 

“Where are we going?” I asked 

“We are going to Giorgio’s, Joey has made reservations there.” Katie exclaimed 

       “Fine let me get dressed but I would rather spend it here than be a 3^rd wheel on your date. You know when you drag me along on your dates I always feel awkward and left out. Then there was that time you tried setting me up on a blind date so I wouldn’t feel awkward and I was stood up because the guy you set me up with you spotted across the room making out with another guy.” I sighed “I really don’t want to go out tonight but if I don’t I will never hear the end of it from my cousin!” I thought 

“It is your birthday and we want you to have a good time.” Katie said! 

       An hour later Katie, Joey and I arrive at Giorgio’s restaurant where Joey buys whiskey for the table and then begins to order for Katie and him! While Katie and Joey are deeply involved into their conversation I tell the waiter about their 2 year anniversary before ordering our food. After we were done eating I excuse myself to go to the bathroom while the waiter checked to see how things were going. Katie then told the waiter that it happened to be my birthday and that I just turned 21! 

       During the evening they manage to get me completely drunk and I decide to go to the stage and starts stripping and all the ladies were hollering and cheering which resulted in them tipping me. Katie and Joey tried controlling me but I kept dancing but I never revealed anything more than my tone chest and my legs. A News reporter then got a story of a lifetime because they happened to be at the restaurant at the same time as me! Joey and Katie finally got me off the stage and the reporter not only got photos and videos but she was about to get something more. 

       All the ladies told the manager and the owner thanks for the show I have never had this much fun and we will definitely come here again. They all tipped the waiters big amounts of money and despite about to throw me out they had the best night of their career and they made more money with my impulsive stripper show. Katie and Joey were so embarrassed that they finally got me to put my clothes back on and were getting ready to leave when I refused and wouldn’t leave the restaurant. Joey being cunning promised me a kiss if I agreed to leave. Me being me agreed but wouldn’t leave unless Joey kissed me first. Joey agreed to do it but only on the cheek and when he leaned in to kiss me I turned and kissed Joey on the lips. The reporter was able to take a picture of the incident and knew that this was going to be gold. I then walked out of the restaurant with the biggest grin on my face and then passed out in the back seat of Joey’s car.   

Chapter 3: Paco Rapes Tony 

       As the day progressed I found myself getting drunk and stripping in public but that is nothing to what is to come. I don’t care if I humiliated myself I actually made good money doing that and I inadvertently gave the restaurant the best business since they were open. That is beside the point if I had known what was to come I would have stayed home. Joey and Katie are bringing me home while I am passed out in the back seat of Joey’s car. They are trying to get me up so they could get me into the house and sleep. 

“Tony it is time to get up.” Said Joey as he shook me. 

“I don’t want to go to school mom.” I mumbled 

“Come on Tony you have to get up.” Joey stated 

“Leave me alone!” I cried 

“Tony GET UP IT IS TIME TO GO HOME!” Shouted Joey 

“No!” I cried being stubborn 

“That’s it!” Joey fumed as he filled a bucket with Ice Cold Water and dumped in on my head, which startled me waking me from my sleep.“You are mean!” I cried like child as I stumbled out of the car and fell to the ground 

“You know what I had enough, you are home I am out of here.” Joey got into the car and Katie and Joey took off leaving me alone.I then got up because I wasn’t sure where to go; I stumbled across the yard and managed to trip over Paco’s garbage cans. Paco was about to go up to his room when he heard a loud bang. Not sure what it was he looked out his front window and found me laying on his garbage can. 

“Mr. Antonio? What are you doing out here?” Paco said as he ran to help me. 

Paco sat me on the bench in his front yard then went to pick the garbage up and then brought me inside. I came around and thought I was dead. 

“Jesus is that you? I am drunk Jesus.” I stuttered 

“I am not Jesus Mr. Antonio! It is me Paco and let’s get you to bed.” Paco informed 

“Ok Jesus! I am thirsty do you have something to drink Jesus?” I slurred 

“Yes sit here while I go get you some water.” Paco said 

“Ok!” I fell over the arm of the couch and started giggling 

“Mr. Antonio where did you go?” Paco wondered concern 

“I have fallen down and I am stuck.” I laughed 

“Oh Mr. Antonio what am I going to do with you?” Paco asked himself…”Here sit up and drink your water.” Paco exclaimed sitting me up 

       I drank my water and sat the glass on the floor then started to laugh. Paco then helped me up the stairs and brought me to his room. Once he got me to his room he began to get me ready for bed. He first removed my shoes and smelled each one. After he removed the shoes and socks he unbuttoned my pants. He sat me up and then began removing me shirt and t shirt. I was lying in my boxer briefs and Paco could see every detail of my body including what was hidden underneath and this made Paco extremely hard. 

“Jesus you are cute thank you for helping me find my way home.” I mentioned very tired. 

“Go to bed I will take care of you.” Paco soothed 

“Ok!” I said falling into a deep sleep. 

       Paco then positioned me onto the bed and the way I was sleeping just made Paco’s cock throb harder. Paco then grabbed his camera and started taking pictures of me and the pictures were so detailed Paco could not control his urges anymore and had to do something. He wanted me so bad but in the same sense I trusted him not to hurt me. He didn’t know what to do but the longer he looked at me the more he wanted me. Paco then got undressed fully nude and then started licking my feet and taking in the sweet smell of my soles. 

       First he started at the heels of the feet and began massaging the heels with his tongue then lightly biting it. After the heels he started to play with the in-soles of my feet and he began hearing light purring noises and decided to look up to see that I had a grin forming on my face. Paco then noticed my perfectly shaped toes and began sucking them one by one. He has never tasted anything sweeter than what he had tasted right there. Paco started on the outside of my feet sucking the smallest toe paying special details to each toe! He cleaned out the lint between the toes and then he finally reached the big toes paying extra special details to the big beefy toes. This has sent his cock pulsing so much he shot his first load on me. 

       Paco started to go wild and knew that there was no turning back so he began stroking my legs. He moved up the legs and started to feel around in the forbidden zone. Paco grabbed the black cloth that clung to my perfectly shaped legs and started to slip them slowly down my thighs. After Paco removed the piece of cloth that was the only protection I had left Paco found that my cock was amazing and thick. This shot Paco’s cock into overdrive as he lied next to me and began stroking his cock! He knew he had to stroke mine too so he began sucking my cock and stroking his own at the same time. Paco found that he was in heaven as he delicately stroked the amazing cock and he managed to shoot a load of cum all over me. 

       Paco then started to finger my perfect ass opening up my hole as he continued to suck my cock. All the while I began moaning in my sleep as Paco continued to go deeper! Suddenly I couldn’t control it anymore and shot a load in Paco’s mouth. This sent Paco’s taste buds wild as he swallowed the best tasting cum he had ever tasted. While that happened Paco managed to get 4 fingers up my ass. Paco was so aroused he didn’t care that what he was doing was wrong. In Paco’s mind Paco was doing the right thing and then he slowly stuck his cock in my ass and slowly began thrusting while stroking my tender cock. The more he stroked the cock the harder he began thrusting and all the while I just lied there oblivious to what was happening. After several intense moments Paco finally shot the biggest load into my ass while I shot all over myself. 

       Paco was still hard but very exhausted to keep going for he just had the best sex of his life and he knew that nothing would ever compare to this moment right here and right now. Paco’s cock finally retreated on its own and then he laid next to me but he began to lick up cum that has mixed together which ended the perfect night of his life. After I was all cleaned up from the huge loads that coated my chest Paco took me into his arms and he fell into a blissful slumber for he was on cloud 9.  

       The next morning Paco woke up to find that I was sleeping peacefully and he noticed that he was so hard from just holding me. He didn’t know if I would wake up so he slipped his dick in quick and kept thrusting until he released the half of the load in my ass. Then he took his cock and jerked it until he coated me once again in his load and just left it there then went to take a shower. After the shower he began cleaning up. He took my boxer briefs and clothes and hid them so he could keep them. Then he took my shoes and began sniffing them before putting them away. He wasn’t about to let me have them back and then he began playing with my perfectly shaped feet. 

       He began massaging my feet slowly making sure I remained asleep. Then he began sniffing them again taking in my perfect sweet aroma. Then he went for the big toe and began sucking it and licking it! He would never admit that he raped me not once but twice. He knew he would have to lie to everyone telling them that I wanted it just as much as he did. So he thought of the perfect lie while sucking on my toe. After he had thought of the perfect lie he licked his load off me then went to make me breakfast and a tonic that will help with the massive hangover that I would have. 

       Paco came back with a tray of scrambled eggs with sausage, bacon, ham, toast, pancakes, orange juice, the tonic, and a single blue rose for me and then proceeded to gently wake me from my peaceful slumber. After I began to stir I noticed a tray of food sitting next to me, and Paco sitting in a chair at the foot of the bed. I was confused as to why I was in Paco’s room and why Paco looked like he was in heaven. 

“Paco what happened last night and why am I in your room?” I asked 

“You were drunk last night and you tripped over my trash can outside so I brought you inside my home because I couldn’t leave you out there. Eat I bet you are hungry and you need food after being drunk and the liquid in the metal cup is a family recipe to cure hangovers.” Paco explained 

“Thanks Paco! Thank you for taking care of me when I needed it.” I stated as I began to eat 

After I was done eating and drank that tonic I noticed I was naked and began fearing that I had done something I would regret. 

“Paco where are my clothes?” I wondered 

“Your suit is being dry-cleaned and your underwear was wet so I am washing them. If you want I could give you some of my clothes to wear?” Paco slyly said 

“Yes please!” I cried 

Paco went into his closet and grabbed a pair of boxer briefs for me a pair of jeans a t-shirt a pair of socks and a box with brand new Nikes in them! Once he emerged he had seen that I was troubled by something and decided to ask as he handed me the clothes he chose. 

“Mr. Antonio is there something wrong? You seem troubled by something!” Paco asked 

“I just have a feeling that I did something I regret doing. Did we you know have sex?” I feared 

      “Oh yes Mr. Antonio! It was so beautiful! When I was helping you get up to go upstairs you preceded to kiss me telling me that you love me. You then told me that you wanted to have sex with me and that you didn’t know how to tell me for some time. I instantly said yes. How can I deny someone who is as beautiful as you? You are like a god with the most perfect body I have ever seen and thank you for being the one to take my virginity!” Paco informed 

“I gotta go!” I as I got dressed and grabbed my phone, wallet, and keys then ran out of the house before Paco could react. 

Once I got to my home I was fumbling the keys and didn’t notice Paco was coming my way. I finally got the door open went inside shutting the door then sat on the floor crying. After collecting my thoughts I called the only person I knew to be able to help me. 

“Joey please pick up!” I panicked 

“Hello!” Answered Joey 

“Joey what happened last night?” I cried hysterically 

“Anthony what’s wrong?” Questioned his best friend 

“Please tell me what happened last night?” I begged 

       “Well you were drunk and then you did a strip show in the restaurant and it is amazing you weren’t thrown out right then and there but all the ladies and some of the men enjoyed it. They were tipping the staff well and they were all buying a lot of alcohol too which is why they didn’t throw you out. You made $3,000 easily from your little show and when it was time for you to go you wouldn’t budge unless I kissed you. So when I went in to kiss your cheek you made out with me. Then you strutted to the car got in my back seat and fell asleep. 

       I was annoyed with you for kissing me but seeing how peaceful you were sleeping I couldn’t be mad with you. We got you home and your stubborn childish attitude kicked in and you refused to wake up. I tried being nice and that didn’t work, I tried violently shaking you and that didn’t work so finally I dumped Ice water on you and got you out of my car. I was going to help you inside but since you annoyed me by not getting up I left you on your doorstep and then took off! Now what’s wrong?” Joey explained showing concern for his friend 

“I woke up in Paco’s room with no clothes on and I think Paco Raped me! Please come here! I didn’t know who else to call. Please hurry I am so scared right now!” I pleaded 

Suddenly I heard a knock on the door and then Paco asking if I was alright. 

“Mr. Antonio are you alright? You ran out of the house before I could finish. Please let me in so we can talk!” Stated Paco 

“I got to go. Please hurry Joey I have never felt so scared in all my life!” I begged 

“I am on my way. Please hang tight!” Joey informed as he hung up.“What do you want Paco?” I tried not showing he was scared 

"I just want to talk that’s all.” Please let me in! Paco said 

“I will let you in only to talk that is all!” I informed as he unlocked the door. 

Paco came in and started to talk about why I avoid him! 

“Mr. Antonio why do you avoid me? We had such a great night last night but when I tell you about it you run off. I don’t understand why you play with my heart like you do? You told me you love me and then you have sex with me you cast me aside like I am garbage!” Paco cried 

“Paco I am sorry for leading you on but I was drunk and I didn’t even know where I was. Please forgive me but when someone is that drunk they don’t know what they are doing? I don’t remember anything from last night and now I am so scared. Please go! I need to figure this all out. I know you took advantage of me but I don’t think you realized what you did!” I tried explaining 

“Do you do this to every guy that pour their hearts out to you? Do you use them like you used me? I will not go! I love you too much to be cast aside like yesterday’s news paper.” Paco cried 

“Paco what are you doing?” I yelped in surprise 

“I am going to be with you and I want you! You mean the world to me and I can’t live without you anymore.” Cried Paco as he grabbed me

I kicked Paco out of reflex and took off running! First I ran for the door but Paco was right behind me then I ran for the stairs and ran to my room to hide. I locked the door but it was not enough to keep Paco out! Paco kicked the door in and found where I was hiding. Paco grabbed me and threw me onto the bed with lust in his eyes and told me that I was going to love him! 

“Mr. Antonio you will love me because I am not going anywhere. I don’t know why you ran from me but you will love me. I didn’t want to do this but you left me no choice!” Paco sadistically smiled as he overpowered me and began stripping me. 

“Ow Paco you are hurting me! Get off of me!” I Cried as I tried resisting 

Paco placed his forearm on my neck and started to apply pressure and soon I stopped struggling. Paco was about to rape me again when Joey came in. 

“Joey Please Help me!” I Choked  

“WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING GARDENER? GET THE FUCK OFF HIM NOW!” Shouted Joey 

“Mind your own fucking business! The boy wants it and he is going to enjoy it!” Snapped Paco 

“HE ASKED TO BE FUCKING RAPED WHILE YOU STRANGLE HIM! GET THE FUCK OFF OF HIM NOW YOU PIECE OF SCUM!” Joey shouted enraged and sent a powerful punch to the side of his head, which made him fall off me. “TOUCH HIM AGAIN AND I WILL CALL THE COPS!” Threatened the enraged boy 

“I will be back, Mr. Antonio! I will have your love or your life!” Threatened the grounds keeper as he ran out of the house

“Are you alright Tony?” Joey rushed to my side 

“Thanks Joey! Please move in with me I am scared to live alone!” I Cried 

“I was going to have Katie move in with me but you are more than welcome to come live there. Go take a shower while I start getting things ready. I am also going to have a new door ordered. I am going to tell your parents what happened and tell them you no longer feel safe here with Paco working here.” Stated Joey 

“No please I don’t want anyone to know what Paco did to me! It would kill them to know I was raped and I can’t do that to them.” I Cried  

“Fine I won’t tell your parents but I am telling them you are moving in with me at my place for a while.” Reassured Joey 

       While I took a shower Joey began packing up some clothes for me to use, then called for a new door to be ordered and installed and paid for it using his credit card. Then he went to tell my parents that I’m going to move in with him. When he got back to the guesthouse I was done with my shower and was dressed while crying on my bed. Joey then came over and told me that everything will be alright and he won’t let anything happen to me! I told Joey to just grab the hygiene bag that is on the shelf by the door while I brought the bag of clothes and the bag of sneakers to Joey’s car. As I went to the car I noticed Paco waiting the car wanting to talk to me. 

“Mr. Antonio! I am sorry for how I acted in your house and I know that is not the way to win your heart and I am sorry please give me another chance.” Apologized Paco 

       “Paco I have never been so scared for my life than the way you made me feel in the past hour! When you took advantage of me last night I was willing to forget it but the way you attacked me in my own home I don’t feel like I can be around you. You scare the living daylights out of me and I think you need help. Good day Paco I am done and I don’t want to be around you at all that is why I am moving in with Joey!” I Stated as I got into the car and put the door between us causing Paco to walk away!

 Chapter 4: The Following Day 

       The events of the last 12 hours have started to unravel my life! I am trying to process what had occurred from me stripping at dinner to me being raped by Paco. I have never felt so alone and scared in all my life as I feel now. I honestly don’t know what is going to happen to me or how things are going to get worse. Joey is taking good care of me by bringing me to the hospital to see if I have any sexually transmitted diseases! 

“I didn’t know what you wanted so I grabbed everything in your bathroom and I didn’t know you had this much cosmetics! You are worse than a girl.” Teased Joey 

“I told you to just grab the hygiene bag by the door not my entire bathroom!” I cried 

“Hey on a serious note do you think he used protection when he raped you?” Joey asked 

“I don’t know! I don’t remember, but I don’t think so being he was going to rape me without a condom today.” I feared 

“We have to get it checked out. You might have a sexually transmitted disease.” Informed Joey 

“I don’t want a lot of people knowing about this but I will get checked out.” I whispered  

“Ok! We will drop your stuff off at my house and then head to the hospital!” Joey mentioned 

“Joey do you think I am a bad person?” I asked 

“No! Why would you say that?” Joey wondered 

“I ask that because of what happened to me!” I cried 

“Tony you were raped! You had no control over what Paco did to you, and that don’t make you a bad person. I don’t think any less of you and I never will. You are my brother and nothing is ever going to change that.” Joey comforted 

“Thanks Joey! I just want this nightmare over with.” I sighed 

“Don’t worry I am not going to let anything happen to you!” Joey confirmed 

       Joey brings me to the hospital where I ask the receptionist to be examined. She then asks me what type of examination I need, and when I told her she gave me a look of disbelief and told me to fill out the papers! I just don’t know what to do anymore because even though Joey believes me no one else believes me. Once I was done I turned the paperwork in and sat in the waiting room. The receptionist then told me to go to room 301 and wait for the exams. 

       I go to room 301 and I wait for the forensic nurse to come in with the SBI kit to start the examinations. Joey waits on the 3^rd floor waiting room while I am getting the exams. The doctor and the forensic nurse come in and they tell me exactly what is going to happen and they try making me feel as calm and relaxed as I can. The first thing they do after they finished explaining what is going to happen; they want me to recap what happened that lead up to me being raped. I proceed to tell them what happened that lead to me being raped and the events that followed. After I was done with the story they asked me if I wanted to report this to the authorities and I declined to take it further than the examinations! They started the exams while Joey decided to make a phone call while waiting for me to finish up my exams! 

“Hello!”  Answered J-Lee 

“Hey J-Lee it has been a long time since I have seen you or your brother! I need a favor from you, if you could help me?” Joey asked 

“Yeah you know I will always help you when you need it! I am with Jamie and the twins at the zoo right now but maybe we could meet up later.” J-Lee informed 

“Yeah that would be great. I am in the hospital right now waiting on Tony but could you meet me at my place around 7pm and I will explain everything. You could bring your knucklehead brother too.” Stated Joey

“Is my Tony alright?” J-Lee sounded worried 

“He is getting an exam but for now he is fine. I will explain everything tonight at my house.” Joey mentioned 

“Yeah we will be there. I miss my Tony and I miss you too!” J-Lee smiled 

       After my exams they told me that they would have the results within a week, and they would call me to let me know what they have concluded. Joey then brought me to his home where I went upstairs to lie down. I cried myself to sleep! During that time I kept having nightmares wondering what would have happened if Joey was any later than what he was! I could not get the image of Paco out of my head and the more I thought about it; the more I saw him raping me while choking me. I could not get those images out of my head and it scared me so much that I kept waking in a cold sweat. I have never felt so scared in all my life. I finally got up and took a cold shower to help me shake this feeling then fell back asleep again. 7 o’clock comes around and the twins come over to see what Joey wanted. 

       Jason Lee Del Cino also known as J-Lee is 5’11” tall with dark hair and hazel eyes. His tone-tanned body is perfectly shaped and he looks like a model where he has the most beautiful smile I have ever seen! He is smart, funny, and very caring. He is always willing to help out a friend and he is one person I could tell anything too. He was my first boyfriend and my first love. I will always have a special place for him in my heart. 

“Hey Joey! What’s up with my Tony?” J-Lee greeted 

“Yeah where is that knucklehead? I haven’t seen him since we were 18.” Jamie stated 

       James Eric Del Cino also known as Jamie is 6’ tall and looks just like his twin brother J-Lee. They are both 21 right now and they are complete opposites. J-Lee is gay and Jamie is straight but Jamie will occasionally kiss me. Where J-Lee is caring Jamie is more of a Jokester. He is always pulling pranks on people especially me. He has discovered an ability to be able to remember details and events, which helped him cleverly, get through law school. He continues to use this ability to help him be one of the few selected to be an apprentice at the DA office. He is very supportive and protective of friends and family. 

“He is upstairs sleeping, please come into the living room and I will explain what happened to him last night and this morning.” Whispered Joey 

Joey explained what happened to me and had J-Lee talk to me. Jamie was furious that Paco raped me and wanted to make that jerk pay. He devised a plan and told J-Lee and Joey what he had in store for Paco. 

“WHAT? THAT CREEP DID THAT TO OUR TONY! I FUCKING WANT TO KILL HIM!” Jamie fumed 

“Will you keep your voice down? I don’t want Tony to know about me calling you here for that.” Hushed Joey 

“I want this prick to pay for what he did but we are going to do this right and we are not to let Tony know about this. J-Lee you are going to watch Tony while we take care of business. Joey! Do you know where this creep lives? I want to get what he says on tape and I want to scare him into staying away from our Tony.” Jamie informed. 

J-Lee went up to find me sleeping, and he came over gently woke me. 

“Hey! Tony-bear. Joey told me what happened and I am sorry I was not there to protect you. How are you feeling?” J-Lee asked 

“J-Lee is that really you?” I wondered 

“Yeah! It’s me.” J-Lee confirmed 

“I have missed you so much and I just want you to hold me and make me feel safe. I am so scared and I don’t know what to do?” I cried 

“Hush now I am here! No one is going to hurt you again I am not going anywhere right now.” J-Lee cooed 

“You don’t know how much I missed you J-Lee!” I smiled 

“It’s alright; I am here and I am moving back to Connecticut where I am going to open a bakery. It will use international desserts and pastries. My boyfriend Cheng is helping me run this business. Even though I am with Cheng I still love you Tony-bear and I always will!” J-lee whispered before kissing me on my forehead! 

“J-Lee! Thank you, I never stopped loving you. I know you have a boyfriend but you will always be in my heart. You mean so much to me and I want to meet your boyfriend too.” I mentioned 

“He will be here tomorrow. For now just close your eyes and just go to sleep my Tony-Bear.” J-Lee soothed 

While this was happening Jamie and Joey decide to go find Paco. 

“Are you sure Paco is home? It looks dark in there.” Jamie added 

Suddenly Joey spots my dad and decides to ask him where Paco is. 

“Good Evening Mr. Johnston! Have you seen Paco recently? You remember Jamie he is looking for a gardener for his place and heard Paco was the best.” Joey lied 

“He went home to Dallas! He worked here for 2 years already and has been planning this for 3 months now. He will be back in 2 weeks. I could have him call you when he gets back.” Mr. Johnston informed 

“Well you see I wanted to surprise my wife with a beautiful garden but I am too busy to start one up myself. I wanted it done before my wife came home with the kids next month. Do you have an address? I am going to be near Dallas on the way to visiting my wife’s grandmother in California in 2 days. I would love to set it up and have it all ready for when Paco returns home!” Jamie stated 

“Well Ok I will give you where he will be staying since you are friends of Tony’s and you want to hire Paco.” Mr. Johnston said as he went to get the address to where Paco was staying. 

       “Thank you Mr. Johnston. I really appreciate this.” Jamie smiled “Ok tomorrow J-Lee and Cheng is going to stay with Tony while we go out to Austin. I have to drop my wife and kids off at the Airport in the morning while we will be on our way to Austin in the afternoon. I have a conference there for my firm is working on a big case. I am an assistant DA so I need to get all the information I can get. I am allowed to bring one passenger. After my conference we will work on finding Paco. We are going to do this legally.” Jamie informed 

“That is perfect I have to be in California next week anyways for a movie auditions!” Joey added 

       “Plane leaves at 4pm so be at the airport by 3! Said Jamie“Dude I am hungry let’s get pizza’s and all 4 of us could catch up!” Joey cried Once they get back with the pizzas we all proceed to eat while Joey and J-Lee gets drunk. Jamie had one glass of pure Russian Vodka which is illegal to sell in the states. Joey’s dad and the twin’s mother are Russian so they are used to having this Vodka around. Jamie drags J-Lee home while Joey is so drunk he can’t even think straight. I got Joey up to bed and took his clothes off leaving him in his boxer-briefs. Joey keeps rambling on about how much he loves me. I try to get him to go to sleep but he refuses until I lay down. Once he fell asleep I went to my room and attempted to fall asleep.    

 Chapter 5: Paco Admits the Truth 

         A lot has happened in the past couple of days and it seems that this was only the beginning! Since Paco has raped me I have went to the hospital to get some tests done to make sure I am alright while Joey called 2 old friends to try and help me out! We all caught up but what Joey and Jamie had planned might push me off the edge! If I had known what they had planned I would have stopped them! We now find Joey waking up with a massive hangover! 

“Ouch I am never drinking like that again!” Joey said… “Tony where are you?” 

“What? I was making breakfast! What do you want?” I asked 

“What time is it and why am I naked?” Joey asked 

“It is 8am and I have no clue as to why you are naked! Get up so you could get ready to fly to California for your audition! You have a cold bath waiting for you and I am making my mother’s hangover remedy!” I said 

“What happened last night?” Wondered Joey with a massive headache 

“You drank too much Russian Vodka! I had to drag your ass to bed then you wanted me to sleep in the same bed with you. After that I returned to my room when you were asleep! Nothing happened.” I stated 

I had left to finish breakfast while Joey complained to the water being so cold! I was not feeling well and I didn’t want Joey to worry! Joey finally came down stairs complaining the whole time when J-Lee and his bf came to the door. 

“Hey Tony, how are you?” Wondered J-Lee 

“I am still scared but I will be ok! Joey over there is plastered!” I pointed out 

“Well you won’t have to worry I won’t let anything happen to you! This is Cheng by the way!” J-Lee introduced 

“It is nice to meet you! I am Tony!” I smiled shaking his hand 

“It is nice to meet you too I have heard so much about you! J-Lee talks about you all the time!” Cheng stated 

Cheng is 6 feet tall with black hair and Black eyes! He is born in and raised in Hong Kong and he loves to bake! He is a very nice guy and he gets kind of Jealous when someone is flirting with J-Lee. J-Lee and he are opening up a bakery in town and they are very successful at cooking and baking! 

“Ug I hate having hangovers!” Complained Joey 

“Drink the hangover remedy that I made you. J-Lee is here with his new bf Cheng so hurry up and come here.” I shouted 

“I’M COMING! I’M COMING! SHEESH YOU ARE LIKE MY MOTHER ALWAYS BOSSY.” Joey cried like a child 

“Whatever dude! I am not going to help you when you drink again! You always bite my head off the next day!” I stated 

“What is going on?” Wondered J-Lee 

“Joey drank too much and now he is acting like a little princess! I am in no mood to have him constantly yelling at me because of something he did last night!” I snapped 

Joey’s phone started to ring and Jamie was making sure he was up. 

“Hello!” Joey announced 

“Hey Joey! Are you ready to fly to Austin today? Our plane leaves at 1 and you still need to check in your bags.” Informed Jamie 

“Yeah your brother just arrived and he is going to drop me off at the airport! Man I am never drinking again.” Joey said 

“Ok see you soon.” Jamie stated 

       Joey got his stuff ready and then J-Lee and Cheng dropped him off at the airport while I got ready to meet my parents. I am not sure how I am going to tell them that I was raped but I don’t think I will tell them! I have never have kept secrets from them especially my dad. While all this was going on Jamie and Joey were on their way to Austin for Jamie’s Meeting. 

       “Now we will be taking a rental car from Austin to Dallas. I have a meeting tomorrow so while I am in my meeting I am going to need you to find something to occupy your time. I will meet you at the hotel at 3pm tomorrow and we will spend one more night in Austin and then travel to Dallas so we could teach this scumbag a lesson. When we are in Dallas I am going to have you check into the hotel while I get things going. I have a plan on how to handle this creep no one hurts Tony without dealing with us!” Informed Jamie as he had an evil smile on his face 

“What is this plan Jamie?” Asked Joey 

“Not now, I will tell you the plan later! I have to get things going before I tell you what the plan is!” Hushed Jamie before going over his notes 

“Jamie why are you being secretive? This is not like you.” Joey accused 

“I am like this because I know how you are Joey. You will rush into the plan without me having everything set up. So I will reveal my plan when the time comes. Now I have to go over my notes for my boss before we land in Austin for my meeting.” Jamie stated before returning to his notes. 

       Jamie and Joey finally landed in Austin where they went to the hotel and got a rental car for the week. The next day Jamie got dressed in a business suit then took the rental car to the conference with his boss. The conference lasted all day and Jamie gathered all his notes before going back to the hotel to change and grab Joey before driving to Dallas. Once they got to Dallas they got a hotel suite then Jamie went to set part of his plan into action! He went to the police station and told them that he had a plan to catch a rapist. After that he told the judge to get permission to catch this creep. The judge was hesitant but gave the ok for the plan to go through.Jamie was wearing this tight black wife beater with a white t shirt over it and a light purple polo shirt over that. He wore expensive blue faded bootcut jeans that hugged his ass and legs while wearing brand new white and purple Nike AF1 hi top. 

“Jamie where did you get that outfit?” Joey asked 

       “It’s my brother’s we are the same size even though he is an inch shorter than I am. I told him my plan and asked if I could wear it so I could get Paco to notice me. I am going to pretend to be gay to get him to confess to what he has done to our friend Tony. Since Paco has not met me or seen me I am going to act gay while you follow us. I am going to text you when I am at his house and have you wait for my signal. I am going to record the whole conversation and then frighten him to stay away from Tony. Now I am going to have to act gay to pull this off and the only time I have kissed a guy is Tony and he is the only one I will kiss! I love my wife and she knows that I kiss Tony and she is ok with it.” Jamie explained his plan 

“Why is it that even though you are straight you will willingly kiss Tony?” Wondered Joey 

Because I did it to mess with Tony at first but when I kissed him I liked it so I kept kissing him when I got the chance to! But I am not the only friend who has kissed Tony willingly am I?” Jamie shot back 

“Hey I don’t go around willingly kissing Tony it was only a couple of times and that was a dare.” Joey stammered 

“Whatever bro! If you didn’t like kissing Tony then you wouldn’t willingly let him kiss you!” Jamie accused 

“SHUT UP ABOUT THIS I DON’T LIKE KISSING GUYS!” Joey shouted 

“Dude relax I am only teasing you! You don’t need to act like a child I know you are straight so am I but I don’t deny that I like kissing Tony!” Jamie smiled 

“Why do you have an attraction to Tony? I never seen you act like this to any of J-Lee’s other boyfriends.” Joey asked 

“I do admit I never act like this around other guys but I have always liked Tony so I would pretend to be J-Lee so I could be with Tony. I always asked J-Lee before doing that and my brother knew I was attracted to Tony. I guess we both shared Tony even though Tony found out later on about it.” Jamie confessed 

“Hey there is Paco!” Joey pointed out 

“Ok stay close behind me but not to close we are only going to have one shot at this and if he recognizes you then we are screwed!” Informed Jamie 

“Ok be careful and don’t let him fuck you?” Joey stated 

“I am not going to let it get that far! I am going to kiss him and then get him to confess and then scare him to leave Tony alone!” Said Jamie slyly 

“I swear you do make a very good actor. I still can’t believe you were in love with Tony!” Joey stated in disbelief 

       “I am still in love with him and I will always love him but I won’t let a sadistic creep rape Tony and harm him! I know I won’t be with Tony but I still could look after him like a brother! All 4 of us grew up together we are all like brothers. We all have looked out for him being Tony is the youngest. Drop me off a block ahead I am going to meet up with Paco and get him to let me come home with him.” Jamie said sadly 

Joey let Jamie out of the car a block ahead and Jamie assumed the identity of Peter a freshly new guy who is looking to make new friends. He walked by Paco trying to get his attention when Paco checked him out and then walked up to the boy and started to talk to him. 

“Hello! I noticed you from down the street and you seem lost can I help you with anything?” Paco asked 

“Yes! I am new here and I was supposed to meet a friend but I don’t know where I am so maybe you could help me. I am Peter by the way, what is your name?” Jamie asked 

“I am Paco!” Paco introduced 

“Oh sorry for staring but I can’t help but to notice that you are very strong and you are handsome as well. You must have all the ladies chasing after you!” Jamie complemented 

“Well no! I am into guys more than I am into the ladies. I was also noticing your features as well and I noticed that you have an awesome ass, great taste in sneakers and clothes. You also look very hot as well! I was actually heading to a club do you care to join me?” Paco said 

“Sure big boy I would love to join you!” Jamie said as he leaned in and kissed Paco while cupping his ass. Paco returned the favor and cupped Jamie’s ass as well. 

“On second thought why don’t we skip the club and you could show me your place. I would love to see where you live and get to know you better! How does that sound big boy?” Jamie teased 

“Really! You want to come to my place and be with me?” Paco asked stunned 

“Yes! Here is a warning I am not very experienced when it comes to sex and I was wondering how experienced you are when it comes to having sex?” Jamie asked innocently 

“Well I don’t want to brag but I have been with a few guys! If you want I could tell you about the last guy I was with.” Paco boasted 

“Sure big boy tell me about the last guy you were with!” Jamie smiled as he hit the record button! 

Paco went into details as to how he raped me. He was getting extremely excited going over what happened that night but also deep down he regretted raping me. 

“I ran out of his house and when he was getting ready to leave I tried to apologize to him. I am sorry for boring you with the best night of my life but we are here at my house.” Paco reminisced 

“Oh wow can you do that to me big boy? I want to feel what he felt when you were taking good care of him. I want to be in pure ecstasy like you felt when you were having pure sex with your god. But first I am thirsty, where is your kitchen?” Jamie asked 

“It is right in the back of the house if you want I could get you something to drink and you could wait up in my room.” Paco offered 

“I will get my own drink but why don’t you go up to your room and get ready while I get us something to drink.” Jamie said kissing Paco. 

“Ok I am the 3^rd door on the right.” Paco said as he went upstairs and Jamie noticed Paco had a huge bulge in his pants. 

Jamie went to the kitchen and prepared 2 drinks which he added a sleeping tablet into Paco’s drink. He then invited Joey into the house and told him to wait for the signal while he went to Paco. 

“Here is your water big boy!” Jamie said giving Paco the water 

“Thanks do you want to start by worshiping my sneakers and feet?” Paco asked 

“Oh yes big boy I will start there while you drink your water and jerk off.” Jamie soothed 

       Jamie started to worship Paco’s sneakers waiting for the tranquilizer to take effect.  When the tranquilizer kicked in Paco passed right out and Jamie slipped Paco’s underwear and pants back around his waist and the signaled Joey to come up and help him bind Paco and bring him out of the house. They then drove to this abandoned warehouse where they had a table set up and bound the sleeping creep to the table before waking him up.“It is time to wake up Paco!” Jamie said with a sinister smile 

“What where am I? Peter what is going on why can’t I move?” Paco cried as he struggled 

“First off my name is not Peter, it is Jamie! I gave you Peter to get you to trust me. I am not gay but I am going to warn you. If you think about raping Tony again I will hunt you down and make you pay! This is not a threat this is a promise.” Jamie stated 

“I didn’t rape anyone all that I said was not true I was only telling you a story. I never raped anyone! He wanted it as much as I did.” Paco stammered 

“SHUT UP I KNOW YOU ARE LYING BECAUSE I HAVE IT ALL RECORDED AND THE COPS HAVE THE CONFESSION AS WELL.” Jamie shouted 

Joey then slams something near Paco, which frightens him. 

“I did nothing wrong! Did Mr. Antonio put you up to this?” Paco Fumed 

“No! He doesn’t know anything about this and Tony would never want this done. He would rather forget this but as his friends we would rather make you realize what you did and prevent it from happening again.” Informed Jamie 

“I will have you arrested for this! You have no right to do this to me.” Threatened Paco 

       “Oh really! The police are on their way. I have informed them of my plan before doing any of this and I even got a judge on my side. It pays to be working for the DA.” Jamie mentioned as the police came in.  “Here is the tape of Paco’s confession and he is all yours. I am keeping a copy of his confession as well.” Jamie informed as he handed over the tape and left to return back to the hotel. 

“Jamie what the hell was that? You know you are scary, I never thought that you would ever think of something like that and I am scared to think of what other things you are capable of.” Joey stammered 

“Don’t worry I will never let anyone wrong my friends and get away with it. I may not be able to do anything on a personal vendetta but I could do things legally though. Tomorrow we will make our way back to Austin and turn in the rental car then we fly out to California!” Stated Jamie as he changed out of his clothes and got ready for bed.    

Chapter 6: Paco’s False Justice 

       After Paco raped me, my friends came over to help me out. Little did I know that things were going to blow up into major proportions? Jamie and Joey decided to make Paco pay for what he had done to me without my knowledge. They went to Dallas and Jamie pretended to be gay in order to get close to Paco. Jamie made Paco confess what he had done to me and had Paco arrested. A week later Jamie and Joey are now in Los Angeles and they happen to catch the news of Paco’s release from prison. 

“Hey Jamie turn on the news!” Joey exclaimed 

“A little over a week ago 26 year old Paco Julio de Caceres Nunez was arrested on accusations of rape. His lawyer had the confession thrown out due to the fact that the confession was illegally obtained. We are now standing here with Mr. Nunez for an interview. Mr. Nunez could you please tell me why you were obtained and who tried pinning this crime on you?” the reporter asked 

       “I am just a gardener who works for Mr. and Mrs. Johnston in Connecticut and I have never committed a crime. I would never for one look at another man like that and secondly I am into women. I don’t know what the actor Joseph Romanovich has against me but I will not stand for them thinking they could go around terrorizing innocent people. I now have to quit my job because Mr. Romanovich and his friends are going to make sure I no longer work for the Johnston’s. I just want to be left alone and be able to study the plants.” Paco stated 

       “Why is this young man being targeted? What is Teen Sensation Joseph Romanovich have to do with Mr. Nunez and why is he caught kissing a young man on the 28^th of August in a high end restaurant and who is this young man who was stripping on stage that night then kissed Joseph Romanovich? We tend to find out and we will keep you updated as the time goes on. I am Rebecca Marywither with CNN News back to you Bob!” 

“WHAT THE HELL? HOW THE FUCK DID THEY GET THAT FOOTAGE AND HOW THE HELL DID PACO GET RELEASED?” Joey fumed 

       “From what my boss had said the confession was illegally obtained even though I had a warrant to obtain that footage and confession under cover. My boss says that Mr. Petrollini not only paid for the lawyer but was able to get the judge to throw out the tape and the warrant because of personal vendetta. Joey the court has also issued a restraining order against you to keep 100 feet away from Paco. We need to do something or Paco will get away with Rape!” Jamie cried 

“Hold on my agent is calling me! Hello!” Joey answered 

       “WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU POSSIBLY DOING? GET YOUR ASS IN MY OFFICE NOW! NOT ONLY THAT THE MOVIE DIRECTOR WANTS TO TALK TO YOU. YOUR LITTLE STUNT MAY HAVE COSTED YOU THE MOVIE. IF YOU ARE NOT HERE IN A HALF HOUR YOU ARE IN TROUBLE.” Shouted Joey’s agent 

“I have to now go see my agent could this day get any worse?” Joey exasperated 

“Do you want me to go with you?” Jamie offered 

“When are you supposed to meet up with Jessica and her family?” Asked Joey 

“Next week but we can’t let Tony find out what we did. If this gets out that would kill him! Exasperated Jamie 

“We have to do something to stop Paco!” Joey cried 

“We will don’t worry I am going to call JLee and see how things are going on at home.” Jamie reassured 

“Hello!” JLee answered 

“Hey JLee! How are things going on at home?” Jamie asked 

“Tony is sleeping while Cheng and I watch over him. How are things going on back there?” JLee replied 

       “Not good! Our plan was going good up until today when Paco was released and now he is denying everything saying it is an elaborate scheme from the rich Joey because Joey doesn’t like Paco. I have a feeling that Paco is going to do something dangerous. Please keep me updated if he shows up I don’t want anything to happen to Tony!” Jamie said 

“Ok I will. How is Joey taking the news that Paco was released?” JLee mentioned 

“Not well he wants to rip Paco’s head off and I am doing everything I can in order to keep him calm. Jamie said 

“Yeah that is the last thing Tony needs to find out that Joey has been arrested for murder. Well I will let you go and deal with Joey and Paco while I watch over Tony.” J-Lee reassured 

       After Jamie hung up, JLee heard the shower running and went to check on me! He heard me in the shower and saw that Cheng passed out watching TV. JLee went to go make some pastries while I was in the shower and when he was done he asked me how I was doing. Being covered in Dough JLee went to go shower when Cheng came out of the room he was in at the smell of something delicious. He spotted me in a towel and decided to ask me a question. 

“Hey Tony! You have been friends with JLee for a long time and even dated him I am wondering if you still love him.” Cheng asked 

       “To be honest I do still love him but I am not in love with him. I think of JLee like a brother and I know he is happy with you. You have nothing to worry about me trying to steal him back. When we broke up we had this huge fight and it almost destroyed our friendship and I don’t want to go down that road again. I guess we broke up because Jamie and JLee would keep switching and thought it was funny to torment me while I was dating JLee. I honestly didn’t know who I was dating anymore because they kept playing tricks on me.” I explained 

“Oh wow I wonder if they have done that to me!” Thought Cheng 

“Well I am going to get dressed!” I stated 

I went into the bedroom and started getting dressed when I noticed a picture of Joey and Paco on TV. I turned it up to listen to what the reporter was saying. 

       “On Celebrity News we find Heart Throb Joseph Romanovich accusing 26 year old Gardener for raping someone. Mr. Romanovich thinks it is right to accuse innocent people of raping when he has no proof. Is this an attack against Mr. Nunez or is Mr. Romanovich going to attack another innocent bystander because he doesn’t like them. We are interviewing Mr. Nunez right now and we will try getting in contact with Mr. Romanovich later in the evening for his comment. Mr. Nunez please tell me why Mr. Romanovich is attacking you!” Asked the reporter 

       “I honestly don’t know! I am just a gardener who is just trying to do my job and get through school so I could become a botanist. My passion is plants and I am not into guys I don’t even know where Mr. Romanovich is getting this information that I raped a guy. He has been accusing me and now I can’t return back to where I work because of this whole mess. I just want to be able to work with plants and I can’t do that now being my school kicked me out before I could get my Doctorate in plants. He has ruined my life just because he doesn’t like me.” Paco stated 

“Do you have anything to say for Mr. Romanovich?” 

“Yes I do. Mr. Romanovich I want you and your friend Jamie to leave me alone I am into women not men!” Paco cried 

       I turned off the news and finished getting dressed then I wrote a note saying I am sorry for all this mess and you won’t have to deal with me anymore. Once I finished my suicide note I took my pills that was prescribed to me and went to my favorite spot in the park. I hated living and Paco had not only raped me but he humiliated me on live television. While I was on my way to the park J-Lee went to check on me and found that I was missing. He found my suicide note and had an idea where I would have gone to act this out. When he got there I had already attempted to kill myself and I was lying face down in the water for a minute before he got there. 

       J-Lee managed to pull me out of the water and began CPR trying to revive me and after a few attempts he managed to revive me and get me breathing before calling for an ambulance. Once I woke up I found I was lying in a bed with a nurse standing outside my door and J-Lee sleeping in a chair right next to my bed. I knew that I was in a hospital and that my attempt at suicide had failed. J-Lee woke up and was crying yelling at me asking me why I would try to kill myself and all I managed to say was I don’t deserve to live. The doctor walked in asking for J-Lee to please leave the room while we make sure your friend is alright. J-Lee exited the room while the doctor was examining me to make sure I was alright. The doctor told me I was placed on Suicide watch and that I am not to be left alone whatsoever. While the doctor was examining me J-Lee made a phone call to Jamie. 

“Hello!” Jamie answered 

“Tony tried to commit suicide!” J-Lee choked 

“WHAT? WHEN?” Yelled Jamie 

       “About an hour ago I don’t know what happened but he was changing from his shower while I was taking mine then when I got done with my shower I went to check up on him and he was gone and all he left was a suicide note. I was able to revive him when I found him but I have no clue what triggered him to want to commit suicide. He is being examined by the doctor now to make sure he is alright but I don’t know what to do. I think he may have found out about what you and Joey did and that Paco has been released. Tony is on suicide watch now but I don’t know how long and what they plan on doing but you and Joey need to clean up this Paco mess while I take care of Tony and please hurry!” Explained J-Lee 

“We are working on it now Joey is with his agent right now and I am waiting for him now. I got to go Joey is coming out right now and I have to tell him what happened to Tony.” Jamie stated 

“Well I have good news and bad news. The good news I am not fired but the bad news I have to make a public apology to that slime bag and I am not allowed to go near him. Turn on the news I want to see what’s on.” Joey informed 

       “On top of accusing Mr. Nunez for rape we have just received pictures of everyone’s favorite heart throb kissing a boy in a restaurant after the boy did a strip show which turned a family restaurant into a strip joint. Our sources state Mr. Romanovich enjoys kissing other men and ladies I am sorry but he is Gay. For more information we are trying to get ahold of Mr. Romanovich for a press conference. We will keep you updated on the story as the day goes on.” The reporter claimed 

“JOSEPH ROMANOVICH! GET YOUR ASS BACK IN MY OFFICE NOW!” Joey’s Agent hollered 

“Great just what I need! First this Paco incident and now the world knows about Tony kissing me. Could this day get any worse? I will be back, Jamie.” Joey exasperated 

“IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE YOU WANT TO TELL ME BEFORE THE NEWS GETS AHOLD OF ANY MORE STORIES ON YOU? FOR SOMEONE WHO WANTS TO STAY AWAY FROM THE PAPARAZZI YOU ARE DRAWING A LOT OF ATTENTION TO YOURSELF.” Joey’s agent yelled 

Suddenly the phone rings and the director tell the agent that he wants to meet with Joey and him in an hour. 

“You’re lucky that I like you kid! The director to that major movie that I had lined up for you called and he wants a meeting with us in an hour. Stay out of the spotlight until after this meeting but first tell me everything about this current incident and make sure you don’t fail to mention anything because the press is going to make a mockery of you kid.” Joey’s agent stated 

Joey went in great detail on the events that took place the night of my birthday and he finish stating this whole thing would not have happened if I didn’t bring Tony out drinking on his birthday and failing to make sure he was safely in his house when I brought him home. 

“Well we will see what we can do about this situation but for now I want you to stay out of trouble. Could you do that kid?” Joey’s agent confirmed 

Suddenly the agent’s secretary told him that the director was there and is ready for this meeting. 

       “Kid you are exactly what we are looking for and I want you to play the lead role that is a gay guy who is out for revenge for murdering his boyfriend and his family. I wasn’t sure if you were right for the role until I have seen the news and realized that not only he is right for this role but the way you have been in the spotlight I knew how to fix your issues with the press. The kissing photo you are going to tell the press that you were simply rehearsing for the upcoming movie and that it was all staged. As far as this rape thing goes we are going to work it as an angle as well. We are going to spin it off as we were thinking of using Paco Nunez as the villain in the movie the one you plan on hunting down for raping your boyfriend and killing him and your family. You have a press conference in 10 minutes to cover all this up. You are going to publicly apologize to Mr. Nunez and invite him to Hollywood to try out for the role via personal invite from the Director and from you.” The director thought up 

“You want me to invite this creep to work on the movie with me that is going against everything I stand for.” Joey cried 

       “Listen if you don’t publicly apologize to him, this will never go away and it is either this or not have a career in show biz again it is your big chance kid to get onto the big screen. He doesn’t have to accept the offer but you have to do this or you won’t have a job in Hollywood again.” The agent stated“Fine I will do this if it will get the press off my back.” Joey said defeated 

“You got 10 minutes kid!” The director stated 

Joey left the office to find Jamie sitting out there looking miserable. 

“Well my day just got worse not only do I have to publicly apologize to Paco but I have to personally invite him to work on the movie with me. What’s your problem?” Joey fumed 

“Well the bad news just keeps coming! When you were in the meeting with the agent the first time J-Lee called me and told me Tony tried committing suicide. J-Lee was able to save him but Tony is placed on suicide watch for 48 hours and being evaluated to see if he is alright. I think they are going to lock him away in a mental hospital.” Jamie informed 

“WHAT I AM GOING TO KILL THAT PRICK WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON HIM. I FUCKING CAN’T BELIEVE THAT HE TRIED COMMITTING SUICIDE.” Shouted Joey 

“Joey it is not Tony’s fault! If we never went after Paco and caused this entire media attention I don’t think Tony would have committed suicide.” Jamie explained 

“You are right! Man I am not having a good day and I know it is nothing compared to what Tony is going through but trying to commit suicide. What else is going to happen to make this day any worse than what it is.” Joey stated 

       “We just find out that Joseph Romanovich is going to give a press conference in about 5 minutes but we also have the identity of the boy Mr. Romanovich was kissing and our source tells me he has attempted committing suicide and is currently being evaluated at New Haven State Hospital. The Identity of the young man is Antonio Francesco Johnston son of wealthy Hotel owner Mr. Anthony Johnston Sr. It is rumored that this boy is the one who was allegedly raped by Mr. Paco Nunez.” 

“WHAT THE FUCK THEY HAVE NO RIGHT DRAGGING ANTHONY INTO THIS!” Jamie shouted 

       “It is alright I am going to handle this!” Joey said as he went to where they had the press conference set up. “Ladies and Gentlemen please hold all your questions until after my statement. First off the picture of me kissing Mr. Johnston was in preparations for my upcoming role where I play a gay guy whose boyfriend ends up raped and murdered along with my family. Mr. Johnston kindly agreed to help me prepare for the role being I have never kissed a guy before and I would rather practice on a friend than a stranger. I want to make it clear I am not into men and I have a wonderful Fiancée who was there with me that night I kissed Mr. Johnston. Her name is Catherine Caravello and she is the cousin to Mr. Johnston.  My next part of the news is that I want to publicly apologize to Mr. Nunez for any inconveniences that I may have caused him and my Director and I want to personally invite you to work on the movie as the main antagonist. I ask you that please leave Mr. Johnston and his health out of this he is going through some rough times and he is going to need his friends support. If you pester him he may not get better for this is between Mr. Nunez and me.” Joey stated 

“Mr. Romanovich is it true that you have experimented with your sexuality more than once? From one of our sources we have been informed that this is not the first time that you have made out with Mr. Johnston!” One reporter asked 

“I deny any allegations to previously making out with Mr. Johnston prior to the 28^th of August! Next question please.” Joey informed 

“Is it true that you never liked Mr. Nunez from the day he was hired to work for Mr. Johnston?” 

“I never really knew him but when I first met him he was acting awkward and was taking pictures of something I thought he was taking pictures of my friend Mr. Johnston. I later found out that day he was taking pictures of Plants for his research project and I apologized for accusing him of stalking my friend Mr. Johnston.” Joey Retracted 

“Is it true that you went to Texas to hunt down Mr. Nunez on allegations of raping your friend Mr. Johnston? Is it true that you wanted him to pay for something that he never committed?” 

“It is true that I went to Texas! My best friend stated he was raped and he has never lied to me and he would never make any of this up. I wanted Paco to pay for raping my friend and I was angry with Paco for hurting someone who is like a brother to me. No further questions! I have apologized to Mr. Nunez and I have to go. Thank you for your time.” Joey claimed as he walked off stage. 

       “You have heard it first that everyone’s favorite heartthrob was preparing for a movie role and has apologized to Mr. Nunez and offered him a role. We are going to get ahold of Mr. Nunez for his statement and we will keep you updated on this story as more of it develops.” The reporter informed“You did good kid! You publicly apologized on live TV to Mr. Nunez and even though it must have been the hardest thing in the world you did great not letting on that you didn’t mean it.” Joey’s agent stated 

About an hour later Paco was on the news with his statement. 

       “I do not accept your apology and your invite to work on the movie. I know your apology to be fake and not sincere! The only one I am interested in hearing an apology is from Mr. Johnston for I would know his to be sincere. Mr. Romanovich do not contact me again and I will be suing you for harassment and kidnapping. You will be seeing me in court you fraud and I hope you get what is coming to you. The only way I will put this behind me is if Mr. Johnston makes a public announcement stating he apologizes for accusing me of rape. Until he does you will be seeing my Lawyer with my lawsuit against you.” Paco Stated 

Jamie then receives a phone call from his brother. 

“Hello!” Jamie answered 

“Put Joey on right now!” J-Lee demanded 

“Joey it is J-Lee and he is not happy!” Jamie warned 

“Hello!” Joey answered 

       “WHAT THE HELL I THOUGHT YOU WERE GOING TO FIX THIS AND YET YOU HAVE ONLY MADE IT WORSE. IT IS A GOOD THING THAT TONY IS NOW SLEEPING AND HAS NOT SEEN THE NEWS IN THE PAST HOUR OR IT WOULD FUCKING KILL HIM KNOWING THAT NOT ONLY YOU HUMILIATED HIM BUT TO HAVE HIM MOCKED ON LIVE TELEVISION. THERE IS NO FUCKING WAY I AM GOING TO LET TONY GET ON LIVE TELEVISION AND APOLOGIZE TO PACO. FIRST OFF TONY IS TOO WEAK FROM HIS ATTEMPTED SUICIDE AND SECOND YOU MADE THIS TONY’S ENTIRE FAULT WHEN HE WAS THE FUCKING VICTIM OF THIS FUCKING MESS. I KNOW YOU ARE ABOUT TO BE SUED BUT I CANNOT LET TONY TAKE THE FALL FOR OUR FUCKING MESS.” J-Lee hollered 

“I know I will deal with the consequences of my mistake.” Joey replied 

       “I HAVE REPORTERS TRYING TO GET INTO TONY’S ROOM AND I HAD THE DOCTORS TO GET SECURITY TO MAKE SURE THEY DON’T DISTURB TONY BUT IT IS NOT WORKING. WE HAVE THE BLINDS TO THE WINDOW SHUT AND IT IS MAKING IT HARD FOR THE DOCTORS AND NURSES TO DO THEIR FUCKING JOB. FIX THIS FUCKING MESS NOW IF YOU KNOW WHAT IS FUCKING GOOD FOR YOU.” Shouted J-Lee as he hung up! 

“I don’t know what to do this is our entire fault and now Tony is taking the blame for our mess. Do you have any ideas as to fix this?” Joey pleaded 

“Unfortunately no I don’t!” Jamie sadly stated 

       “In recent news on the Romanovich Scandal the boy that Mr. Nunez wants to apologize has been inaccessible and we have recently learned that he is too weak to make any sort of statement. Mr. Nunez and his Lawyer are working around the clock not only suing Mr. Romanovich but also they are also going after Mr. Del Cino and Mr. Johnston for harassment. Will Mr. Nunez get his apology and drop these lawsuits or will these 3 young men be sued for all they’re worth. We will keep you updated as the story progresses! This just in the young man who is in the hospital had just woken and we are trying to get an interview with the boy.” The reporter announced 

“What the fuck they will do anything for a story and it seems Paco is enjoying all the media attention he is getting. I hope J-Lee is able to keep Tony out of the news because this is getting bad!” Jamie stated 

Meanwhile back at the hospital we find J-Lee trying to keep the press away from me but he is not able to. 

“J-Lee what is going on?” I asked 

       “Paco is trying to bad mouth you on TV. Not only is he saying that you tried raping him when he tried taking care of you but is about to sue Joey, Jamie and you for Harassment. He wants you to make a public statement live stating what you done and he will drop everything. He is playing games with everyone and I don’t think he is satisfied with just that he is enjoying the media attention.” Explained J-Lee 

“Then I will make that statement…” I was cut off 

“Tony no you won’t! This has nothing to do with you and Paco is using you as a scapegoat because he knows he can.” Interrupted J-Lee 

“This won’t end and none of you would be in this mess if it wasn’t for me. If I were never raped then none of this would be happening. Please try to understand I have to do this and I need your support when doing this.” I cried 

“If you go on live TV I will be very mad at you! He is using you for his own sick twisted game.” J-Lee reasoned 

       “Do you trust me J-Lee? I am not the weak little brother that everyone thinks I, I’m not so fragile that I can’t fight my own battles. I was raped and yes I tried committing suicide but I know what I have to do to make this go away! I would like to have my friend’s support for it would mean the world to me but I will do this with or without your guys’ support. This is something I have to do!” I declared 

“Fine! Give into Paco see if I care!” Shouted J-Lee as he stormed out of the room and called Jamie.  

“Hello!” Jamie answered 

“Tony is planning on going on Live TV and he won’t let me talk him out of it.” J-Lee stated! “On top of that he wants us to support him!” 

“Maybe we should he is our friend after all and we need to support any decision he wants to make or we will end up pushing him away. Tony has supported us when we have made stupid mistakes and he has bailed us our and defended us when we were in trouble maybe we should return the favor.” Jamie informed 

“Your right I haven’t been acting like a friend I am going to go support him.” Said J-Lee as he hung up the phone and returned to my room! “I support you Tony and I will be right here through the whole ordeal.” He exclaimed as he grabbed my hand. 

“I am ready! Please send in the reporters for I am going to make this announcement.” I said to the doctor. 

The reporters then came into the room and started asking 6 million questions when I told them that I am going to make a statement and I don’t want any questions after. If they don’t like it they could leave and they agreed and shut up long enough for my statement. 

       “On August 28^th late in the evening my friend Joseph Romanovich and my cousin Catherine Caravello went to a restaurant where I got drunk. I don’t remember the night but I was dropped off in my yard by my friend and didn’t recognize where I was. From what I have been told I stumbled across my yard and tripped over my groundskeeper’s garbage cans. My groundskeeper Paco Nunez brought me inside where I woke up the next morning completely naked. Fearing I may have done something that I would regret I asked Mr. Nunez if I did anything and he told me that I started kissing him and that I agreed to sexual intercourse. He got me some clothes that were his and I got dressed and tried explaining to him that is still considered rape and that I was not in the right frame of mind. 

       Feeling completely uncomfortable I left Mr. Nunez’s house where he followed me to my house. He started touching me inappropriate and I then kicked him and tried getting out of the house but he was too fast and locked the door so I ran up to my room and tried hiding from him. Mr. Nunez pulled me from underneath the bed and threw me on top of it where he proceeded to choke me and was about to rape me again. If it wasn’t for Mr. Romanovich I could have been raped and killed but he stopped Mr. Nunez before I was raped again. I was tested for rape and my toxic results showed I was well over the legal limit and that I was raped. Now I have tried committing suicide to try ending the pain and suffering but I know that was not the right thing to do so I am going to do the right thing and as difficult as it is for me to state here it goes. Mr. Nunez you know what you did to me and you know it was wrong but I forgive you for what you did to me and I have one request. Stay away from me and forget that anything ever happened. I never wanted to report you I just wanted to forget this whole ordeal. I do not agree how you have handled this whole situation and I am not pressing charges against you. I forgive you now leave me alone.” I stated shocking not only J-Lee and the news reporters but I shocked the doctors as well. I later found out that I shocked a lot more people too. 

       The News reporters all left my room not knowing what to say for that was not the response that they were looking to get. I found out that Paco dropped the lawsuits not expecting me to get on TV and announce what happened to me to the whole world but to forgive him on top of that. I was placed in an insane asylum because some quack felt I needed to be there but that is when I met Dr. Christianson. He did an evaluation of me and told the Judge I am not insane but do require weekly Psychiatry and was willing to make sure I got the proper treatment I needed.  

Chapter 7: 3 Months of Hell 

       Things were starting to get completely out of control! After I confronted Paco Live on Television I was placed in the state mental hospital where I was abused physically and mentally. No one cared about me and it made me want to hurt someone and shut everyone out and be left alone to rot. We find my doctor and the quack discussing what to do with me. 

“Dr. I understand your professional opinion but Mr. Johnston was raped and does not deserve to be locked away.” Dr. Thomas stated 

       “The boy is mentally unstable or you wouldn’t have him on suicide watch. The boy thinks he was raped and is using this delusion in order to seek help. His friends went along with this delusion and went after someone who is not involved what’s so ever. They think they are doing well but clearly they were the ones who placed the boy in this hospital. I think the boy needs to be locked away because he is mentally sick and he needs help.” Dr. Strubschimer informed 

“I think the boy needs help and I have a psychologist friend that could treat him in his office and the boy was raped because the test kit shows bleeding and seaman in which we were able to verify the identity as Mr. Nunez. Not to mention the boy’s toxic levels were way over the legal limit. How do you explain that one?” Argued Dr. Thomas 

“The boy clearly was not in the right frame of mind and even if he was raped the suicide and public humiliation alone clearly shows he is mentally unstable and should be in my care”. Retorted Dr. Strubschimer 

“Well you are not taking him without a court order because I am going to have him evaluated by my friend Dr. Christianson.” Shot back Dr. Thomas 

“I have already done my evaluation and I have enough evidence that the boy is mentally unstable. I will present the evidence to the judge tomorrow and when the judge makes his decision I will have the boy.” Huffed Dr. Strubschimer 

The next day Dr. Thomas and Dr. Strubschimer went to Judge Williams and they continued to argue my welfare. 

“Now what brings you 2 here so early in the morning?” Judge Williams asked 

“Your honor I have evidence that Mr. Johnston should be placed in my care and Dr. Thomas will not turn over the boy unless I have a court order.” Dr. Strubschimer informed 

“I also have evidence that the boy does not need a mental hospital but needs to be around people who care for him and could help him. I also have a psychologist who could help him recover but not lock him away.” Stated Dr. Thomas 

“Is Mr. Johnston the rich kid who was raped and publicly humiliated?” Judge Williams questioned 

“Yes he is!” Both Drs. Agreed 

       “Mr. Johnston came into my office to have a rape test done after he was raped. We had him recap the evening so we could determine what had happened and then we tested his blood to see how much alcohol was in his system and it showed he was well over the legal limit. When we did the rape test we found blood and seaman found in him. We were able to test the DNA of the Seaman and it did prove to be Mr. Nunez. Mr. Johnston was raped and the test confirms it. Next Mr. Johnston tried committing suicide not because of the rape but being publicly humiliated on live television thanks to his friends and Mr. Nunez. Mr. Johnston wound back up in my hospital where we have him on suicide watch. Now Dr. Strubschimer wants to lock him away because he thinks it is all a delusion and the boy has a mental sickness. I don’t think he needs a mental hospital and I would like to have Dr. Christianson evaluate the boy.” Explained Dr. Thomas 

       “Clearly the boy is mentally unstable! He was publicly humiliated, he tried committing suicide and who’s to say that he won’t try committing suicide again. My staff is able to help patients in these type of situations and the boy is suffering from depression, violent dreams which his friends have confirmed, he is violent and cannot control his actions. Locking him away before he starts having psychotic fits and starts hurting people is clearly the reasonable thing to do.” Dr. Strubschimer informed 

“Let me see all the documents on this boy so I may review them and make the proper judgment.” Judge Williams stated as both doctors handed over their documents. 

“Dr. Thomas has Mr. Johnston showed signs of psychotic behavior while under your care?” Judge Williams asked 

“He had a minor seizure but that is due to the lack of oxygen to the brain for about 3 minutes before he was revived. We had to strap him down because of the violent nightmares, which he did start shaking uncontrollably, and shouting while asleep. I do agree he need psychological help but I still say he should not be locked away.” Dr. Thomas replied 

“I will place Mr. Johnston in the care of Dr. Strubschimer until the beginning of the New Year and Dr. Strubschimer you are required to give me up to date information on Mr. Johnston’s progress. If your staff cannot treat Mr. Johnston I will bring in Dr. Christianson to evaluate him. I will hold the hearing on his release at the first of the year.” Judge Williams ordered  

While they were discussing the terms of my release I was sitting with my parents apologizing to them the pain I caused them. 

“Anthony why didn’t you tell us you were raped?” My dad asked 

“I am ashamed because I allowed it to happen. I was drunk and the night it happened I thought you would hate me like everyone else.” I cried 

“We could never hate you and I hope you know we love you. You are our son and there is nothing you could do to make us hate you. I thought we raised you to believe that! We would have dealt with Mr. Nunez and would have fired him for hurting you. I wish you told us sooner then maybe we could have helped you before it all got out of control.” My dad explained 

“There is something we need to tell you…” My mom said as both doctors interrupted her. 

“Mr. & Mrs. Johnston do you mind joining Dr. Strubschimer and myself out in the hall there are some things we need to discuss with you about your son.” Informed Dr. Thomas 

       “Good Afternoon I am Dr. Strubschimer from Connecticut State Mental Hospital and I have come to inform you that your son has been released into my care. I have gotten a court order from the judge to treat your son and I think it would be wise to say your goodbyes to your son. Until further notice your son will not have any contact with the outside world and will not be allowed any visitors. I will give you 10 minutes to say your goodbyes then I am taking your son with me to the mental hospital and I have his straight jacket ready for him.” Explained Dr. Strubschimer 

“I tried to fight for your son but I couldn’t present a strong case. This is only temporary and I will have my friend waiting because after the new year there will be a hearing and the judge will determine whether or not your son will be fit to leave the mental hospital or not. Do not give up hope and my friend Dr. Christianson will be waiting in order to help your son.” Replied Dr. Thomas 

“My son does not deserve to be locked away! He is not psychotic, he was raped by a creep and wouldn’t you need the consent of the parents to have him evaluated?” Fumed my dad 

       “No I do not! Your son is over the legal age and since he is 21 I do not need permission to evaluate him professionally and I am only informing you of the situation as a courtesy. I did not have to inform you at all I only did it so you could say your goodbyes instead of me coming in with some of my staff and take your son away before you said goodbye. Now go say your goodbyes while I get a shirt, pants and slippers for your son. You have until I return because I still have to sign him out!” Dr. Strubschimer snarledAs they walked back into my room I had seen that something was bothering them and my mom was crying. 

“Mom! Dad! What is wrong? What did the doctor say?” I wondered 

“Son, we have to say goodbye! You are going to be taken away to a mental hospital where you will be cut off from the outside world and you will have no contact with us or your friends for at least 3-4 months.” Cried my dad“We love you son and we always will but we won’t give up and we will see you again.” Stated my mom as they came in and hugged me and gave me a kiss. 

“I do not want to go there I want to stay with you please don’t let them take me away!” I begged 

“It is time for your son to come with me. I trust you have said goodbye and you will not interfere with the warrant for your son.” Dr. Strubschimer informed 

“I am not going with you I am not insane!” I said as I started fighting the doctor and his staff. I would not let them place me in the strait jacket and they actually had to sedate me in order for me to cooperate. After they got me in what they brought me they strapped me down to a portable bed to transport me to the mental hospital. 

       “You see boy you trying to resist is futile and I knew you would not come willingly so I gave you a powerful drug in order to get you to cooperate. You are here because the judge deems you mentally unstable! This does not mean you are insane but it means you are going to need psychological help and the type of help we can provide for you. We will determine the types of help you are going to need and we will be monitoring you. You will be given a strict medication in which you must keep and you will be given different types of therapy to see which kinds you respond to the best. We are only trying to help you boy and we are going to do this. We need you to cooperate and if you don’t cooperate when it comes to the hearing you will never be released. Such a shame you are mentally unstable you could have had a bright future. I will be having regular sessions with you and I am the only one who could help you. If you give my staff any troubles we will strap you down and we will sedate you like we did to transport you. I think taking you out of the environment that you live in and remove your friends and family we will be able to focus on what your real issue is and not this charade of you being raped.” Dr. Strubschimer announced 

“I was raped and this is not a charade!” I barely managed to say. My body was completely numb and I could barely respond. 

       “I see despite the drug I gave you that you are able to still be able to comprehend what I said and managed to actually speak. That drug was supposed to seize any motor skills like moving or talking. I think next time we are going to have to give you a stronger dose.” Dr. Strubschimer remarked as I passed out. “I am going to enjoy this patient he is definitely stronger but I will break him and I know he will become a permanent resident at the hospital and I will make him forget about his friends and family.” The doctor noted to himself. 

       The doctor left me alone because he wanted me to feel useless. I am locked in a cage and sometimes the staff comes in with this drug and I try to resist taking it but they corner me and over power me. I try fighting but there are too many of them. They strip me of my clothes and then knock me out. When I wake I am strapped to the bed because they feel that I am causing trouble. Then the doctor walks in and states something I cannot comprehend because I am heavily sedated. I am scared that something bad is going to happen to me and I cannot stop them. I begin crying but nothing I do seems to help me. 

“Now Anthony the staff stripped you out of your clothes because having them is a privilege and you resisting them takes your privileges away. Now tell me boy why do you think you were raped!” Taunted Dr. Strubschimer 

“Sir he is not responding but he is trying to fight his restraints!” One of the staff pointed out 

“Yes go get ice water and dump it on him! That will get him to respond!” Ordered the doctor. 

“Yes sir!” Stated the staff 

I tried moving but I was unable to and I didn’t want to talk to the doctor because I am in a lot of pain and he is questioning me. Next I knew something freezing was dumped all over me. I screamed when it hit me. I am Naked and now freezing. 

“Anthony if you want something warm and dry I suggest you answer my questions! I know you could hear me. Now why do you think you were raped?” Questioned the doctor 

“Paco raped me! I was drunk and I woke up naked in his room and him staring at me in a creepy way!” I stuttered because I am freezing 

“You were not raped and you think you were raped because you imagined the whole thing. We have reports of you using a broom to shove up your ass which caused the tearing of your ass.” Dr. Strubschimer informed 

“No Paco raped me! I was there and I was drunk and I stumbled across my yard tripping over the trash cans. Paco said he brought me inside. He brought me to his room and I passed out and I don’t remember the night. The next morning when I asked Paco what happened he said I wanted to have sex with him and he said I took his virginity.” I cried and shivered 

“Why do you spin these lies boy? You were never raped and until you accept it then we could help you move on.” The doctor stated 

“I was raped! Why would I make this up?” I said with tears flowing down my face 

“You want to believe you were raped because you don’t want anyone to know the truth! You suffer from these illusions of rape which caused you to try ending your life boy.” The doctor explained 

I was raped! I whispered 

“No you were not! I have heard enough, leave the boy to think of what I said and we will try again tomorrow.” The doctor said 

“Please let me have a dry blanket! I am freezing!” I cried 

“Are you going to be more cooperative tomorrow?” The doctor asked 

“Yes! Please let me have some warmth!” I begged 

       The doctor and his assistant left me locking the door to my cell. They did not bring me a blanket and I shivered the entire night. I was becoming more scared by the day and I was losing hope and I was losing my life in the process. I cried myself to sleep I couldn’t even provide any bit of comfort to myself because of the fact I was strapped to my bed. The next day came and the doctor continued to ask if I was raped and yet I still said yes. I knew I was raped so they tortured me even more. I was tortured for 3 days without food but I had water every day to keep me hydrated. After the 3^rd day I was released from my bed so I could eat. After I was done eating I was at least allowed to curl up in a ball to sleep. The next few weeks went like that first week and I was starting to become unresponsive. 

“We are going to have to go to the next level of his treatment! Prepare the electro shock therapy!” Dr. Strubschimer informed 

“Yes sir!” The staff responded 

“Sir why are we torturing the boy?” A new staff member asked 

“The boy is delirious and thinks he was raped! I am trying to get him to stop believing these illusions of rape and he is not responding to the first part of the treatment so we are going to start using shock therapy!” Explained the doctor. 

“Sir I thought shock therapy was banned from the practice due to the injuries the patients received during the treatment!” Asked the new staff member 

“This is my hospital and I will do as I see fit. Now go do your job I am not paying you to ask questions!” Ordered the doctor 

“Yes sir!” The young man stated 

       The doctor did not know that the young man was going to report the doctor for illegal practice of therapy and for torturing his patients. I was brought into a room with a whole bunch of machines and I was strapped down to the table while I was still naked! I had all these wires connected to me and the doctor began questioning me again and if I didn’t give him the answers he wanted to hear or didn’t answer him at all he would press a button and give me a shock which seemed like forever. I screamed out in pain but it seemed to me he was enjoying my pain. While this was happening besides the normal tapes to record the sessions the new staff member was recording it secretly so he could report the hospital to the judge. I would not admit I was not raped because I knew in my heart I was raped. I could not give into them despite the torture I was going through. I would rather die than admit to things that were not true. 

       I didn’t understand why I was going through all this! My parents and my friends abandoned me and they left me in the hands of this psychopath and I began hating them all. I hated myself most of all because it was like I was paying for being raped. It was like I was the one at fault and no one cared what happened to me. I wanted to end all this pain and I have been saving my pills and I plan on ending my life tonight when I am released to my cell. I hated my life and I didn’t deserve to live because I am nothing and no one would ever miss me. 

“The boy is still not responding!” Said the staff member 

"Leave the boy and we will try again tomorrow!" The doctor stated as he recorded the results as they left me strapped to the machine

       Once I was alone I once cried myself to sleep. I went through this torture for 3 more days and finally I was brought back to my room where I curled up in my bed. I had no energy to move let alone attempt to kill myself. This went on for a few more weeks and I was being tortured but I would not say what they wanted to hear. I began losing track of time and I didn’t know days for it seemed like I was already there for an eternity.  I vaguely remember a young man enter my room and in which he had me sit up as he gave me food and water. He also wrapped me in a blanket so I could feel some warmth. I didn’t know why but he was the only one who wanted to help me. 

“I may not be able to do much but soon I will be able to get them on charges of torture, neglect, and unauthorized methods. I can get in serious trouble for feeding you and giving you water and a blanket but I cannot sit by and let them torture you like they are doing.” The young man said with a warm smile! 

       That was the last night I seen that young man but I know what he did gave me a shimmer of hope. I curled back into a ball and I cried myself to sleep. I later found out that the young man was beaten severely but he was able to give the evidence to the district attorney and they were able to put the hospital under new staff and Doctor Strubschimer and the men who tortured me daily were brought up on criminal charges. I didn’t have to be worried about being tortured like that again. I had a dream that night I wanted to commit suicide again and it was my parents standing at my grave crying. I could see their pain and I could hear them as well.“Anthony! I am sorry we failed you son. We were too late to save you! I wish we were able to help you and save you. Now we lost both of our children! I am sorry I couldn’t protect you and I hope one day you would be able to forgive us!” My dad cried 

“Why did you have to die? I wish it was me who died and you were able to live!” My mom added 

       “Mom! Dad it is not your fault! I am sorry, please forgive me! I didn’t want to hurt you please don’t be sad I didn’t want to hurt you!” I cried as they walked away! “Mom! Dad please don’t leave me I am sorry please forgive me!” I cried and next I knew I was surrounded by the staff and the nightmare I was having which made my body shake violently and the staff did all they could to get me to wake up but they were unsuccessful. I then shot up and head butted one of them in the nose. I was crying and then one of them jabbed my arm with something. I became weary and I fell back into a dreamless sleep. 

The judge then ordered the staff to leave me alone and that they were only allowed to bring me food, water, fresh blankets and clothes. He then signed Dr. Christianson to my case. 

Chapter 8: Dr. Christianson’s Help

       After my whole ordeal with the rape and suicide I found myself in an asylum because people thought I was too unstable to live my life alone. For a few months I was cut off from my family and friends because the dr. that had me admitted told the judge that it would be wise if I didn’t have any contact with the outside world. While I was there I wouldn’t talk to anyone until Dr. Christianson came in to give me an evaluation. At first I would not talk to him but he assured me he wanted to help me and felt he didn’t think I deserved to be in there. He told me if I wanted to he would help me get out of the asylum. I asked him what I need to do and he explained if I tell him how I ended up here that he would evaluate me and bring his professional opinion to the judge to get me released into his care. 

“Hello Anthony! I am Dr. Christianson and I am here to evaluate you. You don’t need to be afraid of me I want to help you.” Dr. Christianson stated 

“Hi!” I said but continued to look out my barred window. “Great they sent in another doctor to ridicule me and torment me calling me a liar and I imagined the whole thing!” I thought 

       “Anthony I have been assigned to your case to evaluate you to see if you actually belong here. I need you to cooperate with me because my report will determine if you will be released or not. In my opinion I don’t think you belong here and I want to help you but you need to help yourself and let me get you released into my care. If you cooperate then you could be able to get out of here and be with your family and friends and I will determine if you need professional help or not.” Dr. Christianson explained 

       “Why do you care when all the other Drs. would not listen to me when I tried explaining to them what happened? They treated me like I was stupid and that I didn’t know what happened to me. They laughed at me and that’s when I stopped talking to them because they treated me like I was stupid and immature. What makes you any different than the rest of the people who promised me they wanted to help me?” I questioned, “Another Doctor making empty promises is just what I need.” I rolled my eyes looking back out the window. 

“I understand your frustration and concern and if you give me a chance Anthony I promise I won’t degrade you or torment you. What the other doctors did was wrong but I truly want to help you and if you give me a chance I will do everything in my power to make you feel comfortable and to work towards gaining your trust but I need you to let me help you though!” Smiled Dr. Christianson 

I didn’t know why but he seemed genuine and sincere and I felt he was going to be different from the other doctors that tried talking to me in the past. I gave him a shot but I was still cautious to open up to him. 

“How does this work?” I asked, “He seems different from the others. I don’t know why but I think he will be different and actually help me.” I inwardly smiled at the thought of getting out of this hell. 

       “Well we could talk about anything in order for me to gain your trust and if you want to continue then I could come whenever you want me to. The doctors are not allowed to deny your request for me to come see you. If they do then the judge will order you to be released from this asylum and placed into my care. I will come 3 times a week unless you need me to come more than that. From 1300 to 1500 I am allowed to come see you and during that time I will keep free if you need me. In a month there will be a hearing in which I will bring you in front of the judge to state your case. I will then make a recommendation to the judge based on our sessions within the month. He will then reveal if he agrees with my recommendation or not.” Assured Dr. Christianson 

       “I don’t know where to start! I have been hurt and lost trust in people. I had no contact with my family and friends and the staff here alienated me and made sure I had no contact with anyone else here. I hate this place and I just don’t know how to talk to anyone anymore.”  I cried“What the staff is doing to you is not right and I will be having a long talk with the staff about what they have been doing and find out why they have made you not have contact with others while here. Anthony I want to help you and I want you to be able to trust me so for the first 2 sessions we will talk about what you want to talk about before we start talking about what has led to you being here.” Dr. Christianson smiled a reassuring smile.“It does feel nice to have someone to talk to but I don’t want to be hurt again. I don’t want him to get me to open up only to go away again and hurt me again.” I said to myself. 

       The first 2 sessions was about him gaining my trust and Friday came around and I felt pleased to be able to talk to him. I know he genuinely wants to help me and he explained that the staff were ordered to keep me separate from the others because most of the patients don’t handle being social well and they didn’t want to cause any problems. I did get more privileges though like being able to go to the library and continue some of my school online. I still only talked to Dr. Christianson but now I was able to get letters from my friends and family. I was not able to see them yet but at least I could write to them and find out how they are doing. 

“Hello Anthony! Are you ready for today’s session? It is a nice day outside and I got permission to bring you to my office and allow you to get outside for a bit. I have to have you back by 1515 though. So do you want to go to my office where you can get out of here for a bit?” Dr. Christianson asked politely 

“Yes Dr. I am ready to get some fresh air.” I stated 

“Here are the clothes you came here with and I figured you would want to be more comfortable when we talked. Are you able to change in 5 minutes?” Dr. Christianson asked 

“Yes Dr. I will be ready in 5 minutes. I am happy that you are here and helping me and this is the first time in a long time that I am actually happy.” I stated 

“I am glad to help you Anthony! I will be waiting in the front lobby and then once I sign you out we will be on our way.” Dr. Christianson smiled 

“Is this a dream? Am I actually getting out of this place even just for a little while?” I wondered 

       Dr. Christianson is 6’3 with dark golden blond hair with bluish gray eyes. He genuinely wants to help his patients and makes a difference in the patients he treats. Unlike other Psychiatrists he takes time and makes his patients feel comfortable and befriends them. He is kind, smart, and very good looking. He doesn’t judge his patients and he will do anything to help his patients feel comfortable. I am glad to know him and I truly count him as a friend and confidant. 

       I changed into my clothes and then met Dr. Christianson at the front lobby so he could sign me out. I was able to get away from that dreadful place if only for a few hours. Once we got to his office I noticed he had received many awards for helping people and taking his time to help them. He asked me if I wanted to sit in here or go to the garden and chat there. I chose to go to the garden since I have not been outside in forever. 

       “Anthony I know it's winter time and it is almost Christmas but I want you to be comfortable and be able to breathe the fresh air. We will have our session in the garden gazebo where it is heated in there and you will be able to have some fresh air. I have also arranged for you to have visitors on Christmas Eve. I know you want to be able to see your family and friends so the judge has granted visitation for that day only.” Dr. Christianson explained 

“Thank you Dr. this really means a lot for me. May I ask you a question?” I asked “I must be in a dream he is going out of his way for me and I have not done anything or said anything yet. Am I going to wake up and none of this be real?” I shook my head 

“Of course Anthony I want you to be able to ask me anything!” Smiled Dr. Christianson 

“I don’t want to sound ungrateful but so far you have gone out of your way to help me and I have not even revealed any of my problems to you yet. I don’t understand why you are going through all this trouble to help me when I have not opened up to you yet?” I wondered 

       “The way I see it you have not had anyone you could trust in almost 3 months and I want you to be able to trust me. I want you to know that I want to help you and by making your life a little less stressful while at the asylum I hope that I could gain your trust. I allowed you to ask me questions that you felt were necessary and by me opening up to you gives you the chance to know where I come from. I know you have a hard time trusting people and I don’t think you are being ungrateful but you are just being cautious because how you were treated in the past.” Explained Dr. Christianson 

“I am ready to let him in and hopefully this does not come back and bite me on the ass.” I thought. “I truly appreciate everything you are doing for me and I am ready to open up to you Dr. Christianson. I know I could trust you and I feel better talking to you than I have in a long while. Thank you for everything you are doing for me.” I smiled 

”Anthony I want you to be happy and I will do anything I can within reason to help you. I want you to start from the beginning. What was your day like before your 21^st birthday?” Dr. Christianson asked 

       “It was like any other day I was happy and in a good mood oblivious to the fact that Paco was secretly watching me. It turns out that he was watching me, taking pictures of me and taking my stuff from my house for 2 years. I didn’t know that he was stalking me because I was enjoying my life and going to school for my bachelor’s degree at the time.” I started but stopped when remembering the events of that day and the days to come. “I need to put the pain aside and talk about it or I may never be able to move on. I need to be strong and get through this!” I tried encouraging myself. 

“I know it’s hard for you Anthony and if you are not ready to tell that part of the story yet we could start at a different point in time if you want.” Dr. Christianson offered 

       “I know it states in my file that I am into men but I would never do anything morally wrong. I like helping people and I want to do something meaningful. I have never had sex before my 21^st birthday and that is not how I wanted to do that. I feel different around my friends like I am mad at them because they don’t know what it is like. I am mad at my best friend Joey for leaving me alone that night. I am mad at both Joey and Jamie for taking something private and taking it to the public. I feel like everyone is judging me and I feel so alone. I am mad at Paco for raping me and denying it and most of all I am mad at myself for allowing it to happen. 

       Since that incident my friends have treated me like I am fragile and should not be left alone. They kept asking if I was all right and that kept pissing me off. I just wanted to be left alone and be allowed to forget about it but everywhere I turned I felt judging eyes on me. Instead of trying to be able to forget this nightmare things spiraled out of control. I felt that I disgraced everyone and hurt them so I figured that I didn’t deserve to live. I took some aspirin, which was more than what I was supposed to take, and went to the pond in the park to drown myself. I didn’t know what else to do and since then everyone was talking behind my back and making me feel like crap. I thought of ending my life again but then I dreamed that my parents were standing over my grave blaming them for me killing myself. They said it should have been them and they failed as parents because they could not save me. I tried calling out to them but they could not hear me, and they faded away. If it was not for my parents that night I would have attempted suicide again.” I explained 

“Anthony why did you think you envisioned your parents that night you wanted to end your life again?” Dr. Christianson asked 

       “I think I dreamed that because they have done nothing but support me in any of decisions. I know that if I ended my life that I would crush them for they were the constant good in my life. They are always supportive and they are the reason I am fighting to stay alive. I think that if I died either the first time or went through the suicide again that they would blame themselves for something that was not their fault. Since that night I go to sleep with some comfort knowing that I am fighting to live for them. I am fighting to see them again and to tell them I am sorry for what has happened and that I never wanted to hurt them. They are my reason to fight and you are helping me fight to live so I could see them again.” I stated 

“Why do you think it is important to tell them that you are sorry?” Questioned Dr. Christianson 

“I feel like I will let them down if I end my life and they don’t deserve that when they are the best parents in the world. I may be mad at everyone else but I am not mad at my parents. I think their love was the drive I needed to keep going and continuing to live. I owe them in more ways than they even know.” I cried 

       “It is alright to cry if you need to. You being angry at everyone is understandable because what happened to you should not happen to anyone. Not only were you raped but also you were publicly humiliated because of the rape. You were criticized because you are gay and the fact that you are gay makes everyone automatically think that you asked to be raped. Even your friends who thought they were doing the right thing by going after your attacker ended up doing more harm than good. A stalker who was going to do it regardless raped you. It would be a matter of time but when you stumbled to his house that night opportunity presented itself and the fact that you were drunk made it that much more easier for him to rape you. 

       It is not your fault Anthony; you trusted that he would make sure you were all right. You were betrayed by your best friends because you didn’t want to take it further than the hospital and even though they were trying to do the right thing they made things worse for you in the long run. You were ridiculed publicly because of your friends’ actions to seek justice for you. On top of that you were secluded from your friends and family because the doctor who examined you thought it would be best and the judge agreed. Then you were ridiculed from the doctors here because they thought that you were imagining it and was seeking attention when that was the last thing you wanted. When they went to the judge they mentioned you were being disruptive and that you were not cooperating with them and they tried to prescribe you some meds which the test results show that you refused to take your meds. I don’t think that the meds they prescribed you would have helped you but sedate you so they didn’t have to deal with you. 

       I was called in by your doctor; who treated you when you tried committing suicide requested that I step in and help you. That was his original recommendation and that it was ignored because the hospital psychiatrist said that you need to be removed from the outside world and locked up at the state mental hospital. Once the staff said that you were ignoring treatment and they couldn’t control you they wanted to place you where they would strap you down and keep you strapped down so you couldn’t do anything. This was placed in front of the judge and he denied that type of treatment and that’s when your doctor recommended that I should be assigned to your case. He felt that you did not deserve to be locked away and that you are a healthy young man who had no physical or mental illnesses. He also mentioned that you do need professional help but should not be locked away. He felt you needed the support of your friends and family and that I could help you be able to get over this series of unfortunate events that snowballed out of control. 

       I never want you to feel betrayed by me Anthony or that you can’t trust me. Once you realize that it was not your fault we could take it from there. From my first week with you and reviewing your case file I agree with your doctor that you don’t deserve to be torn from your friends and family and need professional help. If you allow me to I will work on getting you out of that prison and back home. Either way I still want to continue our sessions! I will try getting you out of there once a week and once you are free and placed into my care I am going to schedule sessions with your friends whom let you down so you could express to them how you feel towards them and I think it is wise to schedule one with your parents as well but only if you want me too.” Dr. Christianson explained 

       “I think I should schedule one with my friends and one with my parents. I have been so mad at my friends I don’t know how I am going to face them and I want you there when I talk to my parents because I won’t know how to face them alone. I am glad that you are helping me it feels so good to be able to talk to someone again after being secluded. When I first got here the staff stripped me down and gave me something that knocked me out. I was strapped to my bed and when that doctor questioned me and I didn’t answer the staff dumped something freezing on me. I was freezing and strapped to my bed. They denied me warmth during being strapped to my bed and they denied me food. I was allowed water though and to be able to go to the bathroom but they didn’t care for me. 

       The next month when I wouldn’t give them the answers they wanted to hear they strapped me to a table where they electrocuted me. I still refused to give them the answers they wanted to hear. They did that for another month and there was one staff member who risked his life to provide me warmth and food. I never saw him after that. I know they don’t like me and I know that most of them are homophobes. That’s why they treat me differently than the other patients and won’t let me talk to the other patients. They thought that since I was gay that I should be treated like scum. I know they will deny it but I know they hazed me because I was gay.” I choked “I wonder what happened to that one who helped me that day?” I thought 

“Anthony this staff member who helped you he is the reason that one doctor and some of the staff were fired and locked away.” Dr. Christianson explained 

“What do you mean?” I inquired 

“He was recording them strapping you to a table and electrocuting you which is a practice that is not authorized anymore because it caused more harm to patients than provided any good. Those members of the staff and that doctor were torturing you and they didn’t care about treating you.” Dr. Christianson enlightened 

“I knew I was being tortured but there was nothing I could do I had no strength to fight them and if it wasn’t for that one guy I could have ended up dead. He saved me in more than one way that night. I owe him my life!” I thought as I began to cry. 

“Anthony, do you feel since you are gay that people judge you more than someone who was straight?” Dr. Christianson asked intrigued 

       “Yes I do! People in general are judgmental by default; they judge people who are handicapped because they have more challenges than someone who are healthy. They judge people of different races or religion because they look different or have different views. They judge people who are overweight or skin and bones because they have eating disorders. They judge poor people because they can’t afford to live and they judge those of same sex orientation because they think that it is wrong, especially men who are gay because it is more acceptable of 2 women to make out and have sex then men. People will find any excuse to divert their problems onto other people. Why do you think that there is so many racist, homophobes, people who think that women should stay home and take care of the kids and house, bullies…? People as a whole are cruel, mean and cynical because they would rather blame other people and torture other people because they hate what they don’t know or understand. They were taught to hate what they don’t understand. That’s why, people stereotype everyone.” I informed 

“Yes you are right people as a whole are taught to hate what they don’t understand and it's almost second nature to them. With that said what do you plan on doing to minimize these issues?” Dr. Christianson asked 

“I plan on helping those who were raped, those who thought of suicide and those who have had to overcome several challenges and teach them. Tell them they are not alone and offer any assistance so they don’t have to go through what I went through. I may not be able to prevent these issues but I could help like you are and provide support and advice to others who have similar issues.” I exclaimed 

       “That is a good start! By helping others overcome the obstacles then you teach others that they are not alone and that they don’t have to be ashamed of something that was out of their control. Well Anthony it is time to head back but I think that you are more relaxed away from that place. One thing I want you to do is keep a journal something that you could record any issues or thoughts. This is your journal and the staff is not allowed to confiscate it or they could be brought up on charges. You don’t need to share it with anyone and that includes myself unless you want to but I encourage you to write in it every day. You could record when these issues first started or you could put anything you want into it. We had a good first week and I am glad that you opened up to me which I didn’t think you would have so soon.” Dr. Christianson stated 

       Dr. Christianson dropped me off and signed me back in and I followed his advice to start writing in my journal every day and I found it easier to write down what had happened to me then keep it bottled up. I continued to talk to Dr. Christianson which was a tremendous help for I realized that even though I am angry at everyone I know it’s not my fault. Besides writing and talking to Dr. Christianson I still keep to myself because I don’t have anyone to talk to. I was able to see my parents and friends but I didn’t know how to talk to them I felt so awkward that I couldn’t look them in the eyes. Dr. Christianson was there to help me with the awkward feeling and told them how much I am improving and that he feels that I will be released soon. Even though I enjoyed having them there I have been isolated for so long that I didn’t want to be there. I wanted them there but when they got there I wanted to get out of there. My next appointment with Dr. Christianson he asked me about my time with my family and friends. I explained that I hated being there because I felt that my friends were judging me with their eyes. I felt awkward because I didn’t know what to say to them and that I was screaming inside to run away and he understood what I was going through.

Chapter 9: The Hearing and My Freedom

       My last appointment before my hearing Dr. Christianson explained to me what was going to happen? He wanted me to be prepared for what was going to happen and he didn’t want me to get my hopes up. I was ready for the hearing but I was also nervous because I felt that I would not be released. I talked to Dr. Christianson about this and he explained that it was normal and I had nothing to fear. 

       “Anthony I want you to be prepared for what is to happen. Friday at 8am I am going to bring you a suit to change into. Once you have showered and gotten dressed we are going to make our way to the courthouse where the Judge will determine whether or not you are to be released. He is going to talk to the Dr. in charge of the state asylum and get his recommendation. Then he is going to talk to me to get my recommendation while you wait out in the hallway. Once we are done he is going to have me escort you in where he is going to talk to you. I want you to be honest and answer any questions he may have for you. Once he has talked to all of us he is going to give a speech before he makes his decision. If he feels that you have improved and has responded to my treatment then he may release you. Just remember if you don’t get released it is not the end I will continue to fight for you.” Dr. Christianson stated 

“I am afraid that I may never get out of here and see my family again. I am grateful for all your help but I hate being here. I don’t want to mess up and let you down and let my parents down. I feel if I don’t get released that I will be trapped here for the rest of my life.” I feared 

       “Anthony you do not have to be afraid. What you are feeling is completely normal and it is good to feel nervous and afraid. I am not going to give up on you Anthony and I will be right beside you in that hearing. I just want you to be yourself and you have made great improvements in the past month. You won’t let me down and I don’t think you will be trapped here for the rest of your life.” He comfortedFriday came around and I was showering and Dr. Christianson had my suit laid out for me. Once I got dressed I met him out at the lobby where he signed me out for my hearing. 

“Anthony your hearing is at 10am and I am not sure how long this is going to take. I have you signed out all day and I will return you tonight. If the judge releases you I am still required to bring you back and then you are to stay for the weekend where I will then pick you up on Monday along with all your possessions.” Dr. Christianson explained 

“Dr. is my family going to be there?” I asked, “I hope they are able to make it because I think if they are there then I could be able to relax a bit.” 

“I have informed them of the hearing and yes they are going to be there but once the hearing is over we will get something to eat but remember this is a hearing and he may need to see you more.” He said but offered a smile for comfort. 

       We made it to the courthouse and the hearing began. First they talked to the medical staff to see how I have been behaving while in the asylum. They mentioned that I have improved my behavior since Dr. Christianson has been evaluating me. Once they were done they called in Dr. Christian to get his recommendation. Dr. Christianson mentioned that I have been improving and I have opened up a lot since he has been assigned to my case. He stated that he would still like to see me on a regular basis but should have never been in the state asylum. Once the judge was done getting the recommendations Dr. Christianson came out to escort me in. 

       “Mr. Johnston you are here for a hearing to determine whether or not you should be released from the asylum. What originally brought you here were your attempted suicide and your accusations of rape. We have heard from your doctor stating on your behalf that you were drunk the night of your birthday and that you were in fact raped. Since that incident you were humiliated and tried ending your life which ended you in the asylum. Now I have spoken to the medical staff and Dr. Christianson about you to decide whether or not you should remain in the care of the asylum. Now I am going to ask you some questions before I make my final decision. I want you to answer truthfully and I want your full cooperation. Do you think you could do that?” The judge explained 

“Yes your Honor!” I replied 

“Mr. Johnston please; explain to me what your experience in the asylum was like.” Stated the judge 

       ”Your honor, my experience at the asylum started off miserable. I felt that I was being targeted because of what happened and that they really didn’t want me there. I felt that the staff was being predigest against me and that they hazed me for it. I was alienated from the other patients. I felt mocked, belittled, and degraded because of who I am and I stopped talking to people because I was alone and no one cared about me. Before Dr. Christianson came I thought about ending my life again but decided not to because of my parents.” I stated a bit nervous 

“Mr. Johnston since Dr. Christian was assigned to your case please tell me what your experience with him was like?” The judge asked 

       “Since Dr. Christianson evaluated me he explained that he wanted to help me but at first I have not been able to trust anyone because what had happened in the past but he seemed genuine and wanted to truly help me. It took a little while to open up to him, but I was able to begin to feel comfortable around him and open up to him. He helped me realize what happened to me was not my fault. I learned to be happy again and I took up a journal to record what happened plus things I wanted to talk about with Dr. Christianson. I was able to put how I felt on paper and it felt good to not keep things bottled up anymore. When I first went to the asylum I became bitter and then Dr. Christianson helped me release some of that bottled up anger and resentment.” I declared 

“Mr. Johnston I know that you had a miserable experience with everything, but do you feel that Dr. Christianson did his job? Do you feel that if you were released from the asylum that you would continue seeing him as a patient?” The judge questioned 

       “If it was not for Dr. Christianson and my parents I would be dead right now. I have learned so much from him and that I would not be here if not for him. If I am released I still want to continue my appointments with Dr. Christianson because there is so much that I need to talk to him about that I think I am not done with being treated. I don’t know how to face people yet for my only source of contact was Dr. Christianson. I feel I will need to have support from the one person who has helped me to get back into how my life use to be. I know my life will never be the same but I need help to adjust back into life.” I informed 

       “I understand and based off of everything I have heard I feel that you are to be released from the asylum. I will release you to the care of your Parents and Dr. Christianson will continue to examine you. You will not be required to come here for another examination but you will continue 3 times a week to be examined. After a year if Dr. Christianson feels that you no longer need treatment then you will no longer be required to see him.” The judge explained 

       I felt a wide range of emotions after hearing that after Monday I will no longer have to go to that dreadful place. I hated being there and now I am free from there. I thanked the judge and turned to Dr. Christianson and told him that I didn’t know what to say. I owe him so much for he was the only one who treated me like a person and made me realize that there are people who want to help me. I met up with my parents and we went to my mom’s restaurant for lunch where Dr. Christianson explained what was going to happen now. 

       “Anthony I am pleased with the results of the hearing. I know you had a rough time but you should have never been there in the first place. Monday I will pick you up but it will not be a normal session for I am going to get you accustomed back into the world. Wednesday I am going to have you talk to your friends in my office so you could tell them how you feel about this whole thing. We will continue as long as you need me and we will get you back to your old life.” Dr. Christianson stated 

“Mom! Dad I am sorry for all the pain I caused you! I never wanted to hurt you and I know that suicide was not the answer. I was so scared and alone that I felt that I didn’t deserve to live. I know now that it was not my fault and I shouldn’t have blamed myself. If it was not for you I would have attempted suicide again. I never want to go through that again.” I cried 

       “Son! We never blamed you for anything in fact we are glad you are feeling better and no longer have suicidal thoughts. Yes we would be devastated if you had died but we would never blame you. I know who you are and I know it would take something so severe for you to do what you did. I don’t care if you are gay you are my son and I love you with all my heart. We are sorry we couldn’t protect you from what Paco did and if I had known that he was stalking you and being inappropriate with you we would have fired him a long time ago. You never have to feel alone ever again and I am glad to have my son back again.” My dad cried as he pulled me into a hug 

“Anthony I agree with your father! You are our son and nothing is going to stop us from loving you with all our hearts. I know you would not hurt us and we will always be there for you. We could not have asked for a better son than you!” My mom stated as she joined in the hug. 

       My dad and I look like twins! My dad is 20 years older than me by the day and we both have similar personalities. My dad is a retired Marine Officer and a successful businessman. He comes from a wealthy family and continued to build his business into a successful hotel. My dad is 6’2” with dark golden blond hair and deep blue eyes. He has a tone body and he is very loving and caring. He will do anything for his family for his family is the only reason he has for living. 

“Thank you mom and dad I love you so much and I never want to put you through that again.” I stated 

“Well son we have to go but we will see you Monday and do you want to stay at the main house or the guest house?” My dad asked 

“I want to stay at the main house I have been isolated so long and I don’t want to feel lonely anymore.” I mentioned“Ok son we will put your stuff back into your old room and I am glad to have you home again.” My dad said as he hugged me 

“Welcome home son!” My mom smiled as she hugged me 

       My mom is a pure Italian woman and she will not tolerate anyone going after her family. She will hunt someone down if they hurt her family or friends. She is 5’6” tall with medium brown hair and brown eyes. She is a great baker and chef. She met my dad in kindergarten and became fast friends with him. She grew up with my dad and married him after he graduated boot camp. 

“Please don’t mention I am home to my friends just yet! I don’t know how to face them yet.” I said 

“We won’t and we will have your coming home party when you are ready.” My dad agreed 

As my parents walked off I noticed that my cousin and Joey were walking in the restaurant when they spotted me.“Hey Anthony, how are you?” Katie asked 

“I am ok; how are you too?” I replied not making eye contact 

“We are good! What are you doing here? I thought you are still in that asylum.” Joey mentioned 

“I had my hearing today and starting Monday I am no longer in that wretched place.” I said awkwardly 

“Excuse me but I have to get Anthony back to the asylum since we only came here for some lunch before he had to return.” Dr. Christianson stated knowing I was feeling uncomfortable in that conversation. 

“It was nice seeing you guys again.” I said putting on a fake smile as I hugged them goodbye 

Once in the car I thanked him for saving me back there.“Thanks for the save back there! I don’t know what to say around them. I am not mad at them anymore but I just can’t talk to them anymore.” I mentioned 

“As time passes by you will find it easier to talk to them. I will explain that since you weren’t able to talk to anyone in 4 months that you don’t know how to pick up where you left off and that it is going to take some time for you to feel comfortable talking to them again.”  Dr. Christianson explained 

“I wish I could just go back to how things use to be but I know I can’t and I will have to rebuild my friendship with them.” I sighed 

       Dr. Christianson brought me back to the asylum where he told me he would be there at 8am sharp to sign me out for good. During that weekend I found myself bored and antsy because I wanted Monday to come fast. I tried writing in my journal but I could not concentrate on anything more than Monday to come. The weekend moved by so slow and I thought it would never end and by the time Monday came around I was showered, dressed and waiting for the good dr. to come and get me. When he came I was already to go and I barely let him sign me out before I was out the door. This caused Dr. Christianson to chuckle at the fact of me being impatient which is abnormal for be being I have been told that I am a very patient person. 

“Well Anthony how was your weekend?” Dr. Christianson asked amused 

        It was too long, no matter what I did it made the time go really slow! I spent my time watching the clock and I couldn’t focus on anything else. I tried writing in my journal but I couldn’t think of a topic to write about and I tried reading a book but every time I attempted I would glance at the clock and ended up reading the same page over again. I tried watching some TV but I couldn’t find any channels I wanted to watch. I just wanted Monday to come fast. I have never been in such a hurry in all my life and the more impatient I got the more time moved slowly.” I informed which is what dr. Christianson thought would happen“I had a feeling that you would end up wishing time to move faster but you should have forced yourself to not think about the time and just forced yourself to focus on something more productive. I know it is not easy to do but sometimes by distracting yourself you are able to make time move by a little faster. Well what would you like to do today? Today is about getting you accustomed back into the world. We will do anything you want to do so you could start feeling comfortable around other people.” Dr. Christianson mentioned 

“I think I would want to change and then go meet my parents for lunch before going to the mall. There has been so much I have missed and I think I would like to spend as much time with my parents as I can.” I stated“Well we will go to your house so you could change into something a little more comfortable then I will go to my house so I could change as well. Since I am not required to be in a suit and tie today other than picking you up I think I will be able to show you my casual side.” Dr. Christianson informed 

       We first went to my house since my parents gave Dr. Christianson a spare key to give to me. I brought my stuff into the house and got dressed and then called my dad to see if he and mom would want to take the day off to spend with Dr. Christianson and me. My dad said he would and asked where they were going to meet us. I told them at mom’s restaurant at 10am which my dad agreed to. After we left my house we went to Dr. Christianson’s house so he could change while I opted to wait in the car. We made our way to my mom’s restaurant where we met up with my family. After eating we went to the mall where we hung out and I bought some new stuff since I have been locked up for 4 months. During the day with encouragement from Dr. Christianson I called Joey, Jamie, and J Lee to have them come to therapy on Wednesday. They all agreed since I told them that it would help me start building our friendship again. Wednesday comes around and Jamie was the first to show then J-Lee and finally Joey showed. 

“Thank you for coming this will help Anthony a lot because it shows him your support and it will also allow him to express how he felt during the whole incident. Anything you would like to tell him you are allowed to do so and we will do one on one and then bring all of you back in at the end. Which one of you would like to come in first?” Dr. Christianson asked 

“I guess I will! I want to help Tony get better and I am willing to do whatever it takes to help him out.” Jamie stated“Ok Jamie what you say here will be confidential and that anything you want to tell Anthony you are allowed to do so.” Dr. Christianson explained. “Anthony why don’t you start!”“Jamie why did you go after Paco?” I wondered 

“I am sorry Tony I wanted to protect you and make sure no one hurt you like that again. I know what I did was wrong but when I heard that you were raped I was furious and it made me think of the promise I made you when we were dating! I promised that I would not let anyone hurt you in anyway or they would have to go through me. Even though I pretended to be my brother in order to date you I meant everything I said to you.” Jamie cried 

“You made me that promise I thought J Lee made me that promise.” I questioned 

       “No I made you that promise! I was the first one to kiss you and that was at the masquerade party your dad threw when we were 15 years old. You were dressed in a similar uniform to the USMC dress blues but instead of red it was gold and I was in a similar outfit except mine was white and gold. We went out on the balcony to get away from the party when I leaned in and kissed you! I startled you but then you kissed me back! I then asked you out when you said yes J-Lee I would love to go on a date with you. I was happy you said yes but I was also disappointed that you thought I was J-Lee. That is when I started to be J-Lee so I could date you.” Jamie informed 

“Why didn’t you tell me Jamie that it was you and not J Lee?” I questioned 

“Would you have gone out with me if you knew that I was not J Lee?” He shot back 

“I still would have dated you Jamie but you should have told me! I thought you were doing that as one of your pranks you would play on me that’s why when I found out I was mad at the both of you for playing with my heart like you did. Was it you the entire time or did I actually date J-Lee too?” I inquired 

       “Part of the reason I pretended to be J-Lee is for the fact that everyone knew he was gay and that you had a crush on him. Even though I am not into guys you are the only one that I wanted to be with. I Love girls but you are the only guy that I would actually date and surprisingly enough Jessica is cool with me dating you and she even said if you were bi that she would date you while being with me. Tony bear I never wanted to hurt you I just wanted to be with you and when I heard you say J-Lee I knew right then and there that being J-Lee was the only way I could be with you!” Jamie frowned. "J-Lee only dated you when I was sick or unable to meet you but I was the one who snuggled with you when we watched movies and I was the one who took care of you when you were sick that day.” Jamie added“Jamie, come here! You didn’t have to pretend to be your brother you should have been yourself. I am sorry for confusing you with your brother but I would have dated you regardless.” I mentioned 

       “I guess but Anthony everyone expects me to be into girls and not guys! They think that since I do like girls I can’t be into you and if I am into you then I am just another scumbag. I know I shouldn’t care what others think about me but I have spent most of my life defending you and J-Lee that I wonder who would defend me. I love you Anthony and if I could do things over I would but I can’t! I messed up everything and it caused you to get hurt more than once. I couldn’t protect you and I have been beating myself up over it every day you were locked away.” Jamie cried 

I pulled him into a hug and told him that I don’t blame him for what he did. I knew that he genuinely wanted to protect me and not hurt me, which I just sat there comforting him.“Dr. Could I talk to Jamie alone for a few minutes before bringing in either Joey or J-Lee?” I asked 

“Sure Anthony this is about you reconnecting with your friends I am just someone helping you to do so.” Dr. Christianson smiled as he exited the office. 

“Jamie I want you to do one thing for me and I want you for now on don’t hide anything from me even if you are trying to protect me.” I smiled as I wiped away Jamie’s tears 

“I promise! I truly never stopped loving you Anthony and I wish things worked out between us! You are the only one besides Dr. Christianson and my brother that knows that knows that it was I who dated you fully and not my brother. I truly love you and I said Jessica is alright with me kissing you!” He whispered 

“You will always be in my heart Jamie but you have a beautiful wife and 2 beautiful children. You need to take care of them first and I am glad you finally told me it was you I was dating. Jamie I will always be here for you and I know you will do the same. Just don’t act like you have to hide anything from me again.” I said kissing Jamie and then hugging him. 

Jamie went out of the office after drying his tears and then he had a smile on his face because he knew I was going to be all right and that I still loved him. Dr. Christianson then brought J-Lee into the office and J Lee really didn’t say anything. 

“Jason do you know why you are here and do you understand you could say what you want and anything you say won’t leave this office?” Dr. Christianson asked 

       “I understand! Tony I was mad at you for going on live television but I understood why you did it. You proved that you are not a weak person and that no matter what you always manage to clean up our messes that we make. We thought we were protecting you but you are the one who always protects us. I am sorry I didn’t tell you sooner that we actually never dated but Jamie was the one who was in love with you and when you called him J-Lee it hurt him because he thought he never had a shot with you.” J-Lee stated 

“I know Jamie told me already but I have a question to ask! Would you have ever dated me or would you just have stayed friends with me?” I wondered 

“Honestly I don’t really know I like you and all but I only seen you as a brother to me.” J Lee informed 

“I understand!” I tried not sounding disappointed but failed.“Are we still friends Tony?” J Lee asked abruptly 

“Yes we are still friends, just promise me that you will be yourself and try not to do anything that you think will protect me.” I replied  

“I promise!” J-Lee smiled as he hugged me 

J-Lee walked out of the office and Joey walked into the office looking like he really didn’t want to be there. We really didn’t make eye contact and neither one of us made the first move to speak. Dr. Christianson saw the tension between us and decided to have me go out of the office so he could speak with Joey alone. 

“Anthony I would like to speak with Joseph alone please! Do you mind going out in the waiting room for a few moments and I will come get you when I am ready for you guys to talk?” Dr. Christianson requested 

After I left the office I took a seat next to Jamie while Dr. Christianson talked to Joey! 

“Joey are you ok with being here?” Dr. Christianson asked 

       “No! I almost got my best friend killed not once but twice but yet he managed to fix my mistakes. How can I face him when I am the one to blame for this whole mess? Paco may have raped Tony but I was the one who made it possible for Paco to do that. If I didn’t let my anger get the best of me that night none of this would have happened. Tony should have never gone through that but I let it happen and I know that no matter what I do I can’t fix that mistake. I don’t blame Tony if he hates me I would hate me too if I was in his situation.” Joey informed 

“Joey I think you need to hear what Anthony has to say about what happened. Do you think you could listen to him or do you not want to see him?” Dr. Christianson inquired“I don’t know, I want him to be friends with me but I don’t think I could sit here and have him put the blame on himself.” Joey replied 

“I think you should hear what Anthony has to say before you make that judgment.” Dr. Christianson mentioned“Ok I will hear what Anthony had to say but I think that our friendship is over and I don’t think I could handle that.” Joey cried 

I went back into the office and Dr. Christianson told me that I should tell Joey about my time in the asylum. 

       “Joey when I was raped I was so scared and alone that I thought that the only way to end my suffering was to end my life. I was angry at Paco for taking advantage of me while I was in his care. I was mad at you for leaving me in my yard, I was mad for being mocked and humiliated on live television, and I felt that my best friends and the entire world were judging me and mocking me about my rape and suicide. I felt so alone and I felt that no one really cared what happened to me. When I was isolated I had those feelings again and I would have suicidal thoughts and I would feel so alone and no one truly cared what happened to me. I was so angry at myself and everyone else that I would have gone through my suicide again. If it wasn’t for my parents I would be dead right now. Then I met Dr. Christianson and he taught me that it was not my fault that I could not control what happened and that Paco would have raped me regardless. 

       He told me that being angry at those involved is natural and that even though they hurt you they were only doing what they thought was right at the time. He told me that I need to confront my friends and to tell them how I truly feel and to get them to understand that I was mad at them but I don’t blame them anymore. That was what this whole meeting was about. It was about me confronting my fears and face my friends to let them know how I truly feel. Joey I was mad at you for what you did to me but I also know why you did it and I don’t hate you for trying to protect me. I ask that if something bad happens to me again please don’t take matters into your own hand and try fixing something that was beyond our control.” I explained 

       “Anthony I thought that our friendship would be over and that you would take the blame on something that was not your fault trying to protect me. You have taken the blame for me more times than I can count and I know that you are tired of protecting me when I thought I was protecting you. I am a bad friend Tony and I don’t deserve your friendship.” Joey said looking at his sneakers 

“Joey you are not a bad friend and we have been through so much that I am not going to throw this friendship away.” I said pulling Joey into a hug. 

Dr. Christianson then had the twins join us in his office where he explained to all of us that we need to all work on our friendship. 

       “I had you all come in individually to hear what Anthony had do say and for you to have the opportunity to express how you truly feel. You all need to work on your friendship and not take each other for granted. Tony being locked away affected each one of you differently and from what I heard caused your friendship to fall apart. Tony wanted to be able to reconnect with his 3 best friends and not have it awkward either.” Dr. Christianson explained 

       Dr. Christianson wrapped up the session and we all left his office. Things between Joey and I were still awkward but as time progressed we were able to rebuild our friendship. I went back to college and I met this one guy named Mathieu and we hit it off and now we are dating but going back to college was not all fun and games. I had this one professor who is actually younger than I am and he made my life a living nightmare.

Chapter 10: Professor Jackiewicz and 

My Trip to the Bahamas      

Spring semester just started and I am at my first class when this 19yo guy walks in and starts telling us what to expect. We were all puzzled as to why he was up in front of the class when he finally mentioned that he is Professor Jackiewicz. He briefly introduced himself and told us why he is a professor at 19.     

       “Hello class my name is Dr. Jackiewicz and I will be your professor for this class. I expect you all to be on time and any people whom are late will not be permitted to attend the lesson and they are still required to do the homework. If you miss a day of my class that is an automatic zero on your homework for that day. I don’t except any excuses nor do I accept any sympathy. You are here to learn not show up whenever you want.” Jake announced 

As class went on our professor called me out and told me that I have no business being in his class and kicked me out for no reason.

“Mr. Johnston why are you in my class. Get out of my class room! I will refuse to drop you and I don’t want you to show to class anymore. I will refuse to teach someone who is messed up as you are. Get out now!” Jake shouted  

“Sir I did nothing to you and why are you kicking me out of your class when this course is a course I need to get my degree? I don’t understand why I am being kicked out of your classroom for no apparent reason! You are going to screw me out of this credited course because you don’t like me.” I cried  

       “You want to fight this see me after class I have a class to teach and I am not going to take their time and argue this point. Now excuse yourself quietly and get out of my classroom. Anyone who doesn’t agree with my methods could leave as well and you will get an automatic zero for this class. I don’t drop people so if you want to stay in my class and not get a zero I suggest that you sit down and shut up so I could teach you this lesson.” Jake informed  

“It is bad enough I was raped, humiliated and locked away and now I have this wannabe teacher kicking me out of this class for no apparent reason. This is fucking bullshit!” I thought as I made my way to the Guidance Counselor’s office.  

       I left the classroom and went straight to my guidance counselor to see if I could be transferred out of that class so I could take another class. I explained my situation and how my teacher singled me out in front of the entire class. My guidance counselor said he would arrange a meeting between me, and my teacher to see what the issue is. After the class is over my guidance counselor pulls Dr. Jackiewicz into his office so we could figure out why I am being singled out.  

“Mr. Jackiewicz we all know that you are a genius but you can’t kick a student out of your classroom without a good excuse. Why did you kick Mr. Johnston out of your classroom and refuse to let him back into the class but refuse to drop him from your class?” Mr. Mitchells asked  

“I have been following the news the past year and I know he is a troublemaker and he is an attention seeker, and not to mention I don’t like his sexual preferences! I will refuse to teach Mr. Johnston and I refuse to drop him.” Jake exclaimed  

“Great! He has a grudge against me and he doesn’t fucking know me. I am sick of being treated like crap by people who thinks they know me based off what they heard.” I rolled my eyes listening to this crap that Dr. Jackiewicz was saying.         

       Jake Jackiewicz is a child prodigy and self-acclaimed genius at the age of 19 years old. He is 5 foot 10 inches with medium brown hair and bluish grey eyes. He has a doctorate in Science and he is also the youngest nominee for the Nobel Peace Prize! He really doesn’t know how to have fun and he would rather be teaching or coming up with a new invention. Things started off rocky between us but eventually things started to eventually smooth out between us!  

“Well if you don’t want Mr. Johnston in your class then you need to drop him from your class so Mr. Johnston could fill his schedule. You cannot treat people like that or we will have to take administrative actions. You need to follow the rules of the school.” Mr. Mitchells informed  

“Fine! Whatever! Mr. Johnston can stay in my class but if he is late to my class I will not let him in and he will get a zero for that lesson. I do not tolerate tardiness.” Jake spat as he left the office.  

“Mr. Johnston if you have any more problems with Dr. Jackiewicz then let me know and I will drop you from his class without penalties.” Mr. Mitchells said.  

“Ok thank you Mr. Mitchells!” I said as I gathered my things and left the office. Jake huffed past me and went to prepare his next lessons.         

       Things went by smoothly and I started to talk to this one guy who was my lab partner in Jake’s class. I found out that we have a lot in common and he admitted that he likes me more than a friend. I have never felt as comfortable around another guy and think of him as my boyfriend as I did with Jamie. Spring semester ended and my 22^nd birthday was approaching and Joey was planning something for my birthday. I was told that I need to pack for a week and that we are going to the Caribbean for my birthday.  

“Hey Mathieu! I guess my friends are bringing me to the Caribbean islands for my birthday and I was wondering if you had any plans for my birthday!” I asked  

“No I don’t have plans for your birthday! Why are you inviting me to the Caribbean for your birthday?” Mathieu asked  

“Yes please I love my friends but they are always with their partners and that is fine I just don’t want to feel like a 7^th wheel.” I exclaimed  

“I would love to go to the Caribbean with you I just don’t want to impose on what your friends have planned.” Mentioned Mathieu  

“I already asked my parents if I could bring a friend and they said that’s fine. I guess my parents are paying for the trip! What did you think of Dr. Jackiewicz?” I wondered  

“You mean that kid who is way older than his true age. I think he hated your guts and was not happy that you were in his class. I also don’t think he has any friends. What did you do to piss him off?” Questioned Mathieu  

“I don’t know I never met the kid until that first day where he kicked me out of his class for no apparent reason.” I stated  

“I wonder why he has a grudge against you when you never met him before.” Mathieu said  

“I don’t know I am not worried about it I don’t have to deal with him anymore! Are you ready for lunch with my parents and friends?” I inquired 

“Yes I am I just hope your friends accept me like you have!” Mathieu mentioned  

       “Well the only one I am worried about is Joey! He is just way too much over protective of me since what happened last year on my birthday. Jamie and J-Lee worry about me but they know when I need my space. Joey treats me like a 2 year old and doesn’t like it when I am out of his sight for too long.” I explained We made our way over to my parents’ restaurant where I introduced Mathieu to everyone and just as I predicted Joey started giving him the 3^rd degree.         

       “Mom, dad everyone this is Mathieu we have been going out since spring break and I invited him to spent 2 weeks with us in the Caribbean. Mathieu you remember my parents! To the left of my mom that is Catherine my cousin and her boyfriend Joseph. Next to Joey is my Ex-boyfriend’s wife Jessica and sitting next to her is Jamie and his twin brother Jason. Then there is Cheng who is dating J-Lee.” I introduced as we sat down  

“So Mathieu how did you meet Tony?” Catherine asked politely  

“I met him college, we shared a class together and we were lab partners.” Mathieu replied  

“So Mathieu tell us a little about yourself. Tony never mentioned anything about you to us.” Joey said  

       “I was born and raised in Quebec and my family was originally from France. English is my main language since my dad is English and Italian while my mom is French born. I grew up playing the saxophone and modeled when I was a kid. I still model on the side but not as much as I use to. I also am a competitive swimmer and I draw and paint as well. I love cooking and baking which I started working last month here at this restaurant which is helping me with college tuition. That’s pretty much it!” Mathieu replied  

“So you are planning on joining us on the trip to the Caribbean Islands for Tony’s birthday! Don’t you think it’s a little too early in your relationship to be going on a trip together?” Joey interrogated receiving a kick from Katie and death glares from me  

“Tony invited him when he found out about the trip and I said it would be alright for Mathieu to come with us.” My dad replied  

“I invited him because I wanted to hang out with him I also didn’t want to feel like a 7^th wheel around you guys.” I stated  

“Mathieu what are your intentions with Tony?” Joey asked  

“You know what Joey if you are going to be a jerk then Mathieu and I will leave. That is none of your business and for your information we plan on take it slow.” I spat  

I excused myself from the table and just walked away from Joey when Jamie came running to catch up to me.         

       “Tony-bear don’t leave I know Joey is being a jerk but he is only trying to look out for you. Me personally I am happy that you have a boyfriend and from what he said I know he won’t do anything to hurt you. I know you could take care of yourself and I want you to be happy. You will always be my Tony-bear and I will never stop loving you and I hope that Mathieu makes you as happy as I did when we dated.” Jamie smiled         

       “Thanks Jamie! You always knew how to cheer me up part of me still wishes we never broke up but I do love Mathieu and I just wish Joey would stop babying me. I can’t stand his constant smothering and I end up losing friends because of him showing up or giving them the 3^rd degree. Is it too much to ask to be happy or will I always have Joey breathing down my neck?” I asked       

        “I know it’s hard Tony-bear but Joey don’t want what happened last year to repeat itself and I know that you are being suffocated but give it time Joey will back off and I know Katie has plans to keep him off your back. Promise me though that you and me could spend a day together like we use too when we were dating. Just us 2 and no one else I promise I won’t ruin our friendship and I won’t ruin your relationship with Mathieu!” Jamie mentioned  

“Jamie I promise that we could spend a day together where it is just the 2 of us and no one else. Here comes Mathieu and I want you two to get to know each other you guys are both very important to me and I want you to be friends to each other. Promise me you will get to know him Jamie!” I replied  

“Anything for you Tony-bear! I promise I will try to get to know him.” Promised Jamie as he smiled  

“Jamie it was nice to meet you I have heard so much about you but I must go.” Mathieu stated very upset  

“Oh great! I just lost another friend and my boyfriend due to Joey suffocating me! Is this madness ever going to end?” I thought  

I knew what had taken place and I had to chase after Mathieu. Jamie also knew what had happened and knew Joey was being an ass. I caught up to Mathieu and apologized to him saying it was my fault that he had to go through that.         

       Mathieu is 6 feet 1 inches tall with a nice golden tan that matches his athletic body. He is very caring and a great listener who is always there for me when I need him. He loves to cook, bake and anything that has to do with art or music. He is looking to want to teach music and art to kids by opening up his very own recreation center. He is also going to teach them how to cook as well.  

“Mathieu I am so sorry how Joey treated you! I wish he would stop being like this and let me be happy.” I pleaded  

“Tony I want to be with you and everyone else is great but Joey doesn’t know me and he is treating me like I am scum. I will not be around someone who treats me like that. I don’t think it would be wise if I went with you to the Caribbean not with your friend treating me like that.” Mathieu cried  

“I understand and once again I am sorry for what Joey did to you and it is inexcusable and I am going to have a long talk with that jackass.” I exclaimed  

“Tony I don’t want to ruin your friendship with him. I like you and I want to be with you but I think your friend Joey would not like it.” Mathieu frowned  

“I am not going to let Joey ruin my relationship with you let me talk to Joey and tell him to back off. I am getting pissed that he is suffocating me and I don’t tolerate him butting in where it’s none of his business.” I said  

“Well I will let you talk to your friend before we decide whether or not I want to go to the Caribbean with you.” Mathieu mentioned  

I kissed Mathieu good-bye and then went back to the restaurant and went to talk to Joey.  

“Joey I want to talk to you now!” I demanded  

“What do you want Tony I am eating?” Joey said before stuffing his face  

“Now Joey I will yell at you right here but I would rather talk to you in private so get up and follow me.” I threatened  

Joey took his time getting up to follow me to a private location! Once we got somewhere private I asked him what he did to Mathieu to make him so upset.  

“Ok Tony I am here what do you want I am trying to enjoy my lunch.” Joey said smugly  

“You have a lot of nerve! What did you say to Mathieu?” I interrogated  

“I just asked him simple questions trying to get to know him better so I could determine whether or not he is good for you.” Joey stated  

       “You have no right to make those decisions for me. I know Mathieu very well and I am not going to let you ruin my relationship with him. I don’t appreciate you saying things that would piss him off and make him feel like crap. He is going to come on this trip with us and you are going to apologize to him. If I hear that you are treating any of my friends that I introduce to you guys again I will end our friendship. You are my brother but you don’t need to act like a jerk to people.” I yelled  

“Well sorry for looking out for you! I guess that how I handle situations is wrong. I was just yelled at by Katie and Jamie about how I treated your friend and now I am being yelled at by you.” Joey exclaimed  

“Joey I don’t mind you looking out for me but you can’t go around treating people like that. Jamie is looking out for me to but he is silently watching until he thinks I need help and that is how I want you to look out for me. Joey you were my friend from the beginning and I don’t want that to change but please don’t act like a jerk to my friends.” I stated  

“I am sorry bro I truly am and I will apologize to your friend. I really want you to be happy and if he makes you happy then I will watch from the sides and if you need help I will help you.” Joey said  

“Thanks Joey!” I said “I think I finally got through to Joey and hopefully he lets me be happy with Mathieu! 

I thought as I left the restaurant to go to find Mathieu. I found him at the bakery working his second job so I went in to see if I could talk to him. “Hey Mathieu, are you busy now?” I asked. 

“I talked to Joey and I wanted to tell you what we discussed.” I informed 

“Tony follow me and we will do a consultation do you want your favorite deserts?” Mathieu asked  

“Yes please!” I said as I followed Mathieu and he had me designed a cake as we ate our deserts and talked about what Joey and I discussed         

       “I talked to Joey and I made him realize that he can’t go around treating people like he did. I told him; that if he wants to keep me in his life then he needs to back off and stop suffocating me. I told him that I really like you and I want to keep you in my life but you don’t want to get in his way of our friendship. I told Joey that I am tired of you scaring off my friends and that if you want to look out for me then to do it from the sides like Jamie does. I want you to come with us to the Caribbean and Joey promised me that he will no longer treat you like he did today and he is going to apologize to you.” I stated  

“Tony Thank you for talking to him for me. I don’t know what I did that deserved that treatment. He gave me a very bad first impression and I could tell that your cousin was not happy how he was acting. In fact I don’t think anyone at the table was happy at how he was acting.” Mentioned Mathieu  

“Well anyways I really want you to come and I hope you and Joey will become friends. I really like you Mathieu and I meant it when I said that I haven’t felt this way about anyone like I do you since I was with Jamie.  I really love you Mathieu and I don’t think that will ever change.” I cried  

We all made it to the Caribbean, which turned out, that we were in the Bahamas. Jamie and Jessica got their own suite same with Joey and Katie, and J-Lee and Cheng. Mathieu and I were in the family suite with my parents. Things were going good and Joey tried telling everyone what to do.  

“Guys I have the entire trip planned out for us. Today we are going to the northern islands and Pirates cove…” Joey was interrupted  

“Joey we were planning on going shopping tomorrow.” Katie said  

“We were going cave diving and exploring around the caves.” Jamie added  

“I wanted some time with Mathieu and swimming with dolphins.” I informed  

“What the hell that throws out everything I had planned.” Joey threw his arms in the air  

“What’s wrong Joey?” I asked  

“I had everything planned for the best vacation and everyone wants to do their own thing.” Joey complained 

“The best things about vacation is just doing things unexpectedly and not have it planned because plans change all the time.” Mathieu stated         

       We all went to the northern Islands where I took great pictures and we all had fun. The next day comes around and Cheng decided to go with Katie and Jessica because he wanted to do some shopping while Jamie, J-Lee, Joey, Mathieu and I went to the caves to explore during the morning. We all had fun and Joey was starting to get along with my boyfriend. Meanwhile Cheng and the girls are out shopping and they are talking about Katie’s anniversary dinner.  

“Hey Katie do you know what you are doing for your anniversary?” Jess asked         

       Jessica is a fun loving easygoing person who will always be there for her friends. She is stubborn but very carefree and easy going. She is married to Jamie and has 2 kids with him. She likes the idea that her husband is in love with me and she secretly wishes I was Bisexual so she could date me too. She is 5’7” with medium brown hair and brown eyes.  

“Joey has something planned but he is not really letting me know. Oh this dress would be perfect for that day. I like the colors of it!” Katie explained  

“Try it on I want to see what it looks like on you!” Jess mentioned  

“This fits well I love this dress and I love the colors of it. It is a nice purple and I want to get matching colors for Joey!” Katie said  

“I think Mathieu is Joey’s size maybe tomorrow we could ask him for his help and we will use him to help pick out Joey’s tuxedo though.” Suggested Jessica  

“So Jess what is it about my cousin that you don’t mind your husband to make out with Tony?” Katie wondered  

“I don’t know he is a great guy and I have told Jamie that he could make out with Tony whenever he wants and I also stated that I would like to make out with him as well. I know why Jamie loves him and I think I want to be with Tony as well but I know Tony would never go for it. He is a great guy and I don’t want to take advantage of it.” Jess admitted  

The girls wrapped up their shopping then decided to go find the guys. Katie was able to get the dress she wanted and the suit to match the dress for Joey. The guys were having fun playing with the dolphins and Joey asked me a question!  

“Hey Tony I know we are here for your birthday but I am planning on proposing to Katie on our anniversary and I was wondering if you could help me set it up so it would be perfect?” Joey asked slightly embarrassed         

       “I didn’t think you would settle down but I take it Katie is that special someone you want to spend the rest of your life with. Yes I would help you make it special for Katie. I will have Jessica and my mom take Katie out to the spa so she could have a massage, then get her nails and hair done while J-Lee, Cheng and Mathieu take you out to keep you occupied. I am going to have my dad help me set up our suite for you while Jamie will set up the second part of the day for you and Katie. Breakfast in bed will be delivered at 8am with a vase of Katie’s favorite flowers. You will have a picnic for lunch on this island, which you will take her on a rowboat. 

         Now for dinner I am going to have my mom make Katie’s favorite Meal for the occasion and J-Lee and Cheng are going to make her favorite dessert. My dad, Mathieu, and Jessica will be providing the music to set the mood while Jamie and I will be your Waiters. Dinner will be at 7pm sharp and do you want the ring in the dessert?” I wondered “Yeah that sounds great I am glad you are able to help me out with this I have never been so nervous in all my life usually I am confident in everything I do but I never thought I would be proposing to the most amazing girl in my life.” Joey blushed “Well here comes the girls and it looks like they had fun shopping.” I stated  

While we were swimming and playing around on a nearby island Paco was talking to an old acquaintance of my parents.  

“Oh Mr. Antonio I wish you didn’t have to go through what my employer has in store for you. I am only doing this to make sure you don’t get hurt too much.” Paco though with a painful cry.  

“Ah Mr. Nunez there you are did you locate the target we are after? I want to make his dad pay for what he did to me.” Mr. Duchamp spat  

“Yes Sir he is over there with his friends swimming with the dolphins.” Paco stated dryly  

“Don’t worry Mr. Nunez after the 29^th we will be rid of that little faggot for good. I will get my revenge against his parents and you won’t have to worry about him again.” Sneered Mr. Duchamp       

       Paco was being ripped apart inside because he didn’t want anything to happen to me. He loved me more than he would care to admit but he also didn’t want his employer to know that he didn’t want to hurt me. The 27^th of August came around and the guys took me out for my birthday and I told them I don’t want to get drunk. After we celebrated my birthday I told Joey to take Katie out for a walk so I could go over the plans for tomorrow.  

“Jessica and mom will take Katie out to the spa then to get her nails and hair done. J-Lee, Cheng and Mathieu will keep Joey occupied while Jamie and my dad sets up the picnic on the island where we swam with dolphins. I will be setting up my family’s suite for dinner. Joey wants this to be perfect.” I informed         

       After breakfast we all got together to start the day for Joey and Katie’s anniversary. Joey was wearing a light purple polo shirt with a white tank top underneath, He had light blue jean shorts and white and purple Nike Air Force 1 High. Now Katie had a lavender sundress on with white flip-flops on and a sun hat on. After the afternoon both of them went to the hotel room to get dressed for the evening. Now Joey was wearing the suit that Katie bought him and she wore the dress that she picked out. The evening went off without any problems. Jamie and I then brought out the desserts and when Katie opened her tray she saw the ring on top of the cake and started crying. 

       Joey got on one knee and then grabbed the ring and proposed and of course she said yes. Then my dad started to play their song, which Joey asked if she wanted to dance. It was midnight when everyone left the suite so we could go to bed. I received a call that someone was waiting for me at the front desk so I told Mathieu to go to bed and I will be back. I didn’t want him to wait up for me because I knew he was exhausted and I didn’t know whom it was or how long I was going to be. As I went down to the front desk no one was there so I made my way over by the seating area when I noticed something strange over by the dining area. I walked over when someone grabbed me from behind and shoved a cloth with a weird smell to it and that was the last thing I remembered. 

Chapter 11: Kidnapped and Tortured

       As I woke I found that I could not see nor could I move, I struggled trying to get free when I heard 2 people coming towards me. I tried not to move because I didn’t know what was happening and I didn’t want them to know I was afraid. One of them pulled my head back and spoke in a language I didn’t understand. The other laughed and said I don’t see why this kid is so special but I guess that the boss wants him alive so he could have fun with him. I want to have my fun with the boy though just like all the others I have been hired to kidnap. I inwardly shivered but I didn’t want to show them any fear.

“What the hell is going on? Why can’t I see and why can’t I move? I thought testing the ropes that bound me. 

       “Man this kid is something just another spoiled rich kid but if I had my way I would string him up by his ankles, rape him then cut him to pieces and then feed him to the fish. I would also steal those Nikes he has on his feet they are hot.” The guy in front of me said laughing like a maniac. He reeked of lots of whiskey and tobacco which when he breathed on me I gagged because it was so nasty. 

“What is going to happen to me? I thought 

“I think I will have a little fun with him! Do you want to join me brother? The drunk man said 

         I then heard a grunt, which I took as a yes! I knew I would have to not show my fear but it was very hard for me to do so since I didn’t know where I was or what was happening. Next thing I know someone grabs my head and yanks it backwards and something cold and slimy was on my face. 

“Suck my cock!” The drunk man slurred 

“Go to Hell you piece of Shit!” I said defiantly 

"Wrong Answer! Suck my cock and I might let you live!" Said the drunk man cocky 

“I would rather die than have that poor excuse for a cock in my mouth.” I spat! “Oh please let me survive this so I could see my family again.” I silently pleaded 

“This Boy Not opening up! Force his mouth open!” The drunken bastard slurred and swayed! 

       The other man forced my mouth open and stuck his finger in my mouth and I bit down hard on his finger making him remove his finger fast. I had the taste of his blood in my mouth but I would not let them force me to suck them. I then received a hard blow to the side of my face. It was from the guy behind me and he grabbed my head again and pried my jaw open being careful not to stick his fingers in my mouth. The other guy shoved his cock in my mouth, which made me start to gag. Suddenly he removed it after thrusting several times and zipped up fast. 

“Thank god that is over!” I thought as I finished throwing up and still coughing from having a large fat foreign object shoved down my throat. Then something was shoved in my mouth and I felt it being held in place with tape. 

Then I heard more footsteps coming and I began to fear that this person was the boss. 

“Please let it be someone here to rescue me!” I prayed when I heard that bastard speak. 

       “Sir my brother and I captured the kid you gave us the picture of and too bad I couldn’t have fun with him. He is bound and blind like you requested and if it is too much trouble we would like our payment so we could get out of here. This cave gives me the creeps and I am starting to get nauseous.” The drunk guy stated 

       “Of course I don’t want to keep you or your brother, here is your payment and your services are no longer needed.” A man with a very deep husky voice laughed as something exploded 2 times which made me even more afraid. The man behind me slumped over on me and I felt something warm and sticky cover me. The other man fell in my lap and I started to scream but it was muffled the gag in my mouth. 

“Help Me! I don’t want to die, please will someone save me!” I inwardly cried when the new voice yelled. 

       “Get in here and dispose of the bodies that are draped over our special guest. I have big plans for him and I don’t want these 2 to get in the way of what I want to do.” The 3rd man ordered as I felt the weight of the guy slumped over me been lifted up off me. Then about 5 minutes later the other guy was removed from my lap but I didn’t know what would happen to me. My blindfold was removed and then the tape that held a cloth in my mouth was ripped off my face, which made me scream in pain. 

“What do you want from me? I don’t know who you are but I have not done anything to you.” I quivered 

       “Are you afraid Anthony Johnston? You should be I want to make your old man suffer for what he did to me 24 years ago. It is disgusting as to how much you look like him if you looked like your mother then I might have found a different way to make your father pay. I am Mr. Duchamp but my name is not important. I have someone here that you know and he is going to help me take care of you.” Mr. Duchamp hissed 

“I don’t know how you know my dad but you are not going to get away with this, my dad will not tolerate it if anything happens to me and neither would my friends.” I spat. “I cannot show how afraid I really am even though my bladder betrayed me. Damn why did I have to piss myself?” I thought 

“Oh that’s what you think! Mr. Nunez get in here I have to make a phone call and I don’t get reception in this cave so I am going to go ashore for about an hour so I could make sure they realize that their precious son is missing.” Mr. Duchamp barked as my blood ran cold when I saw the man who raped me a year ago. Mr. Duchamp left the cave and I saw Paco begging for me to forgive him. 

“Great not only am I going to die! Someone I never wanted to see again is standing right in front of me. I don’t know if I am more scared that Paco is here while I am bound and helpless or that this other sadistic creep is going to kill me for no reason just to make my parents pay for something.” I feared and I began letting it show! 

       “I am sorry that you are here. He heard what happened last year and he had me come to work with him as a gardener. He wanted me to tell him what happened and he formed a plan to make sure he was able to get what he wanted. I didn’t know what he wanted so I continued to work as a gardener for him minding my own business. I am sorry I raped you and I know that I should have told you how I truly feel about you and not took advantage of you last year. He was in the restaurant when he heard your dad say you were going to be in the Bahamas for your birthday. He told me to pack up because we are going to the Bahamas because he has a job to take care of. When I found out what he had planned I didn’t want any part of it and I tried to leave and he blackmailed me saying he was going to make me watch as he murders my family before hacking me to pieces. I didn’t want anything to happen to my family because they didn’t deserve to die on account of me. They are good people and I didn’t want to hurt them anymore. 

       I will do my best to protect you but I cannot let him know that I am doing so or he will kill us both and then our families and friends. I am sorry Mr. Antonio this is my entire fault and if we get out of this mess I will leave you alone. I meant what I said when I said that I love you and I will always love you and I don’t want anything to happen to you. I called the cops and told them of Mr. Duchamp’s plans but I don’t know when they are going to stop him. I am afraid that we will end up like those creeps I had to dispose of and I will never get to see my family again. I am so sorry Mr. Antonio and if we make it out of this mess I will never bother you again.” Paco cried 

       “I can’t tell if Paco is genuine about his apology or not but I know that him crying and me showing fear is not going to help either one of us out. I have to get my emotions under control and calm Paco down so we could figure out what to do!” I thought, “Paco calm down we need to come up with a plan of action and right now we can’t show fear or he will win. We need to stay calm or we both will end up dead. Can you let me go and we both could get out of this cave?” I asked 

“I am sorry Mr. Antonio he has set up traps and will know if we leave this cave. He made sure I would cooperate because he strapped a bomb to me and if he feels like I betrayed him he will blow us both up.” Paco shivered 

“It figures he would set up traps to ensure I stay put or die in a horrible death!” I shivered “Let me see the bomb!” I said 

       I saw the device locked around his neck and I knew that we couldn’t upset Mr. Duchamp or he could blow us up and no one would ever find our bodies. Meanwhile up in my suite Mathieu woke up to find that I am not in bed and thought that I went to the bathroom. When he found that I was not in the bathroom he began looking around when the phone rang. 

“Hello!” Mathieu answered 

“Good morning I have an urgent phone call for Mr. Johnston, is he there?” The receptionist asked 

“Yes he is; May I ask what this is about?” Mathieu questioned 

“The caller says it’s urgent and will not say what it is about.” The receptionist replied 

Mathieu got my dad and told him that he had a phone call before he continued his search for me. 

“Hey Mathieu how are you? We are heading down to get some breakfast do you want to join us?” Jamie asked 

“Have you guys seen Tony? He wasn’t in bed when I woke up and that’s not like him I am kind of worried!” Mathieu wondered 

“No we haven’t maybe he is downstairs getting breakfast and didn’t want to wake you since he figured you were exhausted.” Jessica stated 

“Maybe but let me get dressed and we could go check to see if he is down there!” Mathieu replied 

When Mathieu, Jessica and Jamie entered the Suite they saw that my dad was upset. 

“Anthony it has been a long time! I have not forgotten what you did to me and now it’s time for you to suffer.” Mr. Duchamp taunted 

“What do you want Nathan?” My dad spat 

“Is that anyway to talk to an old friend I guess you don’t care what happens to your boy!” Mr. Duchamp slyly stated which made my dad go pale. 

“If you hurt my boy…” my dad was cut off 

“If you want him alive then I suggest you do what I say or you will never see your son again.” Mr. Duchamp warned 

“Fine what is it that you want me to do?” My dad answered defeated 

       “That’s better I will call you with the instructions soon but I want you to pick up the package that will be waiting at the desk. It is a disposable phone and I am the only one who has the number and you will not be able to contact me. Keep the phone on you at all times and I suggest that you don’t inform the police or I will make sure your son is never found again.” Mr. Duchamp threatened 

“Please don’t hurt my son!” My dad begged 

“Well his life depends on you so I suggest that you follow my instructions if you want to see him alive.” Warned Mr. Duchamp as he hung up the phone. 

       My dad dropped the phone and just collapsed and began crying which Jamie rushed to his side to support him. My mom came out of the room and saw my dad on the floor and wondered what was going on. Jessica called Katie and told her to grab the boys and meet her outside of my family’s suite. She lipped to Jamie to stay with my parents as she went out to meet the others. Mathieu was about to go with her but she told him to stay as well. 

“Jess what’s going on?” Joey groggily asked 

“Someone kidnapped Tony and is using him against his dad. Mr. Johnston is on the floor crying in Jamie’s arms as Mathieu is filling in Mrs. Johnston.” Informed Jessica 

“What do you mean Tony was Kidnapped?” J-Lee spat 

       “Mathieu woke up this morning to find Tony not in bed and I told him that he was probably down eating breakfast and didn’t want to wake him. So we went back in to the suite so he could get dressed and make our way back down to the restaurant to see if he was there. When we went in we saw Tony’s dad on the phone not happy with whom he was speaking to. We found out that this creep has Tony and we can’t involve the police or he will kill him.” Jessica explained 

“What are we going to do we can’t let this creep kill Tony!” Katie snapped 

       “We need a plan but we can’t do anything until Tony’s dad gets the second phone call. I am having Mathieu stay with them while I go get the disposable phone for Mr. Johnston. Wait inside or get something to eat but we are not going anywhere until we get more information.” Jamie informed 

They all went inside while Jamie went to get the package for my dad. 

“Excuse me I am here to pick up a package for Mr. Johnston, he called saying he was going to send someone down to get it.” Jamie stated 

“Yes here are the packages for Mr. Johnston, I just need you to sign here stating you received them.” The receptionist replied 

Jamie signed for the packages and brought them up to the suite, which one said do not open until you get the phone call. Meanwhile back in the cave Mr. Duchamp returned bringing food for Paco and himself. 

       “Go get the boy something to eat I don’t want him passed out before the fun begins but I will give them a few hours before I start torturing you boy. Now if your mother didn’t choose your father then none of this would have happened. Your father and I were best friends but your mother yes she was with him but at this party I took her virginity and she was the most beautiful girl in our school. Turns out she found out she was pregnant at the age of 16 and I knew it was my baby. Yes I did rape her but she didn’t have to avoid me but it turns out she had a miscarriage because when I confronted her I accidentally pushed her down the stairs. I was mad that she was avoiding me but then your father heard about what I did to your mother and he beat the shit out of me. 

       Then I was arrested for rape and assault and I was pissed if your father never interfered then we wouldn’t be here right now. This was before your father shipped to the Marine Corps. He graduated as valedictorian and then shipped out a week later and married your mother right after boot camp. Trust me if your father didn’t interfere or if I didn’t go to prison I would have had your mother even if your father got her pregnant I would have married her and I would be your father. I am going to enjoy making your father miserable. It’s nothing against you but you are the one thing that your father holds deer to his heart. I would never hurt your mother since she is the second thing he holds deer to his heart. Yes I am going to make your mother suffer but that is the hazard of revenge. Paco here is going to suffer as well because I know he is attached to you and he loves you. Like your mother to me you don’t love him and for that you are going to pay for your parent’s crime.” Mr. Duchamp informed 

“You are a liar I am my mother’s only child and she was never pregnant before me.” I cried knowing that’s how he wanted me to react. “Why is he telling me these lies? My parents would have told me that there was a child before me! I just want to go home!” I cried as my head was spinning. 

       “I knew you would react like that! Do you think remaining calm is going to work with me? I saw how you reacted when Mr. Nunez came into your view, I also know that you would never accept that I raped your mother and when she denied me I got angry with her. Similar to how Paco reacted last year and here is something you didn’t know I was at the restaurant seeing you get drunk and wasted. I also told Paco that it was your birthday knowing that he couldn’t resist you. I staged the whole thing and it turned out better than I planned. I didn’t think Paco would play right into my trap since I knew he didn’t want to hurt you but I was the one who shoved you into his trash cans to get his attention. I enjoyed the whole thing and how do you think Paco got off when your friends tried getting him to confess. I knew that the tape of the confession would hold up in court and so did the warrant but I also knew that your friends would blow things out of proportions if they found out that Paco was released. I wasn’t the Lawyer but I had a friend owe me a big favor. I was also the one who leaked your name to the press which it made things worse for you. 

       It is so easy to manipulate people into doing what I want to do. I was able to get a doctor friend of mine state that you needed to be locked away in a mental institute because you were unstable which went against your doctor and Dr. Christianson’s recommendations. Everything worked so perfectly until Dr. Christianson was assigned to your case. If he wasn’t assigned to your case then you would still be locked away with no visitors, no human contact, just your daily meals and then leaving you strapped down being tortured with electricity.” Mr. Duchamp smiled wickedly which made me go pale. 

“I am just his pawn in his sick twisted game! He don’t care who he hurts as long as he gets what he wants. I need to outsmart him and survive so I could see my family. How am I going to outsmart him when I am afraid and pissed?” I wondered as all these thoughts kept swimming in my head making it hard for me to process anything 

Little did I know Paco heard the entire conversation and he felt even more ashamed for playing into his trap! 

“You did all this! You were the one who made last year a living hell! Why? I did nothing to you and I have never even met you before.” I spat as tears of rage started to come out of me. 

       “Oh like I said its nothing against you but you are just a pawn to make your parents miserable. They know if you are miserable then they are miserable and if you are suffering then they are suffering. It was so perfect when you tried ending your life because your parents’ world crashed around them and they knew that if you died then they would have nothing to live for. You are their world boy and they do everything for you.” Added Mr. Duchamp 

       "So I am just collateral damage to you, the key to destroying my parents! You are sick fuck!” I yelled as I tried getting out of my binds. It was no good because the 2 that were killed knew how to bind someone so they couldn’t get out. Mr. Duchamp grabbed my head as I tried to not let him touch me and he kissed me before pulling out a knife. “He is going to cut me into pieces and I am never going to see my family ever again. Oh God please help me!” I cried silently showing a lot of fear. 

       “I now know why everyone thinks you are amazing. My niece Shannon wanted you but then again she is a slut but when you denied her she started acting like a spoiled little princess. You were one guy who never gave into what she wanted granted your friend Joey did plenty to her even though he never loved her. Tell you the truth she slept around with almost every guy while she was being fucked by your friend Joey.” Mr. Duchamp said amused 

       “You are a sick fuck! Now I know where Shannon got her manipulative ways from and I tell you it is not at all attractive. You think everything is yours to have and when things don’t go your way you manipulate things and people to get your way. You don’t work hard and earn your stuff you force people to do your dirty work and then when you don’t need them anymore you dispose of them.” I spat. “He made it so hard for me to control myself and I know I am making things worse and I was giving him everything he wanted. I just want to go home and not in pieces!” I thought crying with rage, fear and I pissed myself again. 

“You know kid you are very smart I might still have some use for you and prolong your suffering and your parents suffering.” Smiled Mr. Duchamp 

“Go to hell!” I sneered as he slapped me across the face making my eyes swell with even more tears of rage. 

“Ready to say hi to mommy and daddy?” Mr. Duchamp said in a mocking tone as he dialed a number. 

“Hello!” My dad cried 

“Oh no please don’t hurt my parents!” I begged silently knowing it is no good. 

“Ah Anthony I see you are more cooperative than you were last time. It is time to open the package I sent you.” Mr. Duchamp stated 

“Oh my I am going to be sick!” I heard my mother say! 

“That is what’s left of the 2 guys I hired to kidnap your son and that is what’s going to happen to your son if you don’t follow my instructions.” Mr. Duchamp warned 

“I am so scared and this creep keeps making things worse for me!” I shivered 

“Please let me talk to my son!” My dad pleaded 

“In a minute old friend first you have to follow my demands.” Mr. Duchamp informed 

“Listen you scumbag give us back our son or when I find you I will kill you!” My mom threatened 

“Danielle I always loved your temper it made you even sexier than what you are. You are making me horny talking to me like that.” Mr. Duchamp slyly said 

“Go fuck yourself Nathan!” My mom retorted 

“Well for that comment I am going to make you eat your words.” Mr. Duchamp sneered as he grabbed my left hand and began cutting off one of my fingers making me cry out in pain. 

“This creep is going to fucking cut me into pieces while making my parents squirm. I wish I could get out of these knots and beat the living daylights out of him for hurting my parents. I cried full of pain and mixed emotions. 

“Please don’t hurt my son.” My mom whispered knowing she has to control herself for my sake. 

       “That’s better Danielle! Now here is my demands I want 10 million dollars delivered next to the payphone 3 blocks from your hotel. There is going to be a small black trash can and you are to place the money in the black duffel bag then place it in the trash can. You have a day to get the money together and if you don’t then for every hour you are late I will cut off a piece of a body part from your son and if I don’t receive the money before the tide comes in then you will never see your son again. If you call the cops then your son will never be seen dead or alive again. This is all your choice. If you want to see your son alive then you better do as I say. One more thing my last demand Danielle is for you to leave your husband and join me. You take your son’s place. He lives and you are mine!” Mr. Duchamp demanded 

“You are a sick fuck!” I spat 

When I said that Mr. Duchamp started beating the crap out of me, and he shot me in my leg, which hurt like nothing I ever felt in my life. He then shot me in my other leg and stabbed me in my shoulder. 

“You don’t get it boy I hold all the cards and I always get what I want. If you say anything more I will add more suffering to you.” Sneered Mr. Duchamp 

“I am in fucking immense pain and yet I am still letting my rage get the best of me. I need to stop provoking him and calm down or I could end up dead.” I thought to myself as I took deep breaths and bit my tongue. 

       “You see boy it is best as you do as I say and not piss me off because as people say I am a loose cannon waiting to explode. I actually enjoy making others suffer though. I don’t know why but I guess I have always enjoyed others misery except your mother’s.” Mr. Duchamp smiled wickedly as he grabbed my face and kissed me again. “I don’t know why but you remind me so much of your mother even though you look like him.” Said Mr. Duchamp as he kissed me again. 

“I want to throw up every time he kisses me and I also want to rip his head off for doing what he is doing to me. I think I am going into shock from the pain but I have to fight it and figure out something.” I thought zoning out

Chapter 12: My Escape 

       The past few hours were miserable and I have never been so scared, pissed off and annoyed than I have today. I have found out that Mr. Duchamp orchestrated most of my misery and he is enjoying every bit of it. Despite what Paco did to me I am glad I am not alone with this creep and I feel sorry for him because he is being used as a bomb. Paco does not deserve that and it is hard because he is just a pawn in this mess. 

“Mr. Nunez I am going to go out to town don’t do anything stupid or I will blow this cave up.” Mr. Duchamp warned 

After Mr. Duchamp left Paco began to cry. I knew I would have to keep Paco calm if we wanted to get out of this alive. 

“Mr. Antonio I don’t deserve to live I am sorry I am going to let you go and I will just die so you could live.” Paco cried 

       “Paco I am not going to let you kill yourself so I could live. We are going to get out of this and I have a plan but I need your help. I know the tide will start coming in and this cave will be underwater so I want you to leave me the knife but make it so I could use it when you escape with Mr. Duchamp. I have been taking chemistry and I think I could defuse the bomb but I need you to let me look at it.” I informed. “I am unsure if I could stop this bomb I have never defused a bomb before and not to mention I don’t know what will happen when Mr. Duchamp comes back.” I wondered trying to control my emotions. 

       Paco got to the level where I could get a better look at the bomb and I saw 3 wires and I also found a backup detonator, which I knew I could defuse. I was able to guide Paco to defuse the backup portion of it and then I had him hold all three wires in his hand then I knew that the blue wire was the wire we needed to cut. I had him let go of the red wire and black wire, which I told him that the wire in his hand was the wire we needed to cut. Paco was relieved that the bomb was defused and he dropped the knife a few feet away from me. Meanwhile back by the beach Jamie and Jessica are looking for me when they run into Mr. Duchamp. 

“Mr. Duchamp is that you? It is me Jamie, I work for the D.A. as an assistant you had your friend Mr. Mitchells help you out with something. Mr. Mitchells is my boss.” Jamie stated 

“Oh Mr. Del Cino is it! Aaron has said good things about you. Who is this lovely girl and what are you doing down here?” Mr. Duchamp asked not really caring 

“This is my wife Jessica and we are here celebrating a friend’s birthday! What are you doing here?” Jamie asked hiding his suspicions. 

“I am here on business and I am running late and I really must go. It was nice seeing you again Joshua.” Mr. Duchamp said as he left heading south east 

“It’s Jamie!” Replied Jamie under his breath. 

“He gives me the creeps Jamie! Here comes the others let’s see if they had better luck.” Jessica suggested 

“Jamie did you guys find any clues as to where my son is?” My dad asked 

“No but we ran into this creepy guy that Jamie’s boss knows. I think Jamie called him Mr. Duchamp!” Jessica shuttered saying his name 

“Did you say Mr. Duchamp? He is the one who has Tony! Do you know where he headed?” My dad panicked 

“He headed South East about 3 minutes ago.” Jamie informed. “He came off this dock heading to those Islands to the north of us!” 

“Do you think Tony is in those Islands over there? The natives said that those Islands have a miles and miles of underwater caves. They also said that they are haunted for they are an ancient burial grounds and they no longer go there.” Jessica explained 

“We are going to need Scuba gear before we could explore those islands and we are going to need a flashlight too.” Mathieu mentioned 

       “Well I am going to rent some scuba gear and head to those islands and see if I could find my Tony bear. Mr. Johnston I want you to go to the hotel and wait in the room. Mathieu you are going to come with me because I am going to need help. Jess I want you to go tell the others and then go get the cops. Take this 2 way radio and have it on channel 11 I am going to keep you updated if we find anything.” Jamie stated. “We are going to have to hurry because the tide will start coming in soon.” 

“Be careful and please come back in one piece.” Jessica said giving her husband a kiss 

“Yes be careful and please find my son.” My dad requested 

Jamie and Mathieu rented Scuba gear and a boat so they could go find me while my dad received another phone call, 

“If those friends of your son get any crazy ideas I will make sure that your son will be in a million pieces.” Mr. Duchamp warned 

“I dropped off the money like you wanted please give me my son.” My dad begged 

“Well I will see Anthony! I am not done making you miserable and I think I will keep torturing you even more now let me talk to that lovely wife of yours I want to see if she will do anything to save her precious son.” Mr. Duchamp demanded 

“She is not near me right now, she is out looking for our son!” My dad informed 

“I will find her then I have some business to take care of with her.” Mr. Duchamp smirked 

“If you do anything to my wife I will hunt you…” my dad was cut off 

“Haven’t you learned by now Anthony I am in charge and any threats towards me your son will suffer your consequences?” Mr. Duchamp warned 

My dad bit his tongue knowing he had no choice to not threaten him or I would not make it out alive. 

“Fine you win I won’t make threats.” My dad gave in 

My dad was exhausted and beaten and Mr. Duchamp knew this but liked seeing my dad like this. Mr. Duchamp hung up the phone and my dad sat on the bench and began crying again. 

“What did I do to deserve this? This monster is torturing my son and now he is after my wife. He is going to make sure I have nothing to live for and without my family I am nothing. I just wish he would just leave us alone.” My dad gave a frustrated sigh 

“Don’t worry J-Lee and Cheng won’t let anything happen to your wife and Jamie and Mathieu are going to find Tony. Let’s meet up with the others and tell them what we discovered.” Suggested Jessica 

       They met up with Joey and Katie and told them to gather the police and have them on standby as they called J-Lee to watch out for a man with red hair and ice blue eyes because he is going to try taking my mom. J-Lee and Cheng brought my mom into a crowded place so she could be protected, they didn’t want to take any chances with my mom’s safety. Meanwhile Mr. Duchamp returned to the cave with the duffel bag. 

“Mr. Nunez we are going now. I got the money and it is time to go. As for you boy, enjoy your last hour alive.” Mr. Duchamp ordered. “Oh boy it is a shame that you can’t come with me I guess I could have a piece of your mother by making you my slave or I could sell you off as a slave.” He said kissing me again 

“Please let me say goodbye to my family! I am in so much pain and I want to say goodbye to them.” I begged 

“I guess I could let you say goodbye to them because that would completely destroy your dad as he knows you are never returning alive.” Mr. Duchamp smiled giving me a kiss before dialing my dad. 

“Hello!” My dad said with no hope and completely broken. 

“Anthony your son wanted to tell you something.” Mr. Duchamp Gloated 

“Anthony is that you?” My dad cried 

“Dad I love you and I love mom. None of this is your fault. Goodbye Dad I love you and tell everyone else I love them too.” I stated in a lot of pain 

“Anthony please don’t die and please come home to me!” My dad begged and that is the last thing I heard him say. 

“There boy you said your goodbye! Like I said if your dad didn’t do that to me all those years ago and your mother chose me none of this would have ever happened? This is where we leave you since the caves will flood soon. Come on Paco we have to leave now!” Ordered Mr. Duchamp 

“No I am not going with you. I am sick of being your puppet and I am not going to leave Mr. Antonio alone to die in this cave.” Paco snapped 

“Fine then have it your way!” Mr. Duchamp grabbed the Knife and then lunged it into Paco’s chest. 

       Paco collapsed and Mr. Duchamp left the cave with the money. Paco then broke my bonds with the bloody knife but he was becoming too weak to move after that. I fell out of the chair and was able to apply some pressure to Paco’s wound but I was too weak myself. I didn’t want to die so I tried supporting Paco but being shot beaten and stabbed I couldn’t support both of us. The water started coming in the caves and I heard 2 voices shouting my name. I recognized them and I shouted to them telling them where we were. Jamie and Mathieu ran up to me and stopped when they saw I was trying to someone who was wounded. They also saw I was severely wounded as well and they rushed to help me. 

“Jamie! Mathieu is that you? I need your help, Paco was stabbed and he will die if we don’t get him medical attention soon.” I cried 

“Anthony you have been shot as well and stabbed plus you look like you were mauled by a bear.” Mathieu said as he ran to my side as my legs gave out. 

“We need to help Paco!” I stated weakly 

“Are you crazy, he raped you last year and now you want to help him?” Jamie stated 

“Jamie he doesn’t deserve to die in this cave and his family never know what happened to him. Beside he protected me by standing up to Mr. Duchamp. He was being held against his will for Mr. Duchamp had a bomb strapped to his neck.” I explained with heavy breaths. 

“Tony you make it hard to argue with you and it makes me love you even more.” Jamie stated 

“We don’t have time to stand around and chat if the 4 of us are getting out of this cave alive we need to move now.” Mathieu pointed out “Plus we need to get these 2 some medical attention fast.” 

       We made it out of the cave and Jessica was able to have a medical ship where we were at within 10 minutes. I learned that Mr. Duchamp didn’t make it very far before the police caught him and he tried to fire at them and was killed instantly. The police returned the money to my dad as the medical personnel checked me over as another crew was working hard to save Paco from dying. We were both flown to Florida and my dad came with us to make sure everything was alright. I didn’t know if I would survive but I was glad to be out of that cave. I was really concerned if Paco would survive though because I didn’t want him to die. I explained to them that he made sure I was alright and he tried protecting me from the creep who did this to us.  

       The Doctors said that they are doing everything they could to make sure he will live and they released me a couple of weeks later. I suffered from a concussion, a deep stab that was infected in my right shoulder, 2 infected bullet holes right in my knees and Hypothermia. They were able to fix me up and they said I will be fine with a lot of rest and they sent me home. A few weeks go by and I receive a phone call from Miami Memorial Hospital telling me the Paco was able to pull through. I was happy that Paco pulled through, no one deserved to suffer the way Paco did. Things started going back to normal and Mathieu and I were planning a semester away in Germany when my mom and dad decided to sit down and talk to me. 

       “Anthony first off I am proud of how you handled the situation with Mr. Duchamp and we never have to worry about that creep again. Yes it is true he raped me when I was 16 years old while your father was studying in Italy for a year. I wrote your father often and I told him what had happened to me and that I was pregnant because I was raped. I was going to keep the child because I didn’t want her to suffer for what happened to me but I was pushed down the stairs at school by that asshole. I was in the hospital a week because of that and I lost the baby. Your dad was home from Italy and he found out what happened and he was not too happy about the fact that I was in the hospital and that I was raped and lost the child I was carrying.” My mom said ashamed 

       “When I got home I found out that he was boasting to his friends that he had sex with the hottest girl in our school. My blood was boiling and he didn’t care that your mom was in the hospital or that she lost their child or anything. He showed no remorse and on top of that the school didn’t do anything to him. I was furious and I confronted him saying do you know Danielle was in the hospital and she lost the baby she was carrying. He said so what’s it to you if she wasn’t such a slut then she wouldn’t be in the hospital. When he said that my blood was boiling but I fought to control myself until he said something else then swung at me. I avoided his punch and I beat the crap out of him saying she was carrying his child and she was a virgin until you raped her. I never felt so angry than I did that day your mom was in the hospital and he didn’t even care about her safety or concern. It took 3 guys to get me off Nathan and then I called the cops telling them what Nathan did.” My dad added 

       “I was 16 years old when I lost my first child and my parents were not happy that I was pregnant at the age of 15 but they didn’t blame me. They pressed charges against Nathan for rape, assault, abuse and attempted murder. They wondered why anyone would do that to me and they knew that I would have kept the baby if I didn’t lose her a month before her due date. You would have had a sister named Ashley Nicole if she was born. The doctors did an emergency sea section to try saving her but she was unresponsive and when they finally got her to start breathing she didn’t survive though. I was bleeding from my scull and I was losing my life but they managed to save my life.” My mom cried 

       “I would have loved Ashley like she was my own and you would have had an older sister but we didn’t want you to know about your mom being raped because we didn’t want to make you think of your mom differently. What Nathan did to your mom is something that is inexcusable but we thought he was out of our lives until he kidnapped you and tried killing you. I never felt so helpless than I did that day. I thought I would never see you again and I would have lost everything a fate worse than death. He would have never killed me but he would have taken everything from me because he never took the responsibility for his actions. He blamed me for him raping Danielle and her losing her first child and he blamed me for sending him to prison and him losing Danielle to me.” Informed my dad 

“What you did for Paco shows that you value other people’s life than your own. You could have left him in the cave to die but you made the right decision to save him despite him raping you in the past. You handled yourself very well and we couldn’t be more proud of you son.” My mom cried pulling me into a hug. 

“That creep was telling the truth about raping my mom! I am glad he got what was coming to him. I am glad this nightmare is over with.” I cried inwardly 

       I didn’t know what to say I just found out that I had a sister that died before I was born and that it was from the man who tried killing me. I thought that he was lying when he told me he raped my mom and he was proud of doing it. I just don’t know what to do anymore and I just want to forget this like my mom wanted to forget what happened to her 24 years ago. I wonder now what it would be like if I had an older sister but I wouldn’t want to change the past 22 years of my life. 

       Later in the week I found out that the school board decided to pull the trip to Germany and that the few selected students would be reimbursed for the program. I found out that there was going to be an internship for 2 lucky students who has the top scores of the exams. I decided to sign up for the internship because I thought I could use the information to be able to help others in the future. I am not thrilled to be working with the teacher who has something against me. I guess things happen for a reason but I am not going to let Dr. Jackiewicz push me around. After the semester there is a bulletin stating that those selected for the interviews will be called with the time and dates of the interview. 

“Hey Anthony are you thinking of signing up for the interview?” Mathieu asked 

“Yes I want to but I don’t know about it since Dr. Jackiewicz is running it and you know how he treats me. I just don’t want to sign up and get passed over because he doesn’t like me! I worked so hard and I don’t want anyone ruining my hard work.” I informed 

I decided to walk off not even wanting to waste my time but little did I know that Mathieu signed me up for the interview. 

“What are your plans over the Christmas break?” Wondered Mathieu 

       “Well my dad is throwing a Christmas party at his hotel which I am going to help set up and then we are going to be buying toys for kids in need. We work with the Marine Corps on the Toys for Tots. Last year we raised over 6 million dollars for the Toys for Tots program and we plan on raising the same even though my family donates a million each year and Joey and his family does 500000 same with the twins.” I explained 

“Well I will donate a bike to the program I think it is a great thing that you donate to this program. Have you thought of being a Marine?” Inquired Mathieu 

       “I did join and I served 4 years in the corps from the age of 17 to the age of 21 and my dad retired as an officer in the Marine Corps. He got out as a Major on the first of August 2004. I got out before everything happened to me. I guess I am just like my dad I saw that he served and I wanted to follow him in the marines. I got out as a sergeant and I had the chance to stay in but I realized that as great as it was not for me. I won’t ever trade in my experience as a marine. I was in my dad’s unit and I loved it and my dad being a Major was able to let me live at home.” I reminisced 

“I would love to see you in uniform sometime!” Mathieu said giving me a kiss 

“Ok let’s go back to my house and I will get in my uniform. My dad gave me his uniforms as well but I don’t wear his.” I smiled holding Mathieu’s Hand 

Little did I realize that Dr. Jackiewicz watched with a scowl and he wanted to be with me! He was jealous of Mathieu but he knew he had to just continue to treat me poorly. 

“I wish he would pay attention to me but I guess I will get to be around him soon since he signed up as one of the candidates for my program.” Jake thought 

“Dr. Jackiewicz I see you posted the position to be your assistant and I am eager to be able to interview for the position.” Mark said 

       “Mr. Pietrovich I am glad that you have taken an interest in my program and the top 2 students will be working in my program. I will base my decision off of grades, personalities, dedication, and how they perform on simple experiments. Good Luck Mr. Pietrovich you are one of my brightest students and so is Mr. Johnston even though I am not thrilled about that. I cannot fail him based off the fact I don’t like him or I will end up fired and stripped of my teaching degree.” Dr. Jackiewicz praised 

       “Sir I don’t see what is so special about that guy, yes he is very popular but I think all the attention he received makes it seem like he is enjoying the spotlight. I mean I don’t have any problems with him but I don’t know why everyone is fussing over him. I don’t think he wants to be in the spotlight but everyone keeps putting him in the spotlight.” Mark informed 

“Well I am one person who will refuse to give him any breaks but if he earns a spot then I cannot deny him a position if he is one of the best candidates.” Dr. Jackiewicz frowned 

Suddenly Jake’s phone rings and it is his mother telling him that they are going to be in during the holidays.

Chapter 13: Christmas & Interviews

       With everything going on from being raped to kidnapped, I am starting to hope that things will begin to look up for me. Christmastime holidays come and I am setting up for the Christmas Party my dad, which we invite the Marines and Santa to pass out the toys from the Toys for Tots events. I am dressed in my Marine Blues and my Dad is in his officer uniform from the Marines and we are all having a great time.

“Good evening Sergeant you look sharp in your uniform and here is the bike I promised you! I also have a special gift for a certain Marine! By the way this is my cousin Philippe.” Mathieu smiled

“It is nice to meet you Philippe I hope you enjoy the party. Thank you Mathieu you could place the bike over at the giant Christmas tree. Then you could find me because I have something for you too.” I informed

It is nice to meet you too, Mathieu has told me a lot about you. Philippe greeted as he shook my hand.

He flew in from France a few days ago and he is going with me to my parents for Christmas. Mathieu stated

When Mathieu and Philippe walked the bike over to the Christmas tree Dr. Jackiewicz and guests walked over to me.

“Good evening Dr. Welcome to my Family’s hotel and our annual Christmas party fundraiser for the Marine Corps Toys for Tots. My family hopes that you enjoy the party.” I greeted

“Thank you young man!” Jake’s mother replied

       “Congratulations Mr. Johnston you have an interview on the 27^th of December at 8am sharp. Don’t be late or I will make sure that you will not have another chance to interview again. Enjoy your Holidays and don’t be late to my interview I don’t have time for your games.” Dr. Jackiewicz snarled

“Jake that is no way to talk to people, show some manners!” Dr. Jackiewicz’s mother stated

“Mom he is my student and if I treat him different than my other students then they will expect me to treat them all like that and they will walk all over me.” Jake informed

       Suddenly Mr. Jackiewicz said something in polish and Jake replied back in polish. From the sounds of it and the way his father was looking at me I knew whatever it was I wouldn’t like it. Mrs. Jackiewicz shot her husband and son death glares telling them behave. She then excused them for their rude behavior and went to enjoy the party. Mathieu walked over wondering what that was all about.

“Now I know where Dr. Jackiewicz got his short temper from! I couldn’t understand what they were saying but from the tones in their voices and the way they were looking at me, I know it was something about me. If looks could kill I would be dead by now!” I huffed

“Hey Sergeant what was that about?” Mathieu wondered

“I got an interview to be an assistant! I never applied to that.” I informed

Mathieu was grinning from ear to ear when I decided to see what was up.

“Ok what did you do? You know something don’t you?” I interrogated 

       “I signed you up for the interviews because I knew if you didn’t pursue that opportunity then you would kick yourself later on. I didn’t want you to regret not being able to go through the interview. I love you so much Tony and I want you to be happy.” Mathieu announced when Jamie and Jessica came up to us.

“I don’t know if I should kiss him or kill him! I love this guy he knows that I would regret not signing up for something like that! I thought smiling.

Jamie was also in a set of Dress blues and Jessica was in a beautiful blue dress.

       “Merry Christmas you two! Once again your Christmas Party is a big success and it seems a lot of Marines showed up in their uniforms! I think it is almost time for Santa to arrive and pass out presents to the little kids. I think we should make our way over to help pass out presents.” Jamie informed

We made our way over to the Christmas tree when my dad made an announcement.

        “Ladies and gentlemen we thank you for supporting the Toys for Tots program and it has been very successful. We have been able to raise 3.5 million dollars for the program and had collected several of toys as well. My son, his friend Jamie and several other Volunteers will help pass out toys to the children. Enjoy the party and any person who wants pictures with the Marines please let them know.” My dad announced

       After the party I brought Mathieu and Philippe to the airport so they could spend the holidays with Mathieu’s family. I kept in contact with Mathieu and I found out that his father has grown sick and has advanced stages of lung cancer. The doctors said that after the holiday they will begin the treatment and that if his dad has the will then he could survive the cancer. December 27^th comes around and I am preparing for my interview and make my way to the college. I arrived 20 minutes early and waited patiently for Dr. Jackiewicz when he showed up and didn’t look impressed that I was on time.

“Oh great! By the look on his face I could tell that he was not pleased and I am going to be in for a long day!” I thought

       “Mr. Johnston I am pleased to find that you know what Punctuation is. Come on in to my office I do not have all day. First off skip the common courtesies and let’s get straight to the interview. What was your interest in my program and what do you plan on achieving in this program?” Jake asked

“I am interested in this program because it will allow me to use what I learn here and achieve my goals in helping people…” I stated as I was cut off. “I have a feeling that this is not going to go well for me!” I sighed

“Mr. Johnston we are not here to help people we are here in the name of science. What are your goals in my class and if you are selected as one of the 2 candidates for this internship will you be able to execute any order I give without questions or argument.” Jake questioned

“My goals in your class is to be able to take what I learn and use them to help me understand science…” I was once again cut off! “Am I going to even get to answer any of the questions without being cut off?” I thought being frustrated

“Despite me not liking you and not wanting to give you an interview you are one of the top people in my class. I have heard enough and I will call you if I make a decision. Now excuse yourself from my office immediately.” Jake informed before I could react

“Great I wish I didn’t go to this stupid interview, I just wasted my time for nothing!” I exclaimed when I left the school.

I went home, knowing that I may have not gotten the position because Jake has a personal grudge against me. I messaged Mathieu to ask how his dad was doing and tell him about my interview.

“Hey Mathieu I didn’t do well on my interview. Dr. Jackiewicz didn’t even let me answer the questions on the interview.” I informed

“I am sorry to hear that. I thought things were getting better between you two.” Replied Mathieu

“Me too but I don’t think they ever will. Anyways how is your dad doing?” I responded

“He just went in for surgery where they removed the tumor that was in his lungs and he will start chemo and radiation in 3 days to help kill the cancer cells. I am so scared that I am going to lose my dad.” Cried Mathieu

“I will pray for him Mathieu. I love you and I will be here if you need to talk.” I comforted

“Thanks I love you too. I have to go my mom needs me I will talk to you soon.” Mathieu mentioned as he hung up the phone.

Suddenly my phone goes off and it is Jake on the other line.

“I want you to come to my office tomorrow at 1500 sharp. If you are a minute late I will refuse to see you.” Jake spat as he hung up before I could reply

“I wonder what he wants! He is probably going to yell at me and call me all these stupid names and then tell me to leave his office.” I thought as I went home.

I made my way to Jake’s office and once again I was 20 minutes early. Things have been uneasy and I thought he was going to tell me that he has removed me from his class and I am no longer in the program. 20 minutes later I hear Jake yell for me to make my way into his office.

       “Do not speak Mr. Johnston because I do not want to hear you try explaining yourself. Congratulations Mr. Johnston despite my better judgment you have earned one of the 2 spots as an assistant in my experiments. I need you to sign these forms and yes you could read them though. I know I have not always been kind to you but I had to hide how I truly feel about you. Jake said as he went over and kissed me on the lips before I could react. “I also bought you a pair of sneakers which you will use while in my lab. I will not let sneakers that have been on the outside in my lab, these along with your other personal belongings you do not want ruined will go in your own locker which will have your new sneakers, lab coat, goggles and rubber gloves.”

“Did he just kiss me or did I just imagine it? I don’t know what to think! He has had a grudge against me and now I find out it was a charade and he actually wants to date me! I am with Mathieu and I love him but I don’t want to offend Dr. Jackiewicz either.” I tried processing what just happened

I was shocked that he kissed me that I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t kiss back but I was uncomfortable and he sensed that I was on edge when he kissed me and he apologized to me.

“Thank you for the consideration Dr. Jackiewicz, I thought after my interview I would not get in and I am sorry that I am on edge I do not know what to make of what just happened. I do not mean to offend you but I am trying to process everything. Do you think we could start as friends and see how we are that way before we proceed any further?” I asked

“That’s fine we will start as friends.” Jake agreed

       I was looking over the paperwork and most of it stated what types of experiments we would be doing and some of the experiments may require a test subject. There were medical forms to accompany these paperwork and then there was a waiver in which we are responsible for any equipment we damage and that if anything medically occurs then the funds for the program will cover any medical expenses. I reviewed all the documents and signed each one also providing next of kin and other emergency information in case of anything happens.

“Dr. Jackiewicz do you mind if I ask who the other candidate chosen is for the program.” I wondered

       “The other candidate is Mr. Pietrovich and the program starts Monday and runs through the summer. Both of you have scored really well and you are the top person in my class and he is number 2 with only a fraction behind you. I assume you know who he is and knows he is very competitive.” Jake informed

“I do know of Mr. Pietrovich and I do admit I never really interacted with him before.” I stated

Chapter 14: Weddings and Injuries

Life was starting to get back to normal for me but I guess I don’t know what normal is. I was working on this internship while Joey and Katie were preparing for their wedding. Joey asked me to be his best man and we were trying to figure out the colors of the wedding and Joey was no help. 

“Hey Joey we are all here so do you know what the colors of the wedding is going to be.” Jamie asked 

“No why does it matter?” Joey answered 

“It matters because Katie will kill us if things are not perfect.” I replied 

“I don’t know the colors and I don’t understand why it really matters it’s not like it really matters.” Joey said getting annoyed 

“Then obviously you should not be getting married if you don’t know the colors for the tuxes.” J-Lee sneered 

“I don’t know why everyone is making a big deal about this it is not like it really matters to me.” Joey said defensively 

“I am going to call Katie she will be able to tell us the colors of the wedding so we could stop arguing.” I stated 

“Hello! Anthony what’s wrong?” Asked Katie 

“We are at the Tuxedo shop and we are trying to figure out what the colors are for the wedding and Joey is no help to us.” I replied 

“Let me talk to her!” Joey said snatching my phone from my hands 

“What is going on?” Katie asked 

“They are hounding me about the colors for the wedding and I don’t know that stuff that is something you handle.” Joey stated annoyed 

       “Joey they are asking because they need to know which tuxes they need to try on for the fitting. They are going to be in a black pinstripe tux with white shirt, Sapphire blue Stomach belt, Sapphire Blue Vest, Sapphire Blue Bow Tie and Gold and blue Cuff links. You are going to be in a white tux with the purple stomach belt, vest, bow tie, and gold and purple cuff links. My dress will be white with the sapphire blue sash and my bridesmaids will be in Purple dress with the white sash. The Colors are white, Blue, Purple and Gold. You should have asked me before you went to the tux shop.” Katie cried 

“I am sorry I didn’t think that kind of stuff was important. I usually leave that type of stuff for you or Anthony since he is gay and I am not.” Joey stated defensively 

“I got to go we will talk about this later! Now order your tuxes. Love you!” Katie said hanging up before Joey could reply 

“Well what are the colors of the wedding? I asked 

“YOU KNOW WHAT WHY DON’T YOU FUCKING CHOOSE THE COLORS YOURSELF YOU FUCKING FAGGOT.” Joey Snapped 

“You have no right talking to me like that. I was asking because the shop owner came by asking if we knew what we were ordering. Since Katie told you the colors we figured we would ask. What you fucking called me was uncalled for and I will not stand by and let you treat me like that.” I yelled back 

       “LIKE I FUCKING CARE YOU FUCKING QUEER IT WAS YOUR FUCKING FAULT YOU WERE FUCKING RAPED. IF YOU DIDN’T FUCKING KEEP PUTTING YOURSELF OUT THERE LIKE A LITTLE TRAMP THEN YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER BEEN RAPED. I AM SICK OF LOOKING OUT FOR YOU AND I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHY WE ARE EVEN FRIENDS. I REGRET MAKING YOU MY BEST MAN AND YOU WANT TO KNOW THE FUCKING COLORS THEN HERE THEY FUCKING ARE. YOU FUCKING QUEER ARE GOING TO BE IN A FUCKING BLACK PINSTRIPE TUX WITH A WHITE SHIRT, BLUE FUCKING STOMACH BELT, WITH THE MATCHING VEST AND FUCKING BOW TIE AND GOLD AND BLUE CUFF LINKS. NOW FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE YOU FUCKING HOMO.” Joey shouted in a fit of rage before punching me right in the eye knocking me to the floor and then started kicking me before I could even defend myself.
Jamie grabbed Joey by the neck and threw him off of me before starting to yell at him. 

       “WHO GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO FUCKING ATTACK TONY LIKE THAT? YOU KNOW IT WAS NOT HIS FAULT HE WAS FUCKING RAPED AND YOU HAVE NO RIGHT CALLING HIM A FUCKING HOMO, QUEER, OR A FUCKING FAGGOT. I SHOULD FUCKING KILL YOU FOR HOW YOU TREATED TONY WHEN HE WAS ONLY FUCKING ASKING A SIMPLE QUESTION. I DO NOT TAKE IT LIKELY THAT YOU ARE CALLING SOMEONE THOSE NAMES ON TOP OF MAKING THEM FEEL LIKE GARBAGE BECAUSE YOU ARE FUCKING HAVING A BAD DAY. YOU KNOW MY BROTHER IS GAY AND TONY WHOM IS SUPPOSED TO BE YOU’RE FUCKING BEST FRIEND. GO TO FUCKING HELL Joey BECAUSE AFTER THE WAY YOU TREATED YOUR BEST FRIEND AND INADVERTENTLY MY BROTHER THAT’S WHERE YOU BELONG.” Jamie fumed punching Joey in the nose causing it to bleed.
After Jamie finished punching Joey I was already out of the store because I could not be around Joey anymore. Jamie and JLee also left trying to find me but I didn’t want to be found. Later that evening Joey told Katie what happened and how he may have lost his 3 best friends. 

“Joey what happened to your nose?” Katie wondered 

“It is a long story and I don’t think we are having the wedding now. I did some things I wish I didn’t do and now I regret doing.” Joey said 

“What did you do?” Katie prodded 

“After getting off the phone with you which reminds me you need to give Tony his phone back to him.” Joey dodged the question 

“Ok. Why can’t you give him the phone and why do you still have it?” Katie interrogated 

“I have it because I failed to give it back to Tony before he left the Tux shop and I don’t think he is going to want to see me.” Joey said being very vague. 

“Joseph Edwardo Demetri deRey Romanovich STOP FUCKING PLAYING THESE GAMES AND TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED NOW.” Katie demanded 

       “OK FINE! After I got off the phone with you Tony asked once again what the colors of the wedding were and I snapped at him. I called him names I shouldn’t have and told him that he deserved to be raped since he is always putting himself out there like a tramp. I also called him a fucking queer, fucking homo, and a fucking faggot. I told him that I am tired of always looking out for him. Then I punched him in the face so hard it knocked him to the ground in which I started to beat the crap out of him. I would have probably seriously injured Tony if Jamie didn’t pull punch and me off me square in the nose after yelling at me for what I had done. I know I deserved it and I regret even snapping at Tony. I understand if you don’t want to be with me anymore since you probably hate me as well in which I understand.” Joey cried 

“Who gives you the right to treat anyone like that?” Katie asked 

“I have no excuse as to how I behaved now I don’t have my best friends nor anyone to stand by me in our wedding. I don’t want to lose you either.” Joey pleaded 

“You better fix this or you will lose me. You have 4 months before the wedding and trust me it better be fixed before the wedding because if Anthony is not at my wedding and I and my maid of honor is not there then don’t expect me to be there either.” Katie threatened as she took my phone and stormed out of the house. 

Joey called JLee hoping he could talk to him and apologize for his rude behavior and he agreed to meet Joey along with his brother Jamie to hear Joey out. 

“We are here what do you want?” Jamie snapped 

"I want to apologize for my rude behavior to you and to Tony. I should have never called him those names or made him feel like crap before beating the shit out of him. I am sorry JLee for inadvertently referring you as those names. I know what I did was wrong and I deserved everything that you gave me Jamie.” Apologized Joey 

“I accept your apology but what made you act like an ass?” JLee asked 

“I don’t know! I guess the pressure of this wedding, my new movie and then you guys hounding me about stupid colors was too much for me to handle. I know that I have no excuse as to what I did but I guess this movie and planning the wedding made me not get much sleep. I was tired, cranky and annoyed today and I had no right to treat my best friend like that”. Joey confessed 

“Joey I understand that you were having a bad day but to attack Tony like that it made me disgusted with you. You opened up that wound that he thought himself worthless. When we left we went to try finding Tony and he was nowhere to be found. You better hope he is alright and nothing bad happened to him or I will fucking kill you and it would be your entire fault.” Jamie spat 

“I know I just hope I can apologize to him before something bad happens to him.” Joey stated ashamed 

       I find myself wandering around. I have lost all sense of time and I didn’t care either. I was contemplating what Joey said to me, how Dr. Jackiewicz treated me from the beginning of our relationship up until now and then I thought of Mathieu and his beautiful smile. I don’t know how far I wandered because I was so lost in thought I failed to notice a car following me. I wanted to call Mathieu and have him calm me down but I didn’t have my cell phone on me. I found a payphone and decided to call him that way which it could be a big mistake. 

“Hello! Who is this?” Mathieu answered groggily 

“Hey Mathieu it’s me Tony! I needed to talk to you.” I replied crying 

“Hey Tony are you all right? What happened? Where are you?” Mathieu questioned 

“I don’t know I am at a payphone on a dark rode in a part of Connecticut I have never been. I don’t see any street signs I guess I have been wandering for about 8 hours and I have no clue where I am. Joey and I are not friends anymore I don’t think I could ever forgive him for what he did to me. I wish I was with you now that I am checking out my surroundings I am scared.” I shivered 

“Tony I want you to call 911 and tell them you are lost and need help getting home. I will be waiting for you at your house and we will talk about what happened when you are home.” Mathieu said 

I did as Mathieu suggested and I called 911 and explained my situation to them. They said they have my coordinates and that someone should be along shortly to make sure I was all right. About 20 minutes later I saw a state trooper coming down the road and I went out to meet him. I have never felt so relieved to get off this road. 

“Are you Antonio Johnston?” The trooper asked 

“Yes Sir! I was wandering around and I didn’t even pay attention to where I was going or what time it was until I decided to call my friend to come and get me but I couldn’t give him an exact location because I have never been in this area and he suggested I call 911 and tell them my situation.” I explained 

“It is a good thing nothing happened to you this part is known for a lot of muggings and a lot of killings.” The trooper mentioned come on boy let’s get you home before it gets even later. 

       The trooper brought me home and I thanked him for all his help then I went inside my house and called Mathieu to let him know I was home safe and sound. Mathieu came over and spent the night with me and I told him what happened between Joey, the twins, and I. He was not happy at Joey but he swore that he wouldn’t go after Joey at all. I then fall asleep in his arms because I felt safe with him and I knew nothing would happen with him next to me. The next morning I woke and I gently slipped out of his arms to get ready for work. My entire left side of the face was swollen and my ribs felt sore from Joey kicking me and stomping on my ribs. 

“Mr. Johnston what happened to you?” Jake asked 

“I got in a fight and I lost. I just want to do my job and go back home please.” I informed 

“Mr. Pietrovich and Mr. Johnston today we are going to test out the chemical compounds when mixing different chemicals and what reaction we get from them. I need you both to get in your lab coats goggles and rubber gloves on because we are about to begin.” Stated Jake as we began to get ready for the experiment 

“So Johnston what caused this fight?” Marc pried 

Marc Pietrovich is 5’8” with brown hair and hazel eyes that has a nice tone body but is very shy, timid and very awkward. Even though he clashes with me when it comes to science he considered me a friend. Science is his passion and even though he loves Jake he will do anything for a friend if he needs too. 

“Marc I had a fight with a former friend who said stuff that he shouldn’t have and I have no clue what provoked this outburst.” I explained 

“Do you want me to hurt this jerk?” Marc offered 

“No thank you I am going to ignore him and never speak to him again.” I informed 

“I know we don’t always get along but I do consider you a friend in fact I think you are my only friend. I just wish I had your courage to show people how I truly feel. I am in love with someone but I don’t think they recognize me.” Marc feared 

"I guess try…” I was interrupted 

“Are you 2 ready or are we going to just sit around all day and chit chat?” Jake stated annoyed 

We did our experiments and when we were in the middle of the experiments Jake’s Phone rings and he finds out that his parents are in town and they needed him to come get them at the airport. 

“I have to go get my parents from the airport. I want you to clean up the lab and Mr. Pietrovich here is my spare key. I want you to lock up and slide the key underneath the door. We will resume our experiment tomorrow at 1300.” Jake informed as he changed and left to get his parents. 

“Johnston how can you be so…what is the word I am looking for…confident when it comes to making friends?” Marc asked 

         “I guess I just be myself, I talk to people and I get to know them but I guess I am very shy and timid when it comes to talking to people about relationships. I have a hard time around guys who want to either date me or want sex with me. My first time with sex I was raped by someone who was supposed to look after me because I was passed out. He tried raping me again and if it wasn’t for a friend I could have probably died. I am scared of having sex and when it comes to most guys I have become distant because of what happened to me.” I explained 

We finished cleaning up the lab and I told Marc we will talk more tomorrow and I made my way over to the park where I happened to run into Joey. 

“Tony we need to talk.” Joey said 

“Why so you could Insult me again and beat the crap out of me again.” I spat 

“No I don’t want to do any of that crap again, I actually want to apologize for how I acted towards you. I know I have no excuse as to how I treated you but I truly am sorry and I ask you can you find it in your heart to forgive me.” Joey asked 

“Joey I could forgive you on beating the crap out of me but what you said to me I have never been so hurt in my entire life as to when we were in the store and you called me all those names and worst of all saying I deserved to be raped because I am a tramp. I cannot forgive you for that. You of all people knows that I am still struggling with the fact I was raped and that is something that I can’t easily get out of my mind.” I cried 

       “I understand that I hurt you and I am willing to do whatever it takes to make it up to you and I still want you to be my best man.” Pleaded Joey
“I am going to need time Joey! You have no idea how much you hurt me when you said all those things to me. Even though you say you didn’t mean it but I think you really meant it or you would have never said that crap to me. My outer wounds will heal but I am not sure our friendship will. How can I trust you after what you did to me?” I questioned 

“Damn it Tony I apologized to you and I am even willing to do whatever it takes to make it up to you so why can’t you accept my apology and fucking be my best friend again.” Joey gave a frustrated growl. 

“WHAT WILL FUCKING HAPPEN NEXT TIME WE HAVE AN ARGUMENT? WILL YOU ATTACK ME LIKE YOU DID YESTERDAY? WILL YOU BEAT THE CRAP OUT OF ME NOT EVEN GIVING ME A CHANCE TO DEFEND MYSELF?” I yelled 

“YOU KNOW WHAT FUCK YOU! I FUCKING APOLOGIZED TO YOU AND THIS IS THE THANKS I GET! GO TO HELL.” Joey fumed shoving me which caused me to snap. 

       I could not control my hurt and anger so I punched Joey right across the face and turned and began walking away. Joey now full of rage attacked me when my back was turned from him and started beating the crap out of me again. He smashed my face against the sidewalk and kicked me right in the face before storming off. I was knocked out cold do to what Joey did to me when Katie was walking through the park and saw me on the ground with blood. When I came too I realized I had a lot of people around me and there was a blinding light above me. 

“Anthony are you alright?” Katie asked 

“I am fine I just want to get out of here.” I said 

“Who did this to you?” My dad asked 

“It doesn’t matter I don’t want to talk about it.” I whispered 

“Son whoever did this is going to pay for it.” Assured my mom 

“No mom it is not worth it and it will only make things worse. I do not want to make things worse than what they are.” I stated 

Everyone dropped it because they knew I wasn’t going to talk about it. I called Dr. Christianson because I knew that whatever I said to him will be confidential. He agreed to meet me and let me discuss the issues I have been having recently. 

“Hello Anthony I would ask how everything is but by the looks of things I take it that it is not that good.” Dr. Christianson observed 

“Joey and I have had a huge fight and I don’t think that our friendship will last.” I stated 

“What happened to cause this fight?” Dr. Christianson asked 

       “Joey is trying to get ready for his wedding and we were at the tux shop. My friends the twins and I wanted to know what the colors of the wedding were so we could get the right tuxes and Joey was being difficult. He really didn’t know so I called my cousin and asked her what the colors were and Joey snatches the phone from me and explained the situation to his fiancee in which she told him the color scheme of the wedding. By that time the owner asked us if we were ready for the initial part of the tux fitting and I told him we are waiting on the groom to figure out the color scheme. Once Joey gets off the phone I ask him once more what the colors for the tuxes are and he flips and starts calling me hurtful names like faggot, queer, homo, and a tramp. He also said I deserved to be raped which that hurt me the most because I thought he was my friend. I told him that the owner asked and that’s when he called me all that then proceeded to punch me and kick me in the ribs. 

       Today he came and apologized to me about what he did and I told him that I could forgive him for beating the crap out of me but I cannot forgive him for all the hurtful things he said to me. He said he was sorry and he will do anything to make it right and I said I need time and that he didn’t know how much he hurt me. I also told him that I don’t think I could trust him to be my friend. He flipped again and he said he apologized to what more does and me he wants from me. I snapped back at him saying what will happen the next time we are in an argument will you beat the crap out of me again in which he replied go to hell. I ended up punching him in the face and began walking away when he tackled me and smashed my head on the sidewalk and then kicked me right in the face which was the last thing I remember before waking up in the hospital with my family all around me.” I explained
“What is it you want out of this whole thing? Do you want Joey to be your friend again? Do you want him to never bother you again?” Dr. Christianson inquired 

“I needed time to figure all this out and he was not willing to give me time. He wanted me to accept his apology and everything to return back to normal.” I informed 

“Do you ever think you can forgive Joey like you forgave the person who raped you?” Questioned Dr. Christianson 

“I would like to but I needed time and apparently it is something I didn’t have. It is one thing to be betrayed by someone you barely know but it is another thing to be betrayed by a very close friend. He says he didn’t mean to say all those things but why would he say them if he didn’t really mean it.” I asked 

“I really can’t give you an answer to that question. If someone else have said the same exact thing would it affect you the same?” Wondered Dr. Christianson 

“It depends on the person. If it was a stranger then I could just write it off because they really don’t know me but when it is someone I care about saying those things I can’t let it go because to them that’s what they think about me and even apologizing to me about it won’t change the way they feel about me.” I cried 

“Do you think given time you would have been able to forget about this or do you think that you could never forget this incident?” Dr. Christianson asked 

“I think time would have allowed me to forgive Joey and learn to trust him again but I don’t think we have that time. This whole thing has driven everyone apart and I don’t know how to fix this. Should I have accepted Joey’s apology and pretend that everything was alright between us?” I inquired 

“What does your heart say?” Replied Dr. Christianson 

“Honestly I think I would have hated myself if I pretended everything was alright between us!” I stated 

“Then I say give it time and if he still acts like he is then maybe it is time to forget him because someone who acts like that to someone for no reason is not a friend. Give him a second chance when you are ready to and then maybe you could be able to forgive him and you two could start mending your friendship.” Advised Dr. Christianson 

       “Thank you Dr. Christianson for your advice!” I replied as he left

I called Katie and told her I will go to her wedding but I will not be in her wedding party because of certain circumstances. She said it’s alright as long as I come she will be happy. She did ask me to buy a black pin stripe tux with sapphire blue stomach belt that goes over the white shirt, the matching vest, bow tie, and gold cuff links with sapphires in them. I told her I would and I hope things work out for her. She went home to Joey and told him that the wedding is still on. 

       “Joey, Tony is coming to the wedding even though he is not going to participate in the wedding. I know you two had a fight today in which Tony ended up in the hospital because of it but Tony doesn’t want us to do anything and he wants to work it out himself. So I am not going to yell at you and I hope you two could work things out. I know it is going to take time but I really hope you could work things out because it would be a shame to throw 24 years of friendship down the drain.” Katie informed 

       “I feel like crap and it is eating at me to what I did to Tony. I know I deserved to be punched by him and I know I shouldn’t expect him to forgive me right away and when he asked for time I don’t know why I couldn’t give him that. I wanted him to I guess pretend everything was alright between us and nothing happened. I didn’t mean to attack him after he punched me and I think I need to go to counseling to fix what is wrong with me.” Joey cried his eyes out 

“Do you want to go to Tony’s Doctor in order to get the counseling or do you want to go to someone else?” Katie asked 

“I don’t know I am going to have to ask Dr. Christianson what he thinks would be the best move for me.” Joey informed

Chapter 15: Joey and Katie’s Wedding    

       I may have lost one of my best friends due to a fight that took place and I don’t know how to fix it. Joey called me some nasty and hurtful things before deciding to beat the crap out of me. He then confronted me begging for forgiveness and when I refused he smashed my face into the ground before kicking it. I guess he is having a mental breakdown and is looking to seek professional help and I have become mentally unstable where I cannot perform my job anymore. I just got released from the hospital and I make my way over to Jake’s office to explain that I have to drop out of the program due to health issues.

“Excuse me Dr. Jackiewicz! May I come in?” I asked nervously

“You may! What happened to you? Are you alright?” Questioned Jake

“I may have to drop out of the program do to the fact I am becoming mentally unstable.” I stated while shaking because my nerves were shot.

“Does this have to do with what happened yesterday and the day before?” Interrogated Jake in which he showed great concern.

“Yes it does. I was in a fight and the person just did this to me and I cannot control this shaking and I don’t want to danger you or Mr. Pietrovich. I have contacted my Dr. and I am going to be going to my appointments with him again.” I cried still shaking

       “I understand where you are coming from and I appreciate your concern for us. I will not hold this against you since I see that your nerves are shot and you cannot control that shaking. I will tell you what I have another internship starting in September if you want I can reserve that position for you so you could finish the program. I know I have not always treated you right and for that I am sorry. I want you to get better and I hope that despite how I treated you that we could be friends.” Jake informed concerned for my safety

“Thank you for your understanding and I will let you know about the program next semester.” I said when someone knocked on the door.

“Come in!” Jake replied

“Dr. Jackiewicz I need to talk to you! Oh Hi Johnston are you alright your face looks worse than yesterday.” Marc stated

“The same guy attacked me yesterday and I came here to tell Dr. Jackiewicz that I am going to have to drop out of the program.” I informed

“I am sorry that you have to leave this program I enjoyed competing against you in this program and I know that whatever the reason it is a good one and I think it has to do with what we talked about yesterday.” Marc said understandingly

“What is it that you wanted to talk to me about?” Jake asked

“Well first off Science is my passion and I am able to pursue my career in Science thanks to you. I know I am shy and very timid but I need to have courage to tell you how I truly feel. Johnston helped me realize that I don’t have to hide who I am because I am nervous. I love you Dr. Jackiewicz and I have fell in love with you when I started taking your class.” Marc blurted out

       “I do understand being shy and timid in which I hide my emotions behind Science and often comes across cold and mean. I want someone to love me and that is in the same things as me. I know Mr. Johnston helped me realize these emotions but I do think I love you too Mr. Pietrovich. You have always been my favorite student and I am glad you had the courage to tell me how you feel.” Jake replied as they went in and kissed

“I am happy for the both of you!” I said as I suddenly got real dizzy and collapsed to the ground passing out from it.

Meanwhile across town Joey is pacing back and forth debating on if he should talk to Dr. Christianson or not.

“Excuse me Mr. Romanovich is it?” Dr. Christianson asked

“Dr. I am wondering if I can have a word with you?” Joey stammered

“Sure come on in!” Dr. Christianson said observing that Joey was nervous, fidgety, and scared. “How can I help you Mr. Romanovich?”

“I need some professional help and I know you are treating Anthony which might be a conflict of interest but I am wondering if you know someone that could help me out. I am scared what I did to Anthony and I think I have a problem.” Joey confessed

“I do have a friend who went to school with me and he works in the same office as I do. I could bring you to him and introduce you to him. His name is Dr. Jeremy Stone and he is very good at this profession.” Dr. Christianson stated.

“Yes Please!” Joey replied very nervously

Dr. Christianson brings Joey across the hall and introduces him to Dr. Stone.

“Dr. Stone I am wondering if you could help a friend of my patient. His name is Mr. Romanovich and he is showing signs of a nervous breakdown.” Dr. Christianson informed

“I am free right now and I don’t have any patients for the rest of the day so I wouldn’t mind helping Mr. Romanovich. You could show him in please. Thank you Dr. Christianson and are we still on for dinner tonight?” Dr. Stone asked

“Yes at Caravello’s Dream like we planned!” Dr. Christianson confirmed

“Ok see you then!” Dr. Stone smiled

“Hello!” Joey said nervously

“How may I help you Mr. Romanovich?” Dr. Stone inquired

“I honestly don’t know where to start!” Joey said

“Well what brought you here to see me?” Dr. Stone asked

“My fiancee made me come! She said if I don’t fix things then she is going to make me miserable.” Joey admitted

“What is it that you need to fix?” Dr. Stone prodded trying to get Joey to open up.

“I am sorry for wasting your time Dr. Stone and coming here was a bad idea! I am going to go.” Joey said suddenly

“Mr. Romanovich before you go, may I offer you some advice?” Dr. Stone wondered

“I guess I could take some advice!” Joey reluctantly agreed

“It is OK to get some help from people every now and again but in order to get some help you need to ask. The first step is admitting you need some help and the second step is to ask for help. Once you do those 2 steps you will feel a great pressure lifted off your shoulders.” Dr. Stone suggested

“I don’t know what to do! My best friend hates me, my fiancee is going to make me miserable and I can’t even admit I have a problem. I really need help but I don’t know how to ask for help.” Joey thought! “Dr. Stone if I ask for help would you help me?”

“I promise I will do everything in my power to help you to the best of my ability and everything we talk about will be confidential.” Dr. Stone assured

“I need some help and I don’t know where to start.” Joey admitted

“Well you took the first 2 steps and now the rest will be easy. I want you to take a few deep breaths and relax. This will help you focus on where you want to begin. Breathing helps you clear your mind and relieve the stress that is caused. So let’s start with some breathing exercises and clear your mind OK.” Dr. Stone encouraged

For 5 minutes Joey did those breathing exercises and he seemed to relax and found a place to start. He admitted that he began feeling better and that he felt relaxed and knew where to start.

“I think I am way too stressed out with getting married and juggling a movie career on top of it. I also tend to try control everything and everyone. I tend to get angry when things don’t go my way. I also lash out and I end up hurting people. I lashed out against my best friend when he was just trying to help me so it would be one less thing I had to worry about.” Joey admitted

“Do you have to be in control of everything?” Inquired Dr. Stone

        “I do have to be in control! I tend to be overly cocky and feel that people should do what I want. I would constantly get into fights with my best friend because I would try controlling his life when he was more than capable of running his own life. I became extremely overprotective of him and I kept pushing people away from him since he was raped. He would constantly yell at me and I would ignore him in which it lead to me taking it too far when he introduced his boyfriend Mathieu to me, our friends and his parents. I not only got yelled at my fiancee but I also got death glares from everyone at the table. I made my best friend leave the table in which his ex-boyfriend Jamie went after him and talked to him. When I made his current boyfriend leave he knew I pushed it too far and he came back and told me to get up so we could talk. He pretty much told me to back off and he is not fragile and he could take care of himself. I felt I was beginning to lose control and this is not the first time that I lost control.” Joey frowned

“Tell me about the first time you lost control with your best friend.” Dr. Stone mentioned

Joey went into great details from when he found Paco choking me to when he publicly humiliated me on live television. The more he told the story the more he realized he kept hurting me throughout the years.

“Do you think I am a bad friend?” Joey asked

“Let me ask a few more questions before I let you know how I can help you.” Dr. Stone smiled

“Ok!” Joey agreed

“I want you to tell me about the incident that lead you to seek help!” Dr. Stone mentioned

       “Well Jamie, J-Lee, Anthony and I were all at the tuxedo shop for a fitting for the wedding. I was already stressed beyond belief and I was not in any mood to be there. Anthony asked me what colors we should go with for the tuxedos. I told him I don’t know I usually leave that stuff for Katie you and J-Lee. Anthony called Katie and asked what the colors were for the tuxes and before he got an answer I took the phone from his hand and began talking to my fiancee. She told me the colors and even though I didn’t realize that the owner came by to see if we were ready for the fitting I snapped at Anthony when he asked what she said. I began calling him names which I knew were offensives to Gay people and I began kicking him when he was on the floor and unable to defend himself. If it wasn’t for Jamie I probably would have seriously hurt Anthony.

       Anthony left the store and I don’t know where he went but I know he left his phone and just took off. I left the store as well and I was so furious I didn’t care what happened to him. I found out later he wandered and didn’t even know where he was going. If it wasn’t for the trooper who found him he might have been dead. I apologized to the twins and I realized that I didn’t want to lose my best friend either. The next day I found him at the park just walking. He looked like he was deep in thought when I approached him. I apologized to him and he said that he needed some space and time to be able to fix our friendship. That seemed like a reasonable request but I kept pushing it and I snapped and started calling him names again and then shoved him. He gave me a good right hook and told me to stay away from him. He said he was willing to forgive me in time but now he doesn’t want anything to do with me. I don’t know why I couldn’t give him time, I guess I needed things to be back to the way it was. I ruined our friendship because I am too selfish and maybe he is right that I meant to call him those names and hurt him.” Joey explained

       “Joey from what I gathered and what you said, you have anger issues and control issues. You are letting these 2 problems control your life and it is affecting how you are to your friends. I want to continue our sessions and I will help you get these problems under control. I will help you as long as you are willing to accept help but in doing so I need you to at least listen to my advice and be open to controlling your anger and controlling personality.” Dr. Stone stated in which Joey agreed to the terms in which they arranged the appointments in which Joey must keep either phone conference, video conference or in person.

Joey kept his word and Dr. Stone helped him learn how to accept that he cannot control everything and he learned to get his anger under control. A week before the wedding Joey decides to talk to me and see if we could begin mending our friendship. He met me at the park where we talked.

“Hey Anthony thank you for meeting me. I know I have done things to you and have said some things to you that I should have never said.” Joey greeted

“Hey Joey!” I greeted back

      “I truly am sorry and while getting help for my control and anger issues and I also realized that I have not been a very good friend to you in the time that we knew each other.” Joey explained! “Before you say anything please hear me out. I do not expect you to give me another chance in being my friend and I do not hate gay people; I do not hate you for being gay and I do not hate you at all. I realized that you have always been a better friend to me and always had my back when I needed you the most and I haven’t even done anything to assure you that I am your friend. I admit I have control issues and I have anger issues but one thing I haven’t told anyone is I have an issue of not being able to depend on you. I guess I am admitting I need you in my life because you have always helped me when I need you and I think part of the reason I wanted to control your life or attacked you is because I knew you never needed me I was the one who needed you.”

I was processing everything Joey told me and I knew he was being sincere when he told me everything he just did. I decided to start mending our friendship and see how it goes from there.

“Joey, what you did just now took a lot of guts and I don’t know how things are going to be but I think it is time we start mending our friendship. It is going to take a long time for me to trust you again but I do forgive you. I want to start over and build our friendship again and I want you to know that even though I have found happiness that if you need me I will always help you.” I informed which Joey smiled

“I would like that very much. I know we are starting on mending our friendship but it would do me a great honor if you would still be my best man in my wedding. I don’t think I could go through the wedding without you at my side as my best man.” Mentioned Joey in which I accepted

“I will be there Joey! I will go get my tuxedo measurements and Katie told me the colors for my tux. I guess I will get the tuxedo on the 27th.” I said with a small smile

The day of the wedding came in which Joey finally married Katie and everything went perfectly. Joey made a speech in front of everyone and this is what he said.

       “Ladies and Gentlemen thank you for coming to celebrate mine and Katie’s wedding. I guess I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for a few people that helped me get here. To my loving wife the first time we met I thought you were fucking crazy and I told Anthony that you are Fucking Nuts but I think I am in love. Now anyone who knew me knows I would never say that unless I truly meant it. You have been with me when I made an ass out of my best friend and me. You have been there with me when Anthony and I didn’t have anything to do with each other and you were with me when I decided to get help with my problems. I love you and nothing will ever change that and you were one person whom I could never take control of. You always had the control in this relationship and I am not afraid to admit it. I love you and you became my rock.

       To my loving parents for if it was not for you I would have not been born. I know that I was spoiled and when I would get in trouble I would blame someone else mainly my best friend at the time but you always knew it was me and you helped keep me grounded. I know I have a lot of issues but you supported me my entire life and you were not afraid to punish me when you see fit. Thank you for putting up with all my drunk and retarded ways and I love you both thank you.

       To the twins Jamie and J-Lee. J-Lee you were always right there with me getting in to trouble but somehow Jamie was the one who always got in trouble. You were both there for me when I needed advice and you both helped me when I needed help dealing with some problems 2 years ago. I know that every time we came up with a scheme it would always back fire on us and then we would look to Anthony for help to bail us out. You would think we would learn but yet we kept doing stupid stuff like trying to make Jamie fly or something like that. Thank you both for being there, getting in trouble with me, and thank you for knocking sense in me when I needed it.

       The last person I want to thank is someone who has been there for me more times I can count. To Anthony, I know I have not been a very good friend to you over the years and thinking back on it all I honestly don’t know how you were able to put up with me all those years. You were the one who always kept us 3 knuckleheads together and helped bail us out when we got into situations that we could not get out of. You were there when I broke my arm because I was drunk and thought I was invincible. You also put up with me whining about different things, controlling your life, pushing people out of your life and done something I regretted doing. I thought I lost my friend because I was too blind and stupid to realize that I was doing everything possible to push you away and instead of trying to keep you in my life. The time we were not friends killed me because it made me realize I took you for granted and I did things and said things that pushed you away and it got to the point where I did something that was the last straw for you. I am sorry for being a poor friend to you and I thank you for being there for me no matter how much of a Jackass I was being. I don’t deserve your friendship but I am lucky to have you in my life and that you gave me another chance. I love you bro and I truly mean that. You are my brother and as god and everyone who is here are my witnesses I promise I will be a better friend to you and not take you for granted. So let’s drink to Family and Friends; may we never take them for granted!” Joey toasted after his beautiful speech.

       Jessica gave her speech and I followed with mine to wrap up the speeches. I enjoyed the night dancing with my boyfriend and having fun. Katie threw her flowers and Mathieu caught them unexpectedly because her aim was off and it hit Mathieu in the face before falling in his hands. Mathieu had our song play and he got down on one knee and proposed to me.

       “Anthony I have known you for over two and a half years and I love everything about you. I know you are my soul mate and I could not think of anything I want more than spending the rest of my life with you. I ask that; will you Anthony promise me that you want to spend the rest of your life with me.” Mathieu asked holding a 14k Rose Gold Olive wreath Ring with Blue and Yellow Sapphires in it.

“Mathieu I could not think of anyone else I would rather spend the rest of my life with than you. Yes I will!” I exclaimed with Joy as I got down and gave him a passionate kiss.

“Katie helped me pick out the ring and I was going to wait until our anniversary but she suggested that I give it to you on your birthday during the reception. She said when our song plays pull you into the center of the dance floor and after our dance get down and propose to you. Happy Birthday Anthony! I love you with all my heart.” Mathieu cried

       For the first time in my life I felt happy and this was the first birthday I had in a long time where nothing bad happened to me. The love of my life assured me that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. I am no longer fighting with Joey and we are working on our friendship. I have an amazing family who loves me and will do anything for me. I also have amazing friends and they are all people I could not have asked for to be in my life. I realized that I am going to start helping people overcome their obstacles and educate people about rape, suicide, and other things that happen that is out of their control. I tell them that I am gay but what happened to me was not because I am gay.

       What happened to me was due to something completely different and being gay only played part of the role. I tell people I am happy with who I am and that being gay does not define me. I also tell people that being gay does not mean I asked to be raped or publicly humiliated. I also mention that just because I am gay doesn’t mean I sleep with every guy I see. I not only helped break up some of the stereotypes of being gay but I also help people know how to handle a situation where you are raped, the different types of rape, what you can do if you are raped. I also educate them on suicide and how that it is not something to be taken lightly.

       I eventually got to marry Mathieu and we have twins because we were able to get a family from the Sperm Bank because my friend Jamie and his wife Jessica became Advocates for gay rights. This took place when J-Lee’s business was burned down and vandalized because he was gay. Jamie being a lawyer not only defended his brother but he helped fight for gay rights all around. He made people realize that Gays, Bisexuals, Lesbians, Straight are all labels and they should not define that they people. He fought for equal rights for marriage and other things in which it helped people to be able to come out and more people be more receptive to gays.

       J-Lee and Chang finally married and are running a very successful bakery in which people from all over the world travel to be able to eat their pastries. They also have adopted twins both Italian and a Chinese girl. They help Jamie run his Gay Rights campaign and they have been very successful in making awareness for different diseases such as aids and raising money for cure for cancer, aids, and other STDs. J-Lee and Chang both make sure that people realize that just because you are gay doesn’t mean that they automatically have aids or other STDs. They let people know that any person could have Aids and yes it is more common in the Gay community but it can happen to anyone who have unprotected sex especially with multiple partners.

       Joey retired from doing movies and television because it was becoming too stressful and he decided to go to college and become a doctor specializing in anger management. Katie and he have 3 beautiful children in which they are performing in the local theater. Katie also became a doctor in which she studies pediatrics. She loves helping children be healthy and she loves helping others. Joey and I became good friends again and we all get together and we still hang out with each other.

        Dr. Christianson and Dr. Stone continue running their own office and they made room for Joey to become a partner. They currently are married and have one son together in which they show the same love but they do not bring their work home with them. They help each other when they are stressed and they know that they are always there for each other.

       My parents decided to make me partner in the family’s resort in which they were eventually going to sign it all over to me fully. They love being grandparents and they spoil my children but also will teach them right from wrong. They tell me how proud they are of me and that I am the best son that they could have asked for. I know I can go to them with any problem and they will always support me.

       Paco found love and was able to become a doctor in which he uses plants to help with more natural medication. By studying plants he was able to help treat people with cancer and more of his patients were able to go into remission because of it. He was able to start fresh and his mistake from the past is not haunting him anymore. Paco has paid for when he raped me. He finally healed fully from when he almost died and he found love with someone who was able to help him heal. Paco and I also became friends and I no longer hate Paco for that he did to me on my 21st birthday.

        Dr. Jackiewicz and Mark became very successful scientists and they were able to help create different things that would help improve a cleaner earth. They not only shared their work together but they shared their lives together. When Mark came down with a rare type of cancer Jake brought him to Paco and he was able to help Mark improve his health so he could continue to do his research. I still get letters from Paco, Jake + Mark, and Dr. Christianson and they all keep me updated on their research and lives.

       I have found my happiness and I know that I am going to struggle with some things. This is not just a story about the struggles I had to overcome this is a story of the struggles my friends and family had to overcome. This is also a story of that through the support of family and friends that you can overcome anything. Even Enemies can become friends given the right situations. With love and support you can overcome any obstacle that life throws at you. I overcame some of the most challenging obstacles and I wouldn’t have done it without the love of my friends and family.

       2012 was a rough year for Jamie! First the twins lose their parents when their plane crashed going home to visit family in Russia. I was there comforting Jamie for he is my best friend and Mathieu was also there too. J-Lee buried himself in his work not trying to deal with his emotions and didn’t even want to go to the funeral. Then someone broke into Jamie’s house and stole Jamie’s work computer luckily the computer was encrypted and they were able to retrieve it. July 4th came around and Jessica was coming home from my cousins house and a drunk driver swerved into her lane and before she could react her car was hit and flipped over the guard rail and she died later that night while Jamie was at the fireworks with his children. Jamie was a wreck and Mathieu watched Jamie’s Kids while I went to the hospital along with Joey, Katie and J-Lee. Jamie could not take it anymore and his emotions got the best of him and he tried committing suicide. I found Jamie and I told him that it is not worth ending your life. I told him Jessica would want you to stay strong and take care of those kids. I pulled Jamie into a hug and told him I love him. Jamie just cried into my shoulder and I held him comforting him like he has done for me so many times.

       Almost a year later on June 28^th Matt was walking home from the store and it was late out. He went to the store to get some baby Tylenol for our son since he was running a fever. He walked passed a dark alley and someone grabbed him from behind and dragged him into the alley. Matt tried fighting his assailant and was stabbed in the neck. He fell to the ground and bled out. The person who killed Matt took his ring, watch, phone, wallet and sneakers before dousing Matt in gasoline and was about to set his body on fire when a cop told him not to move. The cop arrested the guy who killed Matt and came to my house to deliver the bad news. Jamie was there since he moved in the guest house with his 2 children. I slumped to the floor crying at the thought of losing the love of my life. Jamie held me and after a while I was able to go claim Matt’s Body. I had him cremated after washing the gas off him.

       2 Years later Jamie and I married each other because we knew it was time to move on. We still honored Jessica and Mathieu by lighting lanterns on the day of their deaths and theirs pictures were forever displayed in our house. I Love Jamie and I could feel Mathieu watching over me smiling down on me and our kids and Jessica is right there watching over Jamie and their kids. Jamie and I continued loving each other and we always honored Jessica and Mathieu. Jamie finally moved his office to the hotel where he could still be a gay rights Lawyer and we also had part of the hotel where we held conferences to help with rape victims and those who are suicidal. 

The End